I've been there too, and I remember how my heart hurt also. But,here's the good part -- my daughter is 16 and living a basically healthy normal life. (In fact, she has a long scar across her tummy, but wears a teeny-weeny bikini!) Even though she started out with intestinal surgery on her first day of life, and we were scared to death about what the future would hold, it turned out she has fairly mild CF. And they keep coming up with amazing medications, which makes her prognosis, and your child's better and better. So, my advice to you is don't look too far into the future, just treat yourself kindly, remember you have more strength than you know, do the best you can, and be hopeful. Good luck to you -- my thoughts are with you.