Thanks linds. Yeah, what I have gathered about the healthcare is that you keep it once you are taken off medicare/disability, but you have to pay for it out of pocket. So basically it's another 100+ bucks a month. I'm on mom's now as a primary, the medicare as a secondary, and in an emergency I could fall back onto my fiance's...But going on hers would be a huge financial hit. If I could only get on with one of the agencies that offer real positions, this wouldn't be such a bad dream.