update on my dog Sam

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nicolaj

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First i would like to thank the 15 people who posted and left so many kind words. <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
i sat at the computer in floods of tears, reading all your messages. All of them really touched me, and made me realise i wasnt alone. So many people have gone through what ive been through, which was very comforting.
Today my mum came to me and explained today was the day. my dad and my sisters boyfriend was going to take little sam to the vets. His tumor had got worse, leaving blood all around the house. sam had began to get destressed and confused because we was making him constantly sit on a sheet, when all he wanted to do was walk around the house freely. Felt like we were constantly picking him up, putting him back on the sheet. I left the house today because i didnt feel strong enough to be at home knowing he wouldnt be there much longer.
When i got back at 4pm,i knew he was going at 6, i just broke down in tears<img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-sad.gif" border="0">. it felt so so sad! at 5.30 my mum suggested that it would be best if me and my sister went to her house so that we was out the way when sam left. Before we went we walked into the kitchen were sam was sat in his basket watching my mum preparing tea.I knelt beside him,said goodbye and gave him a big kiss and cuddle! The drive to my sisters was the longest depressing journey ive ever taken. me and my sis cried all the way. At 6.30 we went back. We walked through the front door and wasnt greeted with a wagging tail! The kitchen looked bare without his basket and food bowl. Dad said the vet had explained it was the right time, and if left for a few more week, he would of been in pain.Dad stayed with sam as he was put to sleep.Im 21years of age and ive never seen my dad cry untill today!
Ive felt so lonely tonight. its only been 5hours and i feel so alone! i dont no what im going to do? I keep finding dog hairs everywere and seeing things that remind me of him. So strange to eat my tea and not have two puppy dog eyes looking up at me by my side!
Does anyone have any advice on coping?? because im really struggling! im supposed to be going a 21st birthday party tomorrow, but dont feel strong enough to go now.
i just want to cuddle Sam forever, he was so special!

RIP SAm <img src="i/expressions/dog.gif" border="0"> <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> xxxxxxxxxxx

p.s If any of you have a special pet at home, give them a cuddle!!!
 
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nicolaj

New member
First i would like to thank the 15 people who posted and left so many kind words. <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
i sat at the computer in floods of tears, reading all your messages. All of them really touched me, and made me realise i wasnt alone. So many people have gone through what ive been through, which was very comforting.
Today my mum came to me and explained today was the day. my dad and my sisters boyfriend was going to take little sam to the vets. His tumor had got worse, leaving blood all around the house. sam had began to get destressed and confused because we was making him constantly sit on a sheet, when all he wanted to do was walk around the house freely. Felt like we were constantly picking him up, putting him back on the sheet. I left the house today because i didnt feel strong enough to be at home knowing he wouldnt be there much longer.
When i got back at 4pm,i knew he was going at 6, i just broke down in tears<img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-sad.gif" border="0">. it felt so so sad! at 5.30 my mum suggested that it would be best if me and my sister went to her house so that we was out the way when sam left. Before we went we walked into the kitchen were sam was sat in his basket watching my mum preparing tea.I knelt beside him,said goodbye and gave him a big kiss and cuddle! The drive to my sisters was the longest depressing journey ive ever taken. me and my sis cried all the way. At 6.30 we went back. We walked through the front door and wasnt greeted with a wagging tail! The kitchen looked bare without his basket and food bowl. Dad said the vet had explained it was the right time, and if left for a few more week, he would of been in pain.Dad stayed with sam as he was put to sleep.Im 21years of age and ive never seen my dad cry untill today!
Ive felt so lonely tonight. its only been 5hours and i feel so alone! i dont no what im going to do? I keep finding dog hairs everywere and seeing things that remind me of him. So strange to eat my tea and not have two puppy dog eyes looking up at me by my side!
Does anyone have any advice on coping?? because im really struggling! im supposed to be going a 21st birthday party tomorrow, but dont feel strong enough to go now.
i just want to cuddle Sam forever, he was so special!

RIP SAm <img src="i/expressions/dog.gif" border="0"> <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> xxxxxxxxxxx

p.s If any of you have a special pet at home, give them a cuddle!!!
 
