fondreflections
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I probably wouldn't have started a thread today, but I noticed that my other thread resurfaced so I thought maybe I should.
I actually spent about 1 hour on the phone with my Mom this morning because I'm just so upset about different things on so many different levels...
Firstly, I don't think the IVs are working...I have been on Cefepine twice a day and Tobra once a day for 1 week, and I'm STILL running fevers of 100F daily. I take 2 Advil right before bed and wake up at about 3:00-4:00 with a fever and chills. I'll be halfway through next week, and I really don't think that they are working. I'm also STILL short of breath. I'm better while I have Advil in me, but about 5 hours later (when the Advil starts to wear off), I feel like crap...
Second, I really can't rest...at all...The caseworker is here every week for 1 hour. The boys also have TWO therapists here 2 times a week for about 8 hours total. My whole routine is ALWAYS turned upside down, mostly because of therapists. Even naptime is affected which ultimately hurts me...
Third, the boys STILL aren't in school, although, they are suppose to start December 9th. That ONLY took 2 months to get going...They are better than they were first coming to our home, but I must admit that the past week hasn't been fun...
D is constantly running around until someone gets hurt. He listens and can be redirected but goes right back to the same behavior only moments later. He was seen by TWO different pysch. doctors and IS suppose to start some kind of medication for the ADHD, but that may never happen. Nothing really surprises me anymore. I get so tired of constantly saying, 'no', 'don't', and 'stop', that my voice is constantly hoarse. Heck, my Mom was here for 1 hour, and her voice was a mess. She was so thankful to see me coming in the door because neither kid would listen to her for crap.
N is really the child that is pushing my buttons...I know it sounds bad, but he is literally breaking things around the house. For example, yesterday I had to use the bathroom (gotta love IVs). Anyway, from inside the bathroom I heard this smashing noise. N managed to send my beautiful shelf to the floor which broke into about 4 pieces. It had like columns which popped out so I have to glue it tomorrow. Today, we were out 'playing' in the yard, I went in the house again to use the bathroom, and both boys managed to push over my ceramic, expensive birdbath. Thankfully, it didn't break. I decided to keep them outside, despite the mishap, thinking that I would let them run more of the energy out BEFORE coming back into the house. Well, N managed to catch his Big Wheel under a house tile and ripped it right off the house. I ran over the moment he was stuck and begged him to wait...About 5 minutes later, D decided to start wrestling our 1-year-old Boxer. She started playing. I kept telling him to please use the dog toy, but he didn't listen. The $15.00 winter coat is ruined...
Even with toys, there are ruined within 1 day!!! I kid you not. D's birthday is next Tuesday, and I really don't know what to get him...
I don't know...Maybe I'm venting, but I really need to. My birthday was just another day too. Thanksgiving was ify.
I know some of you have asked if I have help. Yes, I do. My Mom is coming over twice a week for about 1-2 hours to help because I can't get anything done. We can't even put the kids to bed before 10:00 pm because D is up by 6:00 am. Then, he manages to wake up N. It's nearly impossible to get anything done, ever. Plus, D decided to 'act out' sexually again which I had to report to the agency.
Many times, I feel like I'm smacking my head against a wall. I'm trying to make it through this placement. Trust me, if not, I would have given up long ago.
Heck even the therapist that came last week said that she would work with each boy seperatly because THEY ARE TOO MUCH TOGETHER!!!
Please continue to pray of me. Thank you.
I actually spent about 1 hour on the phone with my Mom this morning because I'm just so upset about different things on so many different levels...
Firstly, I don't think the IVs are working...I have been on Cefepine twice a day and Tobra once a day for 1 week, and I'm STILL running fevers of 100F daily. I take 2 Advil right before bed and wake up at about 3:00-4:00 with a fever and chills. I'll be halfway through next week, and I really don't think that they are working. I'm also STILL short of breath. I'm better while I have Advil in me, but about 5 hours later (when the Advil starts to wear off), I feel like crap...
Second, I really can't rest...at all...The caseworker is here every week for 1 hour. The boys also have TWO therapists here 2 times a week for about 8 hours total. My whole routine is ALWAYS turned upside down, mostly because of therapists. Even naptime is affected which ultimately hurts me...
Third, the boys STILL aren't in school, although, they are suppose to start December 9th. That ONLY took 2 months to get going...They are better than they were first coming to our home, but I must admit that the past week hasn't been fun...
D is constantly running around until someone gets hurt. He listens and can be redirected but goes right back to the same behavior only moments later. He was seen by TWO different pysch. doctors and IS suppose to start some kind of medication for the ADHD, but that may never happen. Nothing really surprises me anymore. I get so tired of constantly saying, 'no', 'don't', and 'stop', that my voice is constantly hoarse. Heck, my Mom was here for 1 hour, and her voice was a mess. She was so thankful to see me coming in the door because neither kid would listen to her for crap.
N is really the child that is pushing my buttons...I know it sounds bad, but he is literally breaking things around the house. For example, yesterday I had to use the bathroom (gotta love IVs). Anyway, from inside the bathroom I heard this smashing noise. N managed to send my beautiful shelf to the floor which broke into about 4 pieces. It had like columns which popped out so I have to glue it tomorrow. Today, we were out 'playing' in the yard, I went in the house again to use the bathroom, and both boys managed to push over my ceramic, expensive birdbath. Thankfully, it didn't break. I decided to keep them outside, despite the mishap, thinking that I would let them run more of the energy out BEFORE coming back into the house. Well, N managed to catch his Big Wheel under a house tile and ripped it right off the house. I ran over the moment he was stuck and begged him to wait...About 5 minutes later, D decided to start wrestling our 1-year-old Boxer. She started playing. I kept telling him to please use the dog toy, but he didn't listen. The $15.00 winter coat is ruined...
Even with toys, there are ruined within 1 day!!! I kid you not. D's birthday is next Tuesday, and I really don't know what to get him...
I don't know...Maybe I'm venting, but I really need to. My birthday was just another day too. Thanksgiving was ify.
I know some of you have asked if I have help. Yes, I do. My Mom is coming over twice a week for about 1-2 hours to help because I can't get anything done. We can't even put the kids to bed before 10:00 pm because D is up by 6:00 am. Then, he manages to wake up N. It's nearly impossible to get anything done, ever. Plus, D decided to 'act out' sexually again which I had to report to the agency.
Many times, I feel like I'm smacking my head against a wall. I'm trying to make it through this placement. Trust me, if not, I would have given up long ago.
Heck even the therapist that came last week said that she would work with each boy seperatly because THEY ARE TOO MUCH TOGETHER!!!
Please continue to pray of me. Thank you.