What Do You Do When You Don't Want To Be Alive Any More?

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arche4life

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What do you do when you don't want to be alive anymore?? When you are so exhausted and weak from not being able to sleep? Tired of being sick from tube feeds and sore from coughing all the time? Can't find the purpose in doing daily activities? Tired of living in pain, taking pills and doing treatments? Tired of trusting doctors who continue to let you down?

It's 6 in the morning, I've gotten barely two hours of sleep and I keep wondering to myself why isn't assisted suicide legal? Why should everyone else but me decide weather I want to live or die. Thats not fare!!! The only thing I want right now is to fall asleep and not wake up because I'm just so tired of being so tired.
 
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arche4life

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What do you do when you don't want to be alive anymore?? When you are so exhausted and weak from not being able to sleep? Tired of being sick from tube feeds and sore from coughing all the time? Can't find the purpose in doing daily activities? Tired of living in pain, taking pills and doing treatments? Tired of trusting doctors who continue to let you down?

It's 6 in the morning, I've gotten barely two hours of sleep and I keep wondering to myself why isn't assisted suicide legal? Why should everyone else but me decide weather I want to live or die. Thats not fare!!! The only thing I want right now is to fall asleep and not wake up because I'm just so tired of being so tired.
 
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arche4life

New member
What do you do when you don't want to be alive anymore?? When you are so exhausted and weak from not being able to sleep? Tired of being sick from tube feeds and sore from coughing all the time? Can't find the purpose in doing daily activities? Tired of living in pain, taking pills and doing treatments? Tired of trusting doctors who continue to let you down?

It's 6 in the morning, I've gotten barely two hours of sleep and I keep wondering to myself why isn't assisted suicide legal? Why should everyone else but me decide weather I want to live or die. Thats not fare!!! The only thing I want right now is to fall asleep and not wake up because I'm just so tired of being so tired.
 
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arche4life

New member
What do you do when you don't want to be alive anymore?? When you are so exhausted and weak from not being able to sleep? Tired of being sick from tube feeds and sore from coughing all the time? Can't find the purpose in doing daily activities? Tired of living in pain, taking pills and doing treatments? Tired of trusting doctors who continue to let you down?

It's 6 in the morning, I've gotten barely two hours of sleep and I keep wondering to myself why isn't assisted suicide legal? Why should everyone else but me decide weather I want to live or die. Thats not fare!!! The only thing I want right now is to fall asleep and not wake up because I'm just so tired of being so tired.
 
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arche4life

New member
What do you do when you don't want to be alive anymore?? When you are so exhausted and weak from not being able to sleep? Tired of being sick from tube feeds and sore from coughing all the time? Can't find the purpose in doing daily activities? Tired of living in pain, taking pills and doing treatments? Tired of trusting doctors who continue to let you down?
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<br />It's 6 in the morning, I've gotten barely two hours of sleep and I keep wondering to myself why isn't assisted suicide legal? Why should everyone else but me decide weather I want to live or die. Thats not fare!!! The only thing I want right now is to fall asleep and not wake up because I'm just so tired of being so tired.
 
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lmattaway

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I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Being sick and tired with no energy can really make one start to wonder if it's at all worth it. Usually it's the lack of sleep talking, at least it is for me. When I don't have enough sleep, things look crummy. When I'm able to get rest and when I start to talk to my friends and family, I realize that they want me around as long as possible. So while it may sound nice to fall asleep "forever" (especially if you like sleeping as much as I do!), I realize that only solves the pain for one person (me) and starts the pain for everyone around me.

On another note, don't be afraid to hunt down a CF doc that you're able to trust, that you feel is on top of treating you properly and proactively. You deserve that.
 
