Scarlett81
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Hi Guys!
Well, I'm up and I can't sleep and I'm so nervous I can't eat. Today my hubby and I are going to my CF center to see the genetic counselor and talk with the fertility clinic and basically find out from my team if I'm healthy enough to try for a baby.
I've been doing so much reading and trying to inform myself of as much as I can. But right now I'm seeing just the obstacles to get there. Just to get pregnant.....to safely carry....to be able to breastfeed.....to take best care of myself and a baby!!!! It's so much. There's so much to consider..how can I keep my right mind?!
I may get there and my doctor may reccomend that I don't try. I don't even know yet how that would make me feel. My husband and I decided that if we can't reproduce we will adopt. We are both totally comfortable with that too. First-provided my health is good enough-we would want to try though.
I feel very strongly in that if my doctor says she'd rather see us adopt for the sake of my health...then I will listen to her. My husband probably feels stronger about that than I do. And, like I said, we are happy with adoption. Many of you know I was adopted, so its not a foreign concept to us. But even with that, I reading up on it. My GOD what an ordeal! The cost, the waiting....
Honestly though-I have no idea what she'll say. Oh God, I'm crying now guys. (maybe I'm already pregnant and I don't know it!) J/K!! No, I can hardly see the screen.
See- and maybe some of you can relate to this. Ok, growing up, I had a great pediatrician for cf, I mean like a 2nd father. He came to my wedding and danced with us! BUT.......growing up all I ever heard from my "cf world" was -you can never get pregnant, you can die, tie your tubes, which I almost did at 19! Thank God I didn't listen to them! Now, I'm older, in an adult clinic. Guys, my team now says I basically have mild cf. I have consistent high PFt's. So, I have to change my thought pattern. I always thought that adoption would be my only option b/c trying for kids would be selfish and a death sentence.
I'm running ahead too much. Who knows what will happen. I'm so nervous about today. I'll be shaking walking in to the office.
I just want to thank everyone that has given me kind words of advice so far. I think about where my hubby and I were on the topic of children just a few months ago......and today we're going to a fertility doctor!<img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"><img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-confused.gif" border="0"><img src="i/expressions/puppy_eyes.gif" border="0">
Well, I'm up and I can't sleep and I'm so nervous I can't eat. Today my hubby and I are going to my CF center to see the genetic counselor and talk with the fertility clinic and basically find out from my team if I'm healthy enough to try for a baby.
I've been doing so much reading and trying to inform myself of as much as I can. But right now I'm seeing just the obstacles to get there. Just to get pregnant.....to safely carry....to be able to breastfeed.....to take best care of myself and a baby!!!! It's so much. There's so much to consider..how can I keep my right mind?!
I may get there and my doctor may reccomend that I don't try. I don't even know yet how that would make me feel. My husband and I decided that if we can't reproduce we will adopt. We are both totally comfortable with that too. First-provided my health is good enough-we would want to try though.
I feel very strongly in that if my doctor says she'd rather see us adopt for the sake of my health...then I will listen to her. My husband probably feels stronger about that than I do. And, like I said, we are happy with adoption. Many of you know I was adopted, so its not a foreign concept to us. But even with that, I reading up on it. My GOD what an ordeal! The cost, the waiting....
Honestly though-I have no idea what she'll say. Oh God, I'm crying now guys. (maybe I'm already pregnant and I don't know it!) J/K!! No, I can hardly see the screen.
See- and maybe some of you can relate to this. Ok, growing up, I had a great pediatrician for cf, I mean like a 2nd father. He came to my wedding and danced with us! BUT.......growing up all I ever heard from my "cf world" was -you can never get pregnant, you can die, tie your tubes, which I almost did at 19! Thank God I didn't listen to them! Now, I'm older, in an adult clinic. Guys, my team now says I basically have mild cf. I have consistent high PFt's. So, I have to change my thought pattern. I always thought that adoption would be my only option b/c trying for kids would be selfish and a death sentence.
I'm running ahead too much. Who knows what will happen. I'm so nervous about today. I'll be shaking walking in to the office.
I just want to thank everyone that has given me kind words of advice so far. I think about where my hubby and I were on the topic of children just a few months ago......and today we're going to a fertility doctor!<img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"><img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-confused.gif" border="0"><img src="i/expressions/puppy_eyes.gif" border="0">