<div class="FTQUOTE"><begin quote><i>Originally posted by: <b>SarahJean1976</b></i>
I posted this on Kayleesgrammas Blog and wanted to share it with the rest of you... Thank you all for loving my dear cousin... xoxo
Your post found me with tears in my heart and soul, but a smile for my dear cousin... Throughout the years I have lost so many to this terrible disease, but none have affected me the way losing my cousin did... I am 5 years older than Jarod and CF was always our bond... and granted we didn't talk as much as I wish we had, I wish I could put into words how this feels right now... I wish I had more of a relationship with him... I read his words of wisdom and laugh at his comics and the relationship Jarod had with the Lord was so inspiring and rock solid that I can never put words to it... He inspired me, like many of you... I posted a blog about him on my foundation's myspace the other day and I could not believe the people he touched on here...
I am trying so hard not to feel guilty right now, because had it been me who went first, I would not want him to feel guilty... Us CFers have different kinds of relationships and I don't know if someone who doesn't have CF will understand, but when we lose one of us, it is hard and harder in a way when we shared that CF gene that made us sick... I can't even put into how I feel right now... I loved Jarod and I wish I could call him and tell him that... I know he knows...
Thank you for posting your post about Jarod, it is so awesome how many lives he touched...
Breathe Easy my sweet cousin
Sarah</end quote></div>
{{{{{Hugs}}}} to you Sarah..
I think when we lose a loved one we feel that we should have done things differently , showed more love , seen them more often, hugged them tighter.. I believe most ppl feel this way..
Having c/f and having someone close to you have c/f has to be so much harder because of not being able to be together, or having to be extra careful if you are together.. It is an extra burden on ppl w/ family members that have it.. so unfair
Im sure Jarod knew how much you loved him and im sure you have a special angel watching over you ... Take care and God Bless you...
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