Hi Everyone,
Thank you for all your words of comfort and hope. I appreciate it. Today, my basal temp is 98.2 F. So hopefully, yes. I'm not due until the end of January so lets see.
Becca - I am aware that frequent baby dances can cause weak swimmers. Usually we danced every other day around the time. Like I said, I was so depressed and more less "giving up" that I didn't really keep that in mind. Thank you, though.
Wendy - It's nice to know what is finally goin' on!!!
LouLou - It is a HUGE relief to know that I am capable of conceiving. We have decided to give it until August - September. After that, we may get the swimmer's checked, but we WILL start pursuing adoption.
ANYWAY, there is another twist that I forgot to mention! My grandma was admitted into the hospital early last Sunday morning with congestive heart failure. Sometime around 4:00 am. My mom didn't tell me until Sunday afternoon. They didn't think she would make it. Now, I didn't know any of this until after we had all the baby dances. ANYWAY, I went in to see her. She was barely able to breathe yet alone speak. She was attempting to talk to me, but her gurgling was so loud that I couldn't understand most of it. After I said what I thought would be my finally "goodbye", we left and went home. She made it through the night and is still alive today but in-and-out of it. NOW, Monday she came down with pneumonia and a fever of 102 F. So she's still borderline. The pneumonia is making her CHF that much worse.
ANYWAY, I'm praying that I don't get it. I was holding her hand and kissing her forehead. I was by her mouth, trying to understand what she was saying. So far I feel fine like nothing is different. I pray that it stays that way.
As far as her possible passing, death doesn't usually impact me a whole lot. I am the go to girl in my family when it comes to putting down animals or being there when a member of the family is passing. I'm good at calming people down. I use to work in a cancer clinic so I guess it's just a part of me. It's not that I don't care. I just view it as they are going to a better place. I wasn't upset and didn't shed one tear seeing her hooked up to all the machines. Instead, I held her hand and told her to close her eyes.
I don't think that that would have prevented me from conceiving, right? I wasn't upset. Plus, my temp is still very high and still climbing.
Lauren - You mentioned that you told a cashier that you were pregnant. If I am, everyone will be caught off-guard. I wouldn't tell until everything calmed down and there was no doubt. But could you imagine the looks on everyone's faces??? That will really blow their minds. It couldn't be more of a surprise!
Again, thank you all for keeping me in your thoughts! <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"><img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0"><img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-happy.gif" border="0">