Let me start with the fact of not wanting health issues always on your mind. I completely understand this concept, but dont see how you can truly not have it. Even if you chose to not do any treatments or do minimal......the affects of CF will still be there. That being said....I ?? why such a large drop in PFT & you being what seems surprised. When was the last time you had been to clinic? I dont know what treatments, if any, that you do, but something in my gut tells me not much. I might be completely wrong on that and if I am please accept my apologies. I am basing some of my response to this on thoughts that I had from some of your other posts. I am one that believes your whole life shouldnt be centered around the CF. That your identity should not be CFer. I also realize that it is extremely hard not to have either happen especially as it progresses. When I was young I was able to "get away" with not doing treatments & there were minimal immediate consequences. I was always proud of the fact that I ruled CF & CF didnt rule me. Well fast forward 30 years and even tho I still feel like I rule CF, in the overall sceme of things. CF will rule. No matter what treatments I do/dont do. No matter what exercise I do/dont do. No matter what life activities I do/dont do. Like it or not CF is there having an influence. How so I deal with the worsening. <b>I just do.</b> Some days I cry like a baby. Some days I throw things like an angry lunatic. Some days I laugh, sing & smile no matter what. Some days I just hug my hubby, daughter, dog and whoever/whatever comesmy way. Some days I feel like crap. Some days I feel excellent. I take it minute by minute because otherwise on the bad days its too much to handle. My oldest sis was having medical issues a few years ago that were freaking her out. She asked me during that time how I deal with it. I told her I dont have a choice. I either take my own life, here & now, or I deal with it!