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lmattaway

New member
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Being sick and tired with no energy can really make one start to wonder if it's at all worth it. Usually it's the lack of sleep talking, at least it is for me. When I don't have enough sleep, things look crummy. When I'm able to get rest and when I start to talk to my friends and family, I realize that they want me around as long as possible. So while it may sound nice to fall asleep "forever" (especially if you like sleeping as much as I do!), I realize that only solves the pain for one person (me) and starts the pain for everyone around me.

On another note, don't be afraid to hunt down a CF doc that you're able to trust, that you feel is on top of treating you properly and proactively. You deserve that.
 
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lmattaway

New member
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Being sick and tired with no energy can really make one start to wonder if it's at all worth it. Usually it's the lack of sleep talking, at least it is for me. When I don't have enough sleep, things look crummy. When I'm able to get rest and when I start to talk to my friends and family, I realize that they want me around as long as possible. So while it may sound nice to fall asleep "forever" (especially if you like sleeping as much as I do!), I realize that only solves the pain for one person (me) and starts the pain for everyone around me.

On another note, don't be afraid to hunt down a CF doc that you're able to trust, that you feel is on top of treating you properly and proactively. You deserve that.
 
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lmattaway

New member
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Being sick and tired with no energy can really make one start to wonder if it's at all worth it. Usually it's the lack of sleep talking, at least it is for me. When I don't have enough sleep, things look crummy. When I'm able to get rest and when I start to talk to my friends and family, I realize that they want me around as long as possible. So while it may sound nice to fall asleep "forever" (especially if you like sleeping as much as I do!), I realize that only solves the pain for one person (me) and starts the pain for everyone around me.

On another note, don't be afraid to hunt down a CF doc that you're able to trust, that you feel is on top of treating you properly and proactively. You deserve that.
 
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lmattaway

New member
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Being sick and tired with no energy can really make one start to wonder if it's at all worth it. Usually it's the lack of sleep talking, at least it is for me. When I don't have enough sleep, things look crummy. When I'm able to get rest and when I start to talk to my friends and family, I realize that they want me around as long as possible. So while it may sound nice to fall asleep "forever" (especially if you like sleeping as much as I do!), I realize that only solves the pain for one person (me) and starts the pain for everyone around me.
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<br />On another note, don't be afraid to hunt down a CF doc that you're able to trust, that you feel is on top of treating you properly and proactively. You deserve that.
 
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MiddleAgedLady

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do you need to be in the hospital for a while and let the medical staff take over for a while? You do have an exhausting regime. or is there anything they can give you to help you sleep? I agree with Lindsay; if I don't get enough sleep the world is a terrible place. that's why i take two sleep aids. hang in there.
 
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MiddleAgedLady

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do you need to be in the hospital for a while and let the medical staff take over for a while? You do have an exhausting regime. or is there anything they can give you to help you sleep? I agree with Lindsay; if I don't get enough sleep the world is a terrible place. that's why i take two sleep aids. hang in there.
 
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MiddleAgedLady

Guest
do you need to be in the hospital for a while and let the medical staff take over for a while? You do have an exhausting regime. or is there anything they can give you to help you sleep? I agree with Lindsay; if I don't get enough sleep the world is a terrible place. that's why i take two sleep aids. hang in there.
 
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MiddleAgedLady

Guest
do you need to be in the hospital for a while and let the medical staff take over for a while? You do have an exhausting regime. or is there anything they can give you to help you sleep? I agree with Lindsay; if I don't get enough sleep the world is a terrible place. that's why i take two sleep aids. hang in there.
 
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MiddleAgedLady

Guest
do you need to be in the hospital for a while and let the medical staff take over for a while? You do have an exhausting regime. or is there anything they can give you to help you sleep? I agree with Lindsay; if I don't get enough sleep the world is a terrible place. that's why i take two sleep aids. hang in there.
 
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krisgabes

New member
I don't think there is one person on this site who hasn't felt what you are feeling right now. We've all felt the physical pain that CF causes as well as the emotional toll it can take on you. It certainly isn't fair that we all have to bear such a heavy load on our shoulders every day while most other people's problems can seem so shallow in comparison. However, sometimes it helps me when I think of the bigger picture. I wouldn't be the strong willed, resiliant person that I am if I hadn't gone through all of the heartache of CF.

