Kelly, You have quite a bit of responsibility to take on. I am not a parent of a CFer, but years of watching my parents and parents of other CF children, I know there are times that are more stressful than others.Why don't you talk to a social worker, either at the CF center hospital, or contact one that is not associated with the CF center. Your fear of letting the CF team know about your feelings is understandable, but I bet you are not the first parent to have those feelings. But do try to get some help. A social worker might help with some new coping skills, asking for help, resources of agencies that help parents with chronic illness. Maybe attending some type of Mom and Baby exercise classes might be nice. To get your 7 month old out of the "sick" atmosphere and for you to see that she is a person who can do many things, considering she is 7 months old!! LOLYou might want to ask about anti depressants for yourself. When life is overwhelming as it appears to be for you, you sometimes need some help, medicine wise and most likely temporary. Do you work or go to school? See if there are other moms that might want to gather for a morning mom and baby time. Time to appreciate your baby and get together with other moms and see what they do to cope. You might want to see if there are any daycares or YMCA's that have day care programs, so that you and baby can get out of the house. Volunteer to help at the daycare and maybe in return you get some free day care time. Ask around.You have a wonderful future ahead of you with both your children, and you need some time to yourself as well to keep that person whole and healthy. So take care of yourself as well.Please feel free to email me luckylungsforjo@aol.comJoanne Schum