You have been given a lot to deal with. I know when you don't haveany time for the things you actually need to do, then destressing is especially hard. It's like life keeps throwing things at you, and you're struggling just to catch them all, but you're arms are already full. You know you need to empty your hands or you won't be catching anything anymore, but every time you try there comes something else that you have to catch. That's what I feel like sometimes, anyway. So, it's the little things in my day I try to appreciate. Like the other morning, I was on my way to work at 5:00 in the morning, and since my truck doesn't actually have a heater, It was really cold. So, on my way to work i was pretending to be a dragon, and blowing out frost like it was fire. ha, ha, that's.... really stupid, i know, but sometimes that's the only thing that'll get me going to work in the morning, i look forward to pretending I'm a dragon on the way there. Or on another day i had to help someone take down a fence. I wasn't feeling too well, and besides that i'd gotten another dr bill that I'm gonna have to struggle to pay, so I wasn't exactly doing too well. Well, there were a lot of birds around chirping. not really singing. it would have been better if they were singing, but i tried to pick out each individual bird's voice as i worked. Hmmm, now that i think about it, I guess all i really do is distract myself for a while. It seems to help, anyway. There one other thing that i always do; when I'm doing dishes (either at home or at work) I like to play with the bubbles. If there's anyone else around, i throw bubbles at them, or if I'm alone i throw the bubbles at the wall. Or I might just throw them in the air and watch them float down. I also add my own sound effects. =-) Anyway, you probably have to be really weird to enjoy the things I do, so i don't know if this'll help you, or just make you wonder how i'm able to type with a straight-jacket on. =-) ha, ha, they haven't caught me yet, so I'm not in a straight-jacket. =-) Take care.
Jarod
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