Katy
I am so sorry to hear this sad news. Michael will be missed.
You may want to check out www.ywbb.org (young widows bulletin board) There are many widows & widowers there who can help you make it through. They come from losing their spouse or fiance under all different circumstances (long illness, sudden illness, accident, etc). They have a special board under the main board for newly widowed.
Thinking of you today.
PS I know you may not know me, but I lurk here often and remember the long journey that you and Michael took to get his lungs. Very inspirational.