Vanessa,
When I hear about people in bad situations and "their" outlooks on life looking gloom I always want to give a big motivational speach. You know, "win one for the gipper" kind of stuff. I just can't seem to relay the feeling through letters rather than words. So I will tell you this....In this life there is one certainity and that is you. What I mean is that when the world turns its back on you, you stilll have yourself. You may have family and friends to lean on and that is great but NOBODY is as important to you as you. Love yourself, don't let anyone hurt you and equally important do not hurt yourself. I have found that at one point and time we are alone in this world and if we don;t love ourselves no one else will when we need them too. So, be strong, turn your focus to what is good in this world and away from what is evil, things will get better with time. The world even with all of its problems is a good place to be.
Feel free to private message me if you want to talk or I can give you my number if you need it.
Luke