Thanks Shelly for the support,
You hit it on the nose, I think my parents just don't like kids. Well they hate my four yr old for sure. They resent me for having him, cause it takes away from my CFer who is five. My family is the type to pat you or others for the great job you have done, cause they get more gratification from strangers then they would from their own children. If they tell me, their daughter how good I am...well so what. I'm their daughter. But if they express how great you, Shelly are, then that makes them feel special. It is self serving, and I have always felt it being the black sheep of the family, however, I can never forgive it, seeing as I am litterally on my own to deal with this and all the out come of my daughters pre - determined death. My parents are still in denial, that it is one of their jeans past on to me that caused this illness and hard ship for my daughter. I chose to go to the sperm bank to conceive my son. I, as a single parent by choice and a nurse by carreer, couldn't see myself being childless. However, not everyone thinks it is a great idea, therefore explaining my parents behaviour. You see, my sweet daughter who has CF, was quiet as a mouse, my son who doesn't have CF, hasen't shut up, since birth. (he's very sensitive, a very attractive quality, just not to my parents) hehe. I think its sweet, my parents not so tolerable to the noise, so the trouble starts!!!
So now I have made a choice to iliminate my family for the sake of my children. You see, I hate my siblings and they hate me it has always been that way, my parents play us against each other. I will never accept my children hating each other and promote only the strongest love between the two of them. Therefore having to cut out my parents as they favorite my daughter over my son, and he is starting to pick up on it. I feel very sad about taking away their grand parents, but in a few years their grand parents will be dead and they will still be here to love and support each other. That is the most important part of all, because if something should happen to me, they will only have each other.
This is great getting it off my chess.....THANKSS!!!! after all, it is cheaper then my therapist who by the way , keeps changing her phone number. lol
take care N.
You hit it on the nose, I think my parents just don't like kids. Well they hate my four yr old for sure. They resent me for having him, cause it takes away from my CFer who is five. My family is the type to pat you or others for the great job you have done, cause they get more gratification from strangers then they would from their own children. If they tell me, their daughter how good I am...well so what. I'm their daughter. But if they express how great you, Shelly are, then that makes them feel special. It is self serving, and I have always felt it being the black sheep of the family, however, I can never forgive it, seeing as I am litterally on my own to deal with this and all the out come of my daughters pre - determined death. My parents are still in denial, that it is one of their jeans past on to me that caused this illness and hard ship for my daughter. I chose to go to the sperm bank to conceive my son. I, as a single parent by choice and a nurse by carreer, couldn't see myself being childless. However, not everyone thinks it is a great idea, therefore explaining my parents behaviour. You see, my sweet daughter who has CF, was quiet as a mouse, my son who doesn't have CF, hasen't shut up, since birth. (he's very sensitive, a very attractive quality, just not to my parents) hehe. I think its sweet, my parents not so tolerable to the noise, so the trouble starts!!!
So now I have made a choice to iliminate my family for the sake of my children. You see, I hate my siblings and they hate me it has always been that way, my parents play us against each other. I will never accept my children hating each other and promote only the strongest love between the two of them. Therefore having to cut out my parents as they favorite my daughter over my son, and he is starting to pick up on it. I feel very sad about taking away their grand parents, but in a few years their grand parents will be dead and they will still be here to love and support each other. That is the most important part of all, because if something should happen to me, they will only have each other.
This is great getting it off my chess.....THANKSS!!!! after all, it is cheaper then my therapist who by the way , keeps changing her phone number. lol
take care N.