I am also sorry you are in such pain, but it is perfectly understandable and expected right now. As hard as it may be, the best thing you can do is try to do something routine. I know that sounds ridiculous and near impossible to do, but if you have something you used to do routinely, ( for example.. taking a walk or bike ride, or having takeout for dinner on a certain day, or stopping somewhere on your way home from work) this would be a good time to make every attempt to start doing it again, so you will at least have a sense of normalcy in your life. Unfortunately you have been forced into a new life now and it is very hard but you have to find your way.... and you will....in time. Do you have family nearby? Maybe spending time with family or good friends may help you to feel better. If you live alone, maybe now would be a good time for a pet. Someone to love you unconditionally, someone to come home to, someone to depend on you. Keep coming back and posting....we all care and want to help in any way we possibly can. **Huggs**