Hi everyone,
I've been with my bf for over 10 years now. I think he knows cf pretty well. He's been around for many ups and downs and in betweens. He doesn't like to talk about it much, even when I bring it up. He likes me to stay positive and not talk sad. I guess I understand that, but to me, that feels like denial. Sometimes I keep a strong front so I don't upset him, but in doing so, I feel that I can't talk about my true feelings.
To the partners:
Do you worry about your cf person but keep it to yourself? Do you try not to worry them?
Do you sometimes wonder what life would/will be like without your cf person, and that is too hard to talk about?
Do you talk to your friends/family even if you can't talk to your cf person about CF? Does that help?
Sometimes, I feel like I'm holding him back; I worry that he thinks so too. I don't know exactly what I'm trying to say. I just feel like he would obviously be better off without this, as would I . But I'm stuck with it, he's not. I'm insecure, and I worry that he won't always be there, especially when it gets to the end, and I would be devastated by that. Sometimes I think that would be harder than the actual death part.
I've been with my bf for over 10 years now. I think he knows cf pretty well. He's been around for many ups and downs and in betweens. He doesn't like to talk about it much, even when I bring it up. He likes me to stay positive and not talk sad. I guess I understand that, but to me, that feels like denial. Sometimes I keep a strong front so I don't upset him, but in doing so, I feel that I can't talk about my true feelings.
To the partners:
Do you worry about your cf person but keep it to yourself? Do you try not to worry them?
Do you sometimes wonder what life would/will be like without your cf person, and that is too hard to talk about?
Do you talk to your friends/family even if you can't talk to your cf person about CF? Does that help?
Sometimes, I feel like I'm holding him back; I worry that he thinks so too. I don't know exactly what I'm trying to say. I just feel like he would obviously be better off without this, as would I . But I'm stuck with it, he's not. I'm insecure, and I worry that he won't always be there, especially when it gets to the end, and I would be devastated by that. Sometimes I think that would be harder than the actual death part.