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nicolaj

New member
First i would like to thank the 15 people who posted and left so many kind words. <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
i sat at the computer in floods of tears, reading all your messages. All of them really touched me, and made me realise i wasnt alone. So many people have gone through what ive been through, which was very comforting.
Today my mum came to me and explained today was the day. my dad and my sisters boyfriend was going to take little sam to the vets. His tumor had got worse, leaving blood all around the house. sam had began to get destressed and confused because we was making him constantly sit on a sheet, when all he wanted to do was walk around the house freely. Felt like we were constantly picking him up, putting him back on the sheet. I left the house today because i didnt feel strong enough to be at home knowing he wouldnt be there much longer.
When i got back at 4pm,i knew he was going at 6, i just broke down in tears<img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-sad.gif" border="0">. it felt so so sad! at 5.30 my mum suggested that it would be best if me and my sister went to her house so that we was out the way when sam left. Before we went we walked into the kitchen were sam was sat in his basket watching my mum preparing tea.I knelt beside him,said goodbye and gave him a big kiss and cuddle! The drive to my sisters was the longest depressing journey ive ever taken. me and my sis cried all the way. At 6.30 we went back. We walked through the front door and wasnt greeted with a wagging tail! The kitchen looked bare without his basket and food bowl. Dad said the vet had explained it was the right time, and if left for a few more week, he would of been in pain.Dad stayed with sam as he was put to sleep.Im 21years of age and ive never seen my dad cry untill today!
Ive felt so lonely tonight. its only been 5hours and i feel so alone! i dont no what im going to do? I keep finding dog hairs everywere and seeing things that remind me of him. So strange to eat my tea and not have two puppy dog eyes looking up at me by my side!
Does anyone have any advice on coping?? because im really struggling! im supposed to be going a 21st birthday party tomorrow, but dont feel strong enough to go now.
i just want to cuddle Sam forever, he was so special!

RIP SAm <img src="i/expressions/dog.gif" border="0"> <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> xxxxxxxxxxx

p.s If any of you have a special pet at home, give them a cuddle!!!
 
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nicolaj

New member
First i would like to thank the 15 people who posted and left so many kind words. <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
i sat at the computer in floods of tears, reading all your messages. All of them really touched me, and made me realise i wasnt alone. So many people have gone through what ive been through, which was very comforting.
Today my mum came to me and explained today was the day. my dad and my sisters boyfriend was going to take little sam to the vets. His tumor had got worse, leaving blood all around the house. sam had began to get destressed and confused because we was making him constantly sit on a sheet, when all he wanted to do was walk around the house freely. Felt like we were constantly picking him up, putting him back on the sheet. I left the house today because i didnt feel strong enough to be at home knowing he wouldnt be there much longer.
When i got back at 4pm,i knew he was going at 6, i just broke down in tears<img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-sad.gif" border="0">. it felt so so sad! at 5.30 my mum suggested that it would be best if me and my sister went to her house so that we was out the way when sam left. Before we went we walked into the kitchen were sam was sat in his basket watching my mum preparing tea.I knelt beside him,said goodbye and gave him a big kiss and cuddle! The drive to my sisters was the longest depressing journey ive ever taken. me and my sis cried all the way. At 6.30 we went back. We walked through the front door and wasnt greeted with a wagging tail! The kitchen looked bare without his basket and food bowl. Dad said the vet had explained it was the right time, and if left for a few more week, he would of been in pain.Dad stayed with sam as he was put to sleep.Im 21years of age and ive never seen my dad cry untill today!
Ive felt so lonely tonight. its only been 5hours and i feel so alone! i dont no what im going to do? I keep finding dog hairs everywere and seeing things that remind me of him. So strange to eat my tea and not have two puppy dog eyes looking up at me by my side!
Does anyone have any advice on coping?? because im really struggling! im supposed to be going a 21st birthday party tomorrow, but dont feel strong enough to go now.
i just want to cuddle Sam forever, he was so special!

RIP SAm <img src="i/expressions/dog.gif" border="0"> <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> xxxxxxxxxxx

p.s If any of you have a special pet at home, give them a cuddle!!!
 
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nicolaj

New member
First i would like to thank the 15 people who posted and left so many kind words. <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
i sat at the computer in floods of tears, reading all your messages. All of them really touched me, and made me realise i wasnt alone. So many people have gone through what ive been through, which was very comforting.
Today my mum came to me and explained today was the day. my dad and my sisters boyfriend was going to take little sam to the vets. His tumor had got worse, leaving blood all around the house. sam had began to get destressed and confused because we was making him constantly sit on a sheet, when all he wanted to do was walk around the house freely. Felt like we were constantly picking him up, putting him back on the sheet. I left the house today because i didnt feel strong enough to be at home knowing he wouldnt be there much longer.
When i got back at 4pm,i knew he was going at 6, i just broke down in tears<img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-sad.gif" border="0">. it felt so so sad! at 5.30 my mum suggested that it would be best if me and my sister went to her house so that we was out the way when sam left. Before we went we walked into the kitchen were sam was sat in his basket watching my mum preparing tea.I knelt beside him,said goodbye and gave him a big kiss and cuddle! The drive to my sisters was the longest depressing journey ive ever taken. me and my sis cried all the way. At 6.30 we went back. We walked through the front door and wasnt greeted with a wagging tail! The kitchen looked bare without his basket and food bowl. Dad said the vet had explained it was the right time, and if left for a few more week, he would of been in pain.Dad stayed with sam as he was put to sleep.Im 21years of age and ive never seen my dad cry untill today!
Ive felt so lonely tonight. its only been 5hours and i feel so alone! i dont no what im going to do? I keep finding dog hairs everywere and seeing things that remind me of him. So strange to eat my tea and not have two puppy dog eyes looking up at me by my side!
Does anyone have any advice on coping?? because im really struggling! im supposed to be going a 21st birthday party tomorrow, but dont feel strong enough to go now.
i just want to cuddle Sam forever, he was so special!

