THis is me sharing my heart and my feelings.... which as a member of the forums.. I am able to do.....and I feel like as long as I am respectful it is fine...though I usually run away from drama for some reason this is disturbing me..
If anything is making me hostile it is all the drama... I always look forward to reading blogs and posts.. I am addicted to this website as much as anyone ..... but lately I get a knot in my stomach every time I turn on the site now.. and I am not leaving, or stopping to come on here... ( just like Allie is still reading posts etc...) Addiction ha....
As far as I am concerned Allie has always been given the same grace, if not more, then everyone else on here... She has been very supported from what I have seen in her blog and her posts.. etc..
If she see's someone not agreeing with her, as hostile, that is truly sad. She is always going to have people not agree with her, and it would be hypocritcal to say so if people didn't agree, like I tried to say in my response to her Everyone hates Ahava blog was... I don't agree with her, but so what who cares, the SUPPORT is unconditional....ALlie has said many things that I have not been able to swallow.. but I don't lash out at her.. I don't PM people privately and stir up drama by telling people I was pushed away.. and not to listen to anything because it isn't true..I can't stand fighting and disagreements...
If I posted I was leaving or that No one liked me everytime I didn't agree with a post, it would be insane....
I am sorry for all the pain Allie is in and her lack of ability to be able to handle it...WE ALL HAVE SUFFERED A GREAT DEAL IN OUR LIFE..
I know she will be back, I know she is reading this, and she will speak for heself and not have Emily.. ( who I adore) speak for her, even if she didn't ask her to. She will continue to provide valuable information to so many people, and lend an ear when someone is miserable... I myself have comiserated with ALlie several times and found it very helpful....
Now, if I was to sit on Santa clause's lap, or make a wish, or say a prayer it would be that all this horrible drama would end.... That ALlie would see just because someone doesn't agree with her doesn't mean she isn't loved or supported.. or that her child is a twit or what ever else she thinks people said....
This is a holiday season, some our celebrating in one way, some in another, but pretty much this is some sort of holiday for everyone... and I think the drama should end... and we all should go back to supporting and buliding each other up.. not tearing each other down, making sides and dividing each other..
Even if we are quiet, soft spoken, scared of conflict, or if we can securely tell someone to go drop dead and not think twice about it.. We are all human, we are all insecure, and we all have crazy emotions..
Hope the drama ends soon.
Jennifer
