Definitely dont' be sorry for the question. CFers face their own mortality every single day. I think that is why we are so passionate about certain things in our life. I am post-tx, and even though I usually feel healthy, it does cross my mind often that I might not see my daughter grow up. Immediately post-tx, I was really worried about getting an infection, and I almost became a homebody... even doing my shopping online, but as time went on, I realized that hey.. I still have to live a life here, and being scared of every little bug out there will drive a person crazy. I know that I could get an infection, or have rejection, or yeah.... even get hit by a bus, LOL, anyday, but i refuse to live a sheltered life b/c of it. I am def more careful now, have even made my daughter into a strict handwasher.
Immediately post-tx, you are more immunosuppressed than someone a year or so out. They won't even allow plants or fresh fruit or veggies in your room, but after they lower or take away some of your anti-rejection meds, you aren't as high risk anymore. Obviously, you have to be more careful than joe blow out there, but you don't have to go to Walmart with a mask on anymore. (remembering my first trip shopping after tx, and my mask, ughh) The good thing is that now when I get a cold or other virus, I know it won't likely land me in the hosp on IV's like it would pre-tx. Post-tx life is so wonderful in so many ways. There are risks, but I really can't comprehend anyone not opting for it when it's their only option other than death. Yeah, it may be unsuccessful, but the odds are for you instead of against you for sure.
I applaud you for asking these questions though, b/c I was so uninformed pre-tx. I didn't ask that many questions and I only talked to one post-tx patient a month before tx. I was shocked at a lot of things immediately post-tx, b/c I didn't know what to expect. So now, when people ask if it was painful.. I say heck yeah it was painful, but well worth it. I wish someone had told me that pre-tx. What a dork I was. Anyway, I've rambled sorry.
Christy
tx 11/12/01