RIP SAm <img src="i/expressions/dog.gif" border="0"> <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> xxxxxxxxxxx

p.s If any of you have a special pet at home, give them a cuddle!!!
 
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nicolaj

New member
First i would like to thank the 15 people who posted and left so many kind words. <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
i sat at the computer in floods of tears, reading all your messages. All of them really touched me, and made me realise i wasnt alone. So many people have gone through what ive been through, which was very comforting.
Today my mum came to me and explained today was the day. my dad and my sisters boyfriend was going to take little sam to the vets. His tumor had got worse, leaving blood all around the house. sam had began to get destressed and confused because we was making him constantly sit on a sheet, when all he wanted to do was walk around the house freely. Felt like we were constantly picking him up, putting him back on the sheet. I left the house today because i didnt feel strong enough to be at home knowing he wouldnt be there much longer.
When i got back at 4pm,i knew he was going at 6, i just broke down in tears<img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-sad.gif" border="0">. it felt so so sad! at 5.30 my mum suggested that it would be best if me and my sister went to her house so that we was out the way when sam left. Before we went we walked into the kitchen were sam was sat in his basket watching my mum preparing tea.I knelt beside him,said goodbye and gave him a big kiss and cuddle! The drive to my sisters was the longest depressing journey ive ever taken. me and my sis cried all the way. At 6.30 we went back. We walked through the front door and wasnt greeted with a wagging tail! The kitchen looked bare without his basket and food bowl. Dad said the vet had explained it was the right time, and if left for a few more week, he would of been in pain.Dad stayed with sam as he was put to sleep.Im 21years of age and ive never seen my dad cry untill today!
Ive felt so lonely tonight. its only been 5hours and i feel so alone! i dont no what im going to do? I keep finding dog hairs everywere and seeing things that remind me of him. So strange to eat my tea and not have two puppy dog eyes looking up at me by my side!
Does anyone have any advice on coping?? because im really struggling! im supposed to be going a 21st birthday party tomorrow, but dont feel strong enough to go now.
i just want to cuddle Sam forever, he was so special!

RIP SAm <img src="i/expressions/dog.gif" border="0"> <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> xxxxxxxxxxx

p.s If any of you have a special pet at home, give them a cuddle!!!
 
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blondelawyer

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Nicola,

I am so sorry to hear about Sam. I know that it was difficult, but it really sounds like it was necessary and the best for Sam. I start to cry just thinking about this. I wish that I knew a good way for you to cope, but I don't. The only thing that I can suggest is to let yourself be sad and grieve...give yourself permission to be upset. Then maybe plant a tree or make a garden stone or something to have as a reminder of Sam. The other thing is for you to go out and do things. I know that I feel SO MUCH worse when I am down if I sit at home and think about it. So, go to that party tomorrow--you will probably feel better after you do.

Again, so sorry about your loss!

Lisa
 
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blondelawyer

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Nicola,

I am so sorry to hear about Sam. I know that it was difficult, but it really sounds like it was necessary and the best for Sam. I start to cry just thinking about this. I wish that I knew a good way for you to cope, but I don't. The only thing that I can suggest is to let yourself be sad and grieve...give yourself permission to be upset. Then maybe plant a tree or make a garden stone or something to have as a reminder of Sam. The other thing is for you to go out and do things. I know that I feel SO MUCH worse when I am down if I sit at home and think about it. So, go to that party tomorrow--you will probably feel better after you do.

Again, so sorry about your loss!

Lisa
 
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blondelawyer

New member
Nicola,

I am so sorry to hear about Sam. I know that it was difficult, but it really sounds like it was necessary and the best for Sam. I start to cry just thinking about this. I wish that I knew a good way for you to cope, but I don't. The only thing that I can suggest is to let yourself be sad and grieve...give yourself permission to be upset. Then maybe plant a tree or make a garden stone or something to have as a reminder of Sam. The other thing is for you to go out and do things. I know that I feel SO MUCH worse when I am down if I sit at home and think about it. So, go to that party tomorrow--you will probably feel better after you do.