Maybe talking to a professional about your feelings would help. It definately helps me. I've been in therapy since I was 15. I was actually referred to him through my pediatric CF center when I still went there. Suicide is a very serious feeling to have. Just remember that you are not alone, you have lots of people who you can talk to on here that understand even the most complex of issues you're having.

I hope you feel better soon, if you ever need to talk feel free to PM me.
 
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krisgabes

New member
I don't think there is one person on this site who hasn't felt what you are feeling right now. We've all felt the physical pain that CF causes as well as the emotional toll it can take on you. It certainly isn't fair that we all have to bear such a heavy load on our shoulders every day while most other people's problems can seem so shallow in comparison. However, sometimes it helps me when I think of the bigger picture. I wouldn't be the strong willed, resiliant person that I am if I hadn't gone through all of the heartache of CF.

Maybe talking to a professional about your feelings would help. It definately helps me. I've been in therapy since I was 15. I was actually referred to him through my pediatric CF center when I still went there. Suicide is a very serious feeling to have. Just remember that you are not alone, you have lots of people who you can talk to on here that understand even the most complex of issues you're having.

I hope you feel better soon, if you ever need to talk feel free to PM me.
 
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krisgabes

New member
I don't think there is one person on this site who hasn't felt what you are feeling right now. We've all felt the physical pain that CF causes as well as the emotional toll it can take on you. It certainly isn't fair that we all have to bear such a heavy load on our shoulders every day while most other people's problems can seem so shallow in comparison. However, sometimes it helps me when I think of the bigger picture. I wouldn't be the strong willed, resiliant person that I am if I hadn't gone through all of the heartache of CF.

Maybe talking to a professional about your feelings would help. It definately helps me. I've been in therapy since I was 15. I was actually referred to him through my pediatric CF center when I still went there. Suicide is a very serious feeling to have. Just remember that you are not alone, you have lots of people who you can talk to on here that understand even the most complex of issues you're having.

I hope you feel better soon, if you ever need to talk feel free to PM me.
 
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krisgabes

New member
I don't think there is one person on this site who hasn't felt what you are feeling right now. We've all felt the physical pain that CF causes as well as the emotional toll it can take on you. It certainly isn't fair that we all have to bear such a heavy load on our shoulders every day while most other people's problems can seem so shallow in comparison. However, sometimes it helps me when I think of the bigger picture. I wouldn't be the strong willed, resiliant person that I am if I hadn't gone through all of the heartache of CF.

Maybe talking to a professional about your feelings would help. It definately helps me. I've been in therapy since I was 15. I was actually referred to him through my pediatric CF center when I still went there. Suicide is a very serious feeling to have. Just remember that you are not alone, you have lots of people who you can talk to on here that understand even the most complex of issues you're having.

I hope you feel better soon, if you ever need to talk feel free to PM me.
 
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krisgabes

New member
I don't think there is one person on this site who hasn't felt what you are feeling right now. We've all felt the physical pain that CF causes as well as the emotional toll it can take on you. It certainly isn't fair that we all have to bear such a heavy load on our shoulders every day while most other people's problems can seem so shallow in comparison. However, sometimes it helps me when I think of the bigger picture. I wouldn't be the strong willed, resiliant person that I am if I hadn't gone through all of the heartache of CF.
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<br />Maybe talking to a professional about your feelings would help. It definately helps me. I've been in therapy since I was 15. I was actually referred to him through my pediatric CF center when I still went there. Suicide is a very serious feeling to have. Just remember that you are not alone, you have lots of people who you can talk to on here that understand even the most complex of issues you're having.
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<br />I hope you feel better soon, if you ever need to talk feel free to PM me.
 
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