I am sure the decision was tough to make. You sound like a determined and motivated person, and you could have made it work through sheer force of will. But I think that you made the right decision. Taking care of three kids that small would take a toll on your health and it would be very painful to give them up if you decided that you were getting too sick.
I only have bronchiectasis. I have an FEV1 over 100, no PI, no CFRD, and my cultures are relatively boring.
Nonetheless, I find it difficult to care for my three kids (2, 5, 6). If the State were evaluating me during some of my sick weeks, I might be in trouble. I have kept my kids home from school because I am too sick to take them there. I have woken up on the floor of the living room in the middle of the day with a children's book on my face and no idea where my two and then-four-year-olds are (in the kitchen trying to microwave some milk!).
Most of the time, I am competent, I assure you. But three little kids: sometimes I spend every single night of a whole week washing vomit-covered sheets and jammies. Then, no surprise, I get the puke-vitus, then pneumonia. Every illness (strep, coxsackie, whatever) has to go through all of them. Every activity and toy is multiplied by three.
I'll stop rambling. You get the gist. I think you made the right decision.
Edited to add:
After I posted this, I worried that I sounded presumptious--like I know your life situation in terms of health and help--which I don't.
I guess what I am trying to say is that I often feel like I can barely savor the beauty of my children because of my health and their number and ages. I think you are making the right decision to try something different for yourself. That's all
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Melissa, 33 yrs, bronchiectasis (no cf)
I only have bronchiectasis. I have an FEV1 over 100, no PI, no CFRD, and my cultures are relatively boring.
Nonetheless, I find it difficult to care for my three kids (2, 5, 6). If the State were evaluating me during some of my sick weeks, I might be in trouble. I have kept my kids home from school because I am too sick to take them there. I have woken up on the floor of the living room in the middle of the day with a children's book on my face and no idea where my two and then-four-year-olds are (in the kitchen trying to microwave some milk!).
Most of the time, I am competent, I assure you. But three little kids: sometimes I spend every single night of a whole week washing vomit-covered sheets and jammies. Then, no surprise, I get the puke-vitus, then pneumonia. Every illness (strep, coxsackie, whatever) has to go through all of them. Every activity and toy is multiplied by three.
I'll stop rambling. You get the gist. I think you made the right decision.
Edited to add:
After I posted this, I worried that I sounded presumptious--like I know your life situation in terms of health and help--which I don't.
I guess what I am trying to say is that I often feel like I can barely savor the beauty of my children because of my health and their number and ages. I think you are making the right decision to try something different for yourself. That's all
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Melissa, 33 yrs, bronchiectasis (no cf)