Crying like a Idiot

[adamsants]

So I am sitting at work and doing my own personal things (cause that's what i do when the boss is not around) lol and i am changing pictures of the kids to some new ones for my husbands office and I am looking at old pictures of Adam and i just started crying and i can't stop. I don't know why I am so scared of losing him and it all started with this last hospitalization maybe it was because he was there so long. I have never really thought of him not being around but it really seems to be stuck in my thoughts and i can't get rid of it. everything makes me cry and the thoughts are just in my head. Okay I just wanted to vent and maybe i will stop now. I am sure it will take some more weeks of knowing everything is going to be okay. Sorry for going on.

Ann<img src="i/expressions/brokenheart.gif" border="0">

 

[adamsants]

So I am sitting at work and doing my own personal things (cause that's what i do when the boss is not around) lol and i am changing pictures of the kids to some new ones for my husbands office and I am looking at old pictures of Adam and i just started crying and i can't stop. I don't know why I am so scared of losing him and it all started with this last hospitalization maybe it was because he was there so long. I have never really thought of him not being around but it really seems to be stuck in my thoughts and i can't get rid of it. everything makes me cry and the thoughts are just in my head. Okay I just wanted to vent and maybe i will stop now. I am sure it will take some more weeks of knowing everything is going to be okay. Sorry for going on.

Ann<img src="i/expressions/brokenheart.gif" border="0">

 

[adamsants]

So I am sitting at work and doing my own personal things (cause that's what i do when the boss is not around) lol and i am changing pictures of the kids to some new ones for my husbands office and I am looking at old pictures of Adam and i just started crying and i can't stop. I don't know why I am so scared of losing him and it all started with this last hospitalization maybe it was because he was there so long. I have never really thought of him not being around but it really seems to be stuck in my thoughts and i can't get rid of it. everything makes me cry and the thoughts are just in my head. Okay I just wanted to vent and maybe i will stop now. I am sure it will take some more weeks of knowing everything is going to be okay. Sorry for going on.

Ann<img src="i/expressions/brokenheart.gif" border="0">

 

[adamsants]

So I am sitting at work and doing my own personal things (cause that's what i do when the boss is not around) lol and i am changing pictures of the kids to some new ones for my husbands office and I am looking at old pictures of Adam and i just started crying and i can't stop. I don't know why I am so scared of losing him and it all started with this last hospitalization maybe it was because he was there so long. I have never really thought of him not being around but it really seems to be stuck in my thoughts and i can't get rid of it. everything makes me cry and the thoughts are just in my head. Okay I just wanted to vent and maybe i will stop now. I am sure it will take some more weeks of knowing everything is going to be okay. Sorry for going on.

Ann<img src="i/expressions/brokenheart.gif" border="0">

 

[adamsants]

So I am sitting at work and doing my own personal things (cause that's what i do when the boss is not around) lol and i am changing pictures of the kids to some new ones for my husbands office and I am looking at old pictures of Adam and i just started crying and i can't stop. I don't know why I am so scared of losing him and it all started with this last hospitalization maybe it was because he was there so long. I have never really thought of him not being around but it really seems to be stuck in my thoughts and i can't get rid of it. everything makes me cry and the thoughts are just in my head. Okay I just wanted to vent and maybe i will stop now. I am sure it will take some more weeks of knowing everything is going to be okay. Sorry for going on.
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<br />Ann<img src="i/expressions/brokenheart.gif" border="0">

 

[Transplantmommy]

Ann, I know exactly how you feel. I was looking through my Aunt's blogspot a couple of weeks ago where she was keeping people updated about me and the transplants and I started crying, then realizing how close I was to not being here anymore if I didn't get the transplants. It's hard to look at old pictures of myself when I was so sick....I can imagine it's hard for you to look at Adam's pics and think of what might happen.

It was also hard for me to look at pictures of Brady when I was in Cleveland for 63 days and he was still a baby and couldn't be with me in the hospital. It did help to let it out though or talk to someone about it. So, go ahead and let it out whenever you want....it helps.

 

[Transplantmommy]

Ann, I know exactly how you feel. I was looking through my Aunt's blogspot a couple of weeks ago where she was keeping people updated about me and the transplants and I started crying, then realizing how close I was to not being here anymore if I didn't get the transplants. It's hard to look at old pictures of myself when I was so sick....I can imagine it's hard for you to look at Adam's pics and think of what might happen.

It was also hard for me to look at pictures of Brady when I was in Cleveland for 63 days and he was still a baby and couldn't be with me in the hospital. It did help to let it out though or talk to someone about it. So, go ahead and let it out whenever you want....it helps.

 

[Transplantmommy]

Ann, I know exactly how you feel. I was looking through my Aunt's blogspot a couple of weeks ago where she was keeping people updated about me and the transplants and I started crying, then realizing how close I was to not being here anymore if I didn't get the transplants. It's hard to look at old pictures of myself when I was so sick....I can imagine it's hard for you to look at Adam's pics and think of what might happen.

It was also hard for me to look at pictures of Brady when I was in Cleveland for 63 days and he was still a baby and couldn't be with me in the hospital. It did help to let it out though or talk to someone about it. So, go ahead and let it out whenever you want....it helps.

