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LilStrawberyShortness

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alright...for those who care...i dont think im coming back here...all i seem to do is upset people or something like that...im always upset cause i have problems (this is just one of many but not the reason why im upset) and make people around me upset too...

Its kinda lame that i know practialy nothing about CF when i have it myself, people talk about stuff and i feel SO STUPID asking "whats that?" repeatedly...people probably think i dont have CF...sorry i just started talking to people that had CF and i have yet to learn many things...but you dont have to worry about telling me things anymore cause, like i said...i think im going away...if i get out of this damn depression stage...yes sure, i might come back to bug you...but if anybody needs me fine...knock yourself out...IM me or E-mail me..

E-mail ~~~> LilStrwbryShrtns@aol.com
IM/Screen-Name~~~> LilStrwbryShrtns

Its been nice talking to you...and it makes me so incredibly happy to know people out there have the same exact problems as me...and its so awsome to just talk about alot of stuff and not feel awkward..-shrugs- maybe its just me but i dont know...I shall be back at some later time.....ill still come on to look at things...i just wont open my mouth...thats all -shrugs again-<img src="i/expressions/rose.gif" border="0">

-hugs Emily-
-hugs Emily's mommy-
-hugs jarod-
-hugs emzy-
-hugs sham-
and -hugs NoDayButToday-

sorry if i forgot anybody...im not really in the thinking mood...
talk to you as soon as i start to feel better...<img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
 
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shamrock

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Heya strawberry hope you're holdin up ok. Please don't go away. I'll miss ya too much!!!! Luv you lots like jelly tots and not hot chilli peppers-yuk!<img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-happy.gif" border="0"><img src="i/expressions/rose.gif" border="0">
 
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anonymous

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Well not sure but I think the whole idea is to be able to ask questions. I have asked some that I thought were silly myself. I thought you had some good input on things. Really hope you feel better about things soon. Try to not worry what others think because in the long run it doesn't matter. I say that because it sounds like that was getting you down. Life bites sometines because like all things there are ups and downs.

2sickkids
 
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LilStrawberyShortness

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-sighs and looks at both of you- im sorry...-shakes my head softly- i have major depression problems...if you want me to attempt to come back and stuff...i will...but now people will think im such a loser for making such a big deal about something and a few hours later it meaning nothing <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-sad.gif" border="0">

Its just, i really feel horrible not knowing much about what i have...all i know is the condition IM in...not what other people are in <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-sad.gif" border="0"> and i feel like a big idiot <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-sad.gif" border="0"> <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-sad.gif" border="0">
 
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creed

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Hey dont worry about it, we all have problems in one way or another. I didn't know much about cf until I started getting envolved. I used to get depressed alot too, and even now I get depressed sometimes. Please don't go.<img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">
 
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cfgirl38

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Hi. We all at some point didn't know much about our disease. I still ask questions that I think are silly but noone treats me as if they are. So if everyone that knows the answers to our questions don't share them with us we'll never learn. I only found out 5 years ago about my CF and beleive me I'm still learning. Nobody here thinks your a loser for asking. If they did we'd all be one. .. I have alot of depression issues at times too. But it comes and goes every few months. I'm sure everyone gets down once in a while. Don't let other people's opinions bother you so much. Take Care. Eva35w/Cf
 
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anonymous

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Brandi,

Life is all about making mistakes, disagreeing, finding out that not everyone always likes you or even sometimes likes you, and then learning from the feedback the world gives you . It would be a boring world without differences of opinion, and you would never learn and grow if you didn't make mistakes. I don't think anybody on this site dislikes you, but just because something you might have posted upset someone doesn't mean you should go away. I have posted many things that have got some good, and very negative reactions on this site. So have many of the other users. But that is just a part of life and how things work.

I also see this as a serious cry for help for yourself, and give you credit for mentioning that you felt you needed to go away, before you just disappeared. As I said before, I am not that far removed from 14, and I remember what it was like (I kept a journal of very important things in my life, how I felt, how my parents/friends/family reacted and treated me, so when I have a child, I can look back and remember what it felt like at that age). Although I don't have CF, and that can make a big difference in the struggles that occur in a young (and even older) life, I remember what a difficult time it was to be a teenager and all the times I just felt like nobody liked me, I didn't even like myself and that maybe things would be better off if I weren't there. But I am glad I decided to help myself get out of that state of mind.

