Scarlett81
New member
Hey all,
Well I have to say, after sleeping on yesterday I feel a little better. As you all know, I really had set in my mind my whole life that I would adopt someday, but never be able to have children naturally. And I was ok with that. And then recently I began to just wonder-maybe I could? So I'm all nervous all morning preparing to go. Then I finally calm down, and I think I went in thinking to myself-everything will be fine, she's gonna look at you and say, "christian, you can absolutely get pregnant, youre healthy enough."
I really thought that. B/c I think I am healthy for a CFer.
So when she told me -gently and kindly- that she didn't think I was, I was ok, but surprised. And she explained all the facts, all the ins and outs, and I thought she'd give me some magic solution. And then she moves on to starting talking about adoption. And the facts of that, and then I started to lose it. (I mean, she did exactly what I wanted, I didn't go there to have my ears tickled.) I thought we were there to have a totally different conversation. I guess I didn't realize that I wanted it.
Anyway, she wants me to start a more agressive program. Of diet, daily workouts, more therapies,ect. She wants me to come in every 2 months and be reevaluated. She has bi-monthly goals for me set out. And then once I reach the number that we want, if I can hold it for a year, then maybe pregnancy can be brought up again. But, my hubby and I did both get the impression that her first reccomendation would be adoption. A big concern I think is the cepacia. It kind of sneaks up on me, and does weird stuff to me. And I'm already resistant to a few meds. One thing my husband and I both agree on is that the risk-to a certian extent-is not worth it for us. I know there are people that are born to give birth. I admire that greatly and respect it. For us, first and foremost I want to raise children. And I want to be there as long as possible. And I think my hubby feels stronger about that than me.
Anyway, guys, it ended off well. I have defined goals that I can start. She ended it with-she's never had a patient that wanted to be a parent, and one way or another, wasn't able to become one. And that's all I care about.
I also remember, I have a special gift. I was adopted. I think the number one complaint of adopted children is that no matter how much their parents love them, they can never really understand what it's like to be adopted. Well, I'd always be able to say to my child-I do understand how you feel, because I lived it too. I would truly be able to understand them.
We'll see what God has in store for me. Each day I wake up, each therapy, each treadmill run, I say-Christian, you're one step closer to your children. And whatever that means, birth or adoption, I'll take His gift.
Thanks every one. I really need you all right now. Also-You mothers out there-how do you do it? How do you keep up with your therapies, and taking care of yourself, and your kids? Especially with babies? What do you do when you need to do your Vest and the baby is screaming?
Well I have to say, after sleeping on yesterday I feel a little better. As you all know, I really had set in my mind my whole life that I would adopt someday, but never be able to have children naturally. And I was ok with that. And then recently I began to just wonder-maybe I could? So I'm all nervous all morning preparing to go. Then I finally calm down, and I think I went in thinking to myself-everything will be fine, she's gonna look at you and say, "christian, you can absolutely get pregnant, youre healthy enough."
I really thought that. B/c I think I am healthy for a CFer.
So when she told me -gently and kindly- that she didn't think I was, I was ok, but surprised. And she explained all the facts, all the ins and outs, and I thought she'd give me some magic solution. And then she moves on to starting talking about adoption. And the facts of that, and then I started to lose it. (I mean, she did exactly what I wanted, I didn't go there to have my ears tickled.) I thought we were there to have a totally different conversation. I guess I didn't realize that I wanted it.
Anyway, she wants me to start a more agressive program. Of diet, daily workouts, more therapies,ect. She wants me to come in every 2 months and be reevaluated. She has bi-monthly goals for me set out. And then once I reach the number that we want, if I can hold it for a year, then maybe pregnancy can be brought up again. But, my hubby and I did both get the impression that her first reccomendation would be adoption. A big concern I think is the cepacia. It kind of sneaks up on me, and does weird stuff to me. And I'm already resistant to a few meds. One thing my husband and I both agree on is that the risk-to a certian extent-is not worth it for us. I know there are people that are born to give birth. I admire that greatly and respect it. For us, first and foremost I want to raise children. And I want to be there as long as possible. And I think my hubby feels stronger about that than me.
Anyway, guys, it ended off well. I have defined goals that I can start. She ended it with-she's never had a patient that wanted to be a parent, and one way or another, wasn't able to become one. And that's all I care about.
I also remember, I have a special gift. I was adopted. I think the number one complaint of adopted children is that no matter how much their parents love them, they can never really understand what it's like to be adopted. Well, I'd always be able to say to my child-I do understand how you feel, because I lived it too. I would truly be able to understand them.
We'll see what God has in store for me. Each day I wake up, each therapy, each treadmill run, I say-Christian, you're one step closer to your children. And whatever that means, birth or adoption, I'll take His gift.
Thanks every one. I really need you all right now. Also-You mothers out there-how do you do it? How do you keep up with your therapies, and taking care of yourself, and your kids? Especially with babies? What do you do when you need to do your Vest and the baby is screaming?