Asexyblond23
New member
Hey everyone,
This is one of those things that I feel I can only talk with you all about b/c you will understand. Its like this morning again had anexity and a paninc attack and I just sat in the bathroom and cried b/c I just hate this and I was like I have to get on here b/c this is the only place I can feel peace talking about it.
Anexity has taken over my life. I am even anexious about going back to sleep after this vest and neb right now b/c Im scared I wont wake up. I have anexity every day that I am going to die. I am so so so so scared to die. I just want to cry right now. I am and have been for about 5 years on anexity/depression meds and they work good sometimes. Im really scared that if I am having this much trouble when my FEV1 is in the low 90's then crap what am I going to be like when it gets in the 40's? And I have bllod clot problems and I know im going to have to get a port again but thats what made me code and go into the icu 5 years ago. They say I have PTSD over that one, I was like no kidding really <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">
Im worried I have upped my meds from 40-60mg in the past month, I keep getting higher and right now its not working. Does anyone else feel like anexity has or is taking them over? I want so much to live a normal live but every thought every move it attached to anexity and thinking that I am going to die that next min. Its so hard. I just started a new councler also so thats good but I just need CF friends to talk to about this.
This is one of those things that I feel I can only talk with you all about b/c you will understand. Its like this morning again had anexity and a paninc attack and I just sat in the bathroom and cried b/c I just hate this and I was like I have to get on here b/c this is the only place I can feel peace talking about it.
Anexity has taken over my life. I am even anexious about going back to sleep after this vest and neb right now b/c Im scared I wont wake up. I have anexity every day that I am going to die. I am so so so so scared to die. I just want to cry right now. I am and have been for about 5 years on anexity/depression meds and they work good sometimes. Im really scared that if I am having this much trouble when my FEV1 is in the low 90's then crap what am I going to be like when it gets in the 40's? And I have bllod clot problems and I know im going to have to get a port again but thats what made me code and go into the icu 5 years ago. They say I have PTSD over that one, I was like no kidding really <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">
Im worried I have upped my meds from 40-60mg in the past month, I keep getting higher and right now its not working. Does anyone else feel like anexity has or is taking them over? I want so much to live a normal live but every thought every move it attached to anexity and thinking that I am going to die that next min. Its so hard. I just started a new councler also so thats good but I just need CF friends to talk to about this.