 

[Transplantmommy]

Ann, I know exactly how you feel. I was looking through my Aunt's blogspot a couple of weeks ago where she was keeping people updated about me and the transplants and I started crying, then realizing how close I was to not being here anymore if I didn't get the transplants. It's hard to look at old pictures of myself when I was so sick....I can imagine it's hard for you to look at Adam's pics and think of what might happen.

It was also hard for me to look at pictures of Brady when I was in Cleveland for 63 days and he was still a baby and couldn't be with me in the hospital. It did help to let it out though or talk to someone about it. So, go ahead and let it out whenever you want....it helps.

 

[Transplantmommy]

Ann, I know exactly how you feel. I was looking through my Aunt's blogspot a couple of weeks ago where she was keeping people updated about me and the transplants and I started crying, then realizing how close I was to not being here anymore if I didn't get the transplants. It's hard to look at old pictures of myself when I was so sick....I can imagine it's hard for you to look at Adam's pics and think of what might happen.
<br />
<br />It was also hard for me to look at pictures of Brady when I was in Cleveland for 63 days and he was still a baby and couldn't be with me in the hospital. It did help to let it out though or talk to someone about it. So, go ahead and let it out whenever you want....it helps.

 

[debs2girls]

Ann, I can totally relate to that. I feel the same way. I try not to let her know that I do cry alot about all of her health issues.
I know how you feel and if I can ever help you in anyway...send me a pm and I will give you contact info..you can cry on my shoulder anytime.
Love and prayers,
Debbie

 

[debs2girls]

Ann, I can totally relate to that. I feel the same way. I try not to let her know that I do cry alot about all of her health issues.
I know how you feel and if I can ever help you in anyway...send me a pm and I will give you contact info..you can cry on my shoulder anytime.
Love and prayers,
Debbie

 

[debs2girls]

Ann, I can totally relate to that. I feel the same way. I try not to let her know that I do cry alot about all of her health issues.
I know how you feel and if I can ever help you in anyway...send me a pm and I will give you contact info..you can cry on my shoulder anytime.
Love and prayers,
Debbie

 

[debs2girls]

Ann, I can totally relate to that. I feel the same way. I try not to let her know that I do cry alot about all of her health issues.
I know how you feel and if I can ever help you in anyway...send me a pm and I will give you contact info..you can cry on my shoulder anytime.
Love and prayers,
Debbie

 

[debs2girls]

Ann, I can totally relate to that. I feel the same way. I try not to let her know that I do cry alot about all of her health issues.
<br />I know how you feel and if I can ever help you in anyway...send me a pm and I will give you contact info..you can cry on my shoulder anytime.
<br />Love and prayers,
<br />Debbie

 

[zoe4life]

Ann,

I did that exact thing the other night. My kids bought me one of those digital picture frames for Christmas. So I loaded a bunch of pictures off of my computer that I haven't seen in years. The other night I sat there looking at them...started crying and couldn't stop. I think sometimes we just have to get some of that out. Our love for our kids is so deep as moms, that it hurts. The thought of being without them is undescribable pain. It is ok, we all understand, cry here anytime.
Hugs to you....<img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
Love,

 

[zoe4life]

Ann,

I did that exact thing the other night. My kids bought me one of those digital picture frames for Christmas. So I loaded a bunch of pictures off of my computer that I haven't seen in years. The other night I sat there looking at them...started crying and couldn't stop. I think sometimes we just have to get some of that out. Our love for our kids is so deep as moms, that it hurts. The thought of being without them is undescribable pain. It is ok, we all understand, cry here anytime.
Hugs to you....<img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
Love,

 

[zoe4life]

Ann,

I did that exact thing the other night. My kids bought me one of those digital picture frames for Christmas. So I loaded a bunch of pictures off of my computer that I haven't seen in years. The other night I sat there looking at them...started crying and couldn't stop. I think sometimes we just have to get some of that out. Our love for our kids is so deep as moms, that it hurts. The thought of being without them is undescribable pain. It is ok, we all understand, cry here anytime.
Hugs to you....<img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
Love,

 

[zoe4life]

Ann,

I did that exact thing the other night. My kids bought me one of those digital picture frames for Christmas. So I loaded a bunch of pictures off of my computer that I haven't seen in years. The other night I sat there looking at them...started crying and couldn't stop. I think sometimes we just have to get some of that out. Our love for our kids is so deep as moms, that it hurts. The thought of being without them is undescribable pain. It is ok, we all understand, cry here anytime.
Hugs to you....<img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
Love,

 

[zoe4life]

<br />Ann,
<br />
<br />I did that exact thing the other night. My kids bought me one of those digital picture frames for Christmas. So I loaded a bunch of pictures off of my computer that I haven't seen in years. The other night I sat there looking at them...started crying and couldn't stop. I think sometimes we just have to get some of that out. Our love for our kids is so deep as moms, that it hurts. The thought of being without them is undescribable pain. It is ok, we all understand, cry here anytime.
<br />Hugs to you....<img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
<br />Love,
<br />