Again, so sorry about your loss!

Lisa
 
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blondelawyer

New member
Nicola,

I am so sorry to hear about Sam. I know that it was difficult, but it really sounds like it was necessary and the best for Sam. I start to cry just thinking about this. I wish that I knew a good way for you to cope, but I don't. The only thing that I can suggest is to let yourself be sad and grieve...give yourself permission to be upset. Then maybe plant a tree or make a garden stone or something to have as a reminder of Sam. The other thing is for you to go out and do things. I know that I feel SO MUCH worse when I am down if I sit at home and think about it. So, go to that party tomorrow--you will probably feel better after you do.

Again, so sorry about your loss!

Lisa
 
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blondelawyer

New member
Nicola,

I am so sorry to hear about Sam. I know that it was difficult, but it really sounds like it was necessary and the best for Sam. I start to cry just thinking about this. I wish that I knew a good way for you to cope, but I don't. The only thing that I can suggest is to let yourself be sad and grieve...give yourself permission to be upset. Then maybe plant a tree or make a garden stone or something to have as a reminder of Sam. The other thing is for you to go out and do things. I know that I feel SO MUCH worse when I am down if I sit at home and think about it. So, go to that party tomorrow--you will probably feel better after you do.

Again, so sorry about your loss!

Lisa
 
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blondelawyer

New member
Nicola,

I am so sorry to hear about Sam. I know that it was difficult, but it really sounds like it was necessary and the best for Sam. I start to cry just thinking about this. I wish that I knew a good way for you to cope, but I don't. The only thing that I can suggest is to let yourself be sad and grieve...give yourself permission to be upset. Then maybe plant a tree or make a garden stone or something to have as a reminder of Sam. The other thing is for you to go out and do things. I know that I feel SO MUCH worse when I am down if I sit at home and think about it. So, go to that party tomorrow--you will probably feel better after you do.

Again, so sorry about your loss!

Lisa
 
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want2Banony

New member
Dear Nicola,

I am so very sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I know Sam was very special to you and you will miss him, but remember that he loved you and you gave him a good life. As for coping, I think you just have to give yourself time. In time you will be able to remember the good times you had with him without feeling so much pain. I like Lisa's idea of finding a special way to remember him. I will give my dogs a special hug in memory of Sam. Hang in there and know we are all thinking of you.
 
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want2Banony

New member
Dear Nicola,

I am so very sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I know Sam was very special to you and you will miss him, but remember that he loved you and you gave him a good life. As for coping, I think you just have to give yourself time. In time you will be able to remember the good times you had with him without feeling so much pain. I like Lisa's idea of finding a special way to remember him. I will give my dogs a special hug in memory of Sam. Hang in there and know we are all thinking of you.
 
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want2Banony

New member
Dear Nicola,

I am so very sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I know Sam was very special to you and you will miss him, but remember that he loved you and you gave him a good life. As for coping, I think you just have to give yourself time. In time you will be able to remember the good times you had with him without feeling so much pain. I like Lisa's idea of finding a special way to remember him. I will give my dogs a special hug in memory of Sam. Hang in there and know we are all thinking of you.
 
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want2Banony

New member
Dear Nicola,

I am so very sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I know Sam was very special to you and you will miss him, but remember that he loved you and you gave him a good life. As for coping, I think you just have to give yourself time. In time you will be able to remember the good times you had with him without feeling so much pain. I like Lisa's idea of finding a special way to remember him. I will give my dogs a special hug in memory of Sam. Hang in there and know we are all thinking of you.
 
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want2Banony

New member
Dear Nicola,

I am so very sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I know Sam was very special to you and you will miss him, but remember that he loved you and you gave him a good life. As for coping, I think you just have to give yourself time. In time you will be able to remember the good times you had with him without feeling so much pain. I like Lisa's idea of finding a special way to remember him. I will give my dogs a special hug in memory of Sam. Hang in there and know we are all thinking of you.
 
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want2Banony

New member
Dear Nicola,

I am so very sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I know Sam was very special to you and you will miss him, but remember that he loved you and you gave him a good life. As for coping, I think you just have to give yourself time. In time you will be able to remember the good times you had with him without feeling so much pain. I like Lisa's idea of finding a special way to remember him. I will give my dogs a special hug in memory of Sam. Hang in there and know we are all thinking of you.
 
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CFWife

New member
I am sorry to hear this. Sam was lucky to spend his life with someone like you who cared so much for him. You are in my prayers. I know how hard it is to lose a pet. I am sorry for your loss.
 
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CFWife

New member
I am sorry to hear this. Sam was lucky to spend his life with someone like you who cared so much for him. You are in my prayers. I know how hard it is to lose a pet. I am sorry for your loss.
 
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