I am not new to the site but i read more than I post. My husband and I have been married for 2 1/2 years, and are thinking about starting a family. I guess I would like to know how all of you who decided to have babies made that final decision to go through with it. I have heard many positive stories but I can't help but worry about the worst. I think of my own health during pregnancy, I think of my life after giving birth - will I be a good mom, will I be able to give my child the same devotion that any other mom does. What happens if I do get sick or end up in the hospital will I be able to mentally focus on myself enough to get well or worry about my child. I have a great family, my parents are devoted parents and always there for my other siblings and their children, and they have always been there for me and guided me through life. My husbands family is a bit different, not that there isn't love there but it is hard to know how they might react. I am not saying we need to rely on others for help but it's always nice to know someon else will be there to help if we need it. I have done more things than I ever thought I would, graduating college as a graphic designer, I work part time, we own our home, we are finanacially comfortable. Of course I am the same person that can't ever decide where to go out to eat because I want to make sure everyone else gets what they want out of a meal. People ask my husband if he can handle being a single father (God forbid) and how do you answer that, financially yes, emotionally - how do you answer? Of course you would have to do it, but how does one know how it will be till they are faced with the issue. I know that there is no one answer that will make it all seem right. Others say why bring a child into this world if it will lose a parent? I see myself as living to 50 or 60 years old, so why should I be afraid to live it. When I was little I always saw myself as a mom, but now I don't know how to take that final step.
Well I guess I am rambling, my mind has just been so full of thoughts for weeks and I need to let them escape. Any thoughts are appreciated.
Thanks, Sarah
Well I guess I am rambling, my mind has just been so full of thoughts for weeks and I need to let them escape. Any thoughts are appreciated.
Thanks, Sarah