I am so sad . I got off of iv's 2 weeks ago and really didnt feel great but i was so sick of doing them after almost 4 weeks. The nurse tried to insert a midline and it just would not thread, she tried 3 different sites ( in the same arm) and still no luck so i did them peripherally, which was painful since i was using cipro after having problems with the Zosyn. I wound up getting phlebitis, and decided i had enough and ended the course 2 days early. I went back on my orals like i was told to and was fine till i got a cold last tuesday and started running fevers. Then over the weekend i was having trouble breathing so back on the iv i am. BUT this time the home infusion service refused to even try inserting a midline ( in the arm they didnt try the first time) because the one nurse said she lost her confidence so i had to go have a midline inserted by the Intervention Radiologist and it scared the crap out of me. It hurt , i had to lay almost flat, i had to have oxygen because of my troubles breathing while laying almost flat. I am a BIG BABY when it comes to having anything new done. I know so many others have it so much worse but sometimes this all just gets to me after a while. I've never had it happen before where i get off of an iv and go right back on within 2 weeks. It really upsets me to think things are going this bad when i was trying so hard to get better. I have totally lost ground here. I lost all the weight i worked to gain back. My fev1 was rising and now i know i have lost all that i have gained back of that too. Sometimes this can be so overwhelming. I normally dont let it get me all worked up but this time it is getting to me. Anything anyone can offer will be of great help.