You are capable of making the same "changes", sometimes just talking to people helps out so much, you wouldn't even believe it. I really don't think you should leave this site, like you said, you have just started talking to other CFers and sharing stories, asking questions and learning. You deserve the opportunity to continue doing that. Life isn't always a bowl of peaches though. Sometimes you have to just nod and move on. Ultimately, leaving this site is your decision but know that there are people here who want you to stay and although sometimes it's difficult and your feelings get hurt by postings or responses, it will just prepare you even more for what life is going to be like as you get older. It doesn't get easier, but with practice you will get better.

Take care of yourself, and do yourself a favor and stay.


Julie (wife to Mark 24 W/CF)
 
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Emily65Roses

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Hey Brandi,
I may have told you this before, but you know some of my mental history (as well as the CF stuff). I've been a cutter on and off since I was 15 years old. I am on anti-depressants, and sleeping pills. Also used to be on mood stabilizers. During my sophomore year (before I was put on sleeping meds), I used to take a few shots of vodka before bed to help myself pass out (not every night, just maybe once a week). At age 17 I tried to kill myself. Heh. Wound up in an ER, and then a psych ward for a week. Still on the anti-depressants, but doing much better. After the suicide deal, I had the typical "glad I had failed" business. Well that's not true. Not right away. Immediately after, I was still miserable. But now, looking back on it, that's how I feel. I'm glad it didn't work. And since then, I have promised myself that I wouldn't do it again, because it's ridiculous.

As far as asking questions, as others have said, that's the point. I've asked what I'm sure others have construed as "stupid" questions before. I don't really much care. If you are just learning about CF in detail now, don't worry about not having learned previously. Instead, be proud that you're taking initiative about it and making it a point to try and educate yourself on the subject. The more you know about your CF, the more you can do for yourself. And if you're ever uncomfortable asking a CF question here (afraid of "looking stupid" even though I think most here would agree that's not a necessary worry), you can always always ask me personally via IM. If I don't know the answer, I can find it out for you either by researching or asking here without using your name. You know I don't care, and if you're unsure, I'd love to help you learn what it is you're trying to figure out.

As far as leaving, do as you like. But I don't think anyone here would really say you're upsetting people. In other words, I'm not going to try and make the decision for you, but if I was to pick a side... I'd definitely say stay. Either way, you know you can always reach me on AIM or email. And always always, ask me anything. <img src="i/expressions/rose.gif" border="0">

Oh and regarding the unhappy problem... I don't know if you already have... But ever think of trying meds or therapy or a combination of the two? They seem to make a lot of difference. And if you're really that unhappy, it can't hurt to at least look into getting help for it.
*hugs*
 
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LilStrawberyShortness

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thanks Emily <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0"> yeah..im on meds now...they just changed me onto Zoloft..with the little happy bouncy ball god i wish i was like him <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-happy.gif" border="0"> but yeah..i need to find a theripist...thats why i made a fourm about Counclers in NH cept..then i didnt know the word that MY doctor/councler person used was theripist...<img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-sad.gif" border="0">
 
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shamrock

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-wipes away the tears- its ok its not like I was waiting ALL day for you. . .<img src="i/expressions/rose.gif" border="0">
 
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Mockingbird

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Oy! What's all this about? I'm gone for a day and now you're leaving? *kicks the door down and drags you back* I don't know who you upset, but people get upset all the time here. I could say the word poop and someone would get upset. POOP! *looks around the room* well, somebody will get upset eventually. The point is, it's really enjoyable having you around. =-) It's okay if you need to take a break, but don't stay away for long, okay? =-) Otherwise I'll have to get the duct tape and superglue out, and nobody wants that. =-) Seriously, come back soon!

Jarod
22 w/cf
 
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LilStrawberyShortness

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lol i wuv you jarod <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

Sham...im a loser...i doubt youd be waiting "ALL DAY" for me anywho <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-happy.gif" border="0"> hahahaha Emily...i put my hair up like...the little hair i have left i put it up in a scrunggie lmfao its so cute lol
 
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