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Mommafirst
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Alyssa got her g-tube three weeks ago. She a pretty normal kid who happens to have CF. She eats really well, but she's two (almost three) and some days she is more picky than others. AFter almost 2 years of struggling to get her weight to stabilize above the 5% BMI range, we consented to this tube.
The problem is that the surgery has kicked up some horrible reflux. The reflux is making her miserable. All day, she burps, gags and cries....over and over again. She tells me how much her throat hurts and it just breaks my heart.
She already took prevacid before this all started and now she is on reglan as well. And it is still not good. To top it off, every second or third night, she winds up gagging and throwing up her overnight feeding.
So now she isn't getting any of the supplemental calories that was the point of the surgery, and she is miserable to boot. I'm doing 3x as much laundry as I used to and I'm not getting a lot of sleep. I admit that all of this has made it hard to keep my sanity and make rational decisions.
I am so tempted to pull the button out, let it close up and be done with all this. The CF center is not being very helpful. I keep calling and they just don't know what to tell me.
I need to know that they didn't let me mutilate my kid for nothing. I need to know that this will heal and get better, but I'm not getting that message or any message these days.
We have a follow up/weight check at clinic next week. I won't do anything drastic, we've come this far, right? But I'm so sad and feeling so guilty and I'm just at my wits end trying to figure out what to do for this.
The problem is that the surgery has kicked up some horrible reflux. The reflux is making her miserable. All day, she burps, gags and cries....over and over again. She tells me how much her throat hurts and it just breaks my heart.
She already took prevacid before this all started and now she is on reglan as well. And it is still not good. To top it off, every second or third night, she winds up gagging and throwing up her overnight feeding.
So now she isn't getting any of the supplemental calories that was the point of the surgery, and she is miserable to boot. I'm doing 3x as much laundry as I used to and I'm not getting a lot of sleep. I admit that all of this has made it hard to keep my sanity and make rational decisions.
I am so tempted to pull the button out, let it close up and be done with all this. The CF center is not being very helpful. I keep calling and they just don't know what to tell me.
I need to know that they didn't let me mutilate my kid for nothing. I need to know that this will heal and get better, but I'm not getting that message or any message these days.
We have a follow up/weight check at clinic next week. I won't do anything drastic, we've come this far, right? But I'm so sad and feeling so guilty and I'm just at my wits end trying to figure out what to do for this.