Hey, I've got one of those black clouds following me too. My Grandpa just died and of course I'm too sick to fly to the funeral. Just missed out on my friend's wedding and another friend's baby shower b/c of being non-stop sick. I get fevers everyday. I'm trying to get a lung transplant but I still have 2 more tests to do and there is concern over my "bugs". They are resistant to everything but 2 antibiotics. One I just did IV and was still sick at the end and the other I already do every other month. I'm stuck home most of the time due to being so sick. I'm missing out on so much in life. I'm so torn up about the loss of my Grandpa and last year losing my Grandma. Oh, and then a few weeks ago while on the IV, one of my home health care nurses was horrible and did some really sketchy and unsanitary things that caused me to have to get blood cultures to make sure I didn't get some blood infection. There are a few other irritating things going on too. On top of all this, I'm dealing with my parents drama and problems. Ugh! I need a break!! I need something really good to happen! So I feel ya! I understand completely how frustrating life can get. I hope things get easier for you! Hang in there! We all have to stay strong and roll with the punches!