Marjolein,
I am sorry you are dealing with all this now. I hope that the docs are able to give you some answers with all the tests that they are going to be doing. I can definitely understand your worries, concerns about your health, confusion as to what to do persay and the desires you have for your life and future. I personally can not even say what I would decide in your situation. I would like to say I would go for another Tx but then again who knows. There are so many factors that can affect that decision for someone.
I hope that the testing happens soon and that the results give some more clearly defined answers. My thoughts are with you and I am sending love and hugs your way too.
Take Care,
Linds