Sara, when I was in high school, I'd always been extremely healthy and knew very little about my disease, so I wrote a paper about it for a science class. I interviewed my doctor, and when he told me that once I cultured pseudomonas I could expect to be hospitalized at least once a year, I began to dread that day. A few years later, when I cultured pseudomonas in college, I thought for sure my life was over and the decline was starting. What a horrible feeling. Fast forward almost 30 years, and I've had a teaching career and I have a great family with my husband and 3 kids. Sure there have been times when my health is tough and I need IV treatments every few months. But then I've gone several years without IV. It was nothing like my doctor's prediction and nothing like what I feared was about to happen.
Like you said, you already know that everybody's course of disease is different. But living with the fear of decline is probably something most of us have in common. It's still something I struggle with, but realistically I know that the fear serves no good purpose. I find it's best to focus not on when the decline might happen, but how I live my days before that time.
Martha
45 w/CF, mom to 3 kids with no CF.