<div class="FTQUOTE"><begin quote><i>Originally posted by: <b>TheInkDoll</b></i>
Well...
Ashley, i am so sorry, your scenario sounds miserable... i hope it gets better. And Christian, that is really weird.
Anyway, weed makes me really paranoid. My hands get really cold and then i convince myself i'm dying. i used to be able to smoke weed no problem, but ever since i graduated from high school, it's a big no for me. i also hate not being in control, and losing track of the time every 5 minutes drives me batty.
i used to get migraines a lot, so, i would take ibuprofen religiously. i think my body is kind of immune to it now, as it takes at least 800mg to do anything at all. i accidentally cut my finger off a few years ago (long drunken story) and they sewed it back on, but the healing was excruciating. They gave me vicodin for that, which helped a little. It kind of made the pain go from horrible to bad. First pic line was my first dose of morphine, and Luke, i am so with you, it is a beautiful thing. My veins are really tiny and they are super over reactive, so they clamp and close in a milli second... which makes pic lines that much more fun. So, when i got pic lines, i got lots of morphine. Eventually they had to do my pics in special procedures and they used some kind of pain killer that i can never remember the name of. That stuff was nuts. It was like they would inject it in my IV, everything would spin and echo and suddenly the lights would look like the Las Vegas strip, and then out. i would wake up in my hospital room. When i was discharged, they would always send me home with percocet, which is my favorite after morphine. Percocet does the trick. It hardly ever makes me nauseus(?) and it gets rid of my pain.
After i got my port put in last December, something new started. See, my port is in a weird place. i wanted it under my arm so that i didn't feel self concious going out with a low cut shirt on. Well, doing the vest while my port is accessed is painful to say the least. SO... Last December, they sent me home on IV morphine. i took 2 mg before a treatment, and 2mg after, every day, 4 times a day, for like two months. At that time i was also on Oramorph (instant oral morphine) and Morphine CR (controled release) and percocet for break through pain. After i stopped my IV meds and my port was de-accessed, the morphine injections stopped. But new pain started.
i don't know if the pain is from taking IV antibiotics so long, or if it's from morphine withdrawl, but my bones start to feel dry and achey. Seriously, it hurts so bad, i can't get out of bed some days. When this happened last December, my Dr. gave me percocet until the pain stopped, so that was another month of it at least. i started seeing a chiropractor to help, which it did a little.
This time, i have this new Dr. since i moved. She sent me home on the IV morphine, and percocet. Now my IVs are over (so goodbye morphine) and that damn pain is back in full swing.
Sometimes i just lay in bed and cry, it hurts so bad. And my lung function is way down too, so my back is killing me. So, my new Dr. gave me percocet to try and help, but when i told her that i might need refills on it, due to how much it hurts, and how long it lasted last time, she said i'm just going to have to deal with it.
So, i'm trying to conserve the ones that i have left... but it's weird. It's like the day will start and i will say, "Grit your teeth and bare it." And i do that for a few hours. But by dinner time, i usually can't stand it anymore, so i take a percocet, and it's like in a matter of moments, i'm a different person... a funner, more energetic, happier person.
So, i don't know what to do... i'm not going to lie, do i like the little head buzz that morphine gives me when it's first injected, of course, do i like the fuzzy feeling i get sometimes with percocet, sure, but aside from fun side effects, i really am in a lot of pain... What should i do?</end quote></div>
I tried percocet once. I used to work with this old server dude from the states that used to do a lot of drugs. Anyways, he gave me some. I have to say i liked the feeling a bit too, but i got way too woozy...not good at work.
Anyways, what kinda pain are we talking about? You described your bones acheing...ok (have you ever had a bone mineral scan? Maybe you are low on calcium). What else do you guys take pain meds for? Muscle pain? Stomach pain from indegestion? I dunno, it seems the only pain i get is my stomach, my lower back...and my elbow hehe. I would never consider taking anything other then tylenol for it though. How bad is your pain? I'm kinda intrigued...
Kiel
