SARAHSARAH253
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I know I should be posting this in the pregnancy forum. But, I wanted advice from you guys as well. I had my first child Johnny this last August. He was born with a meconnium illius. We didn't know he had CF until the day we brought him from the hospital. That was in the end of September. That was the scariest and frustrating time. As I have posted before we were told I was a carrier and my husband was not a carrier. So, my doctor and I thought it be foolish to do an amino, because everything looked so good..Wrong! I have been learning to deal with accepting everything. My question is I have this huge rush in my heart to have another child.....for the simple fear I know I won't be able to go on if something should happen to my son. I know some of you may find this incredible selfish. Please don't scold me. I just know in my heart I couldn't handle it. I worked as a preschool teacher for over ten years....loving every minute of it. I met my husband and the minute he said let's make a baby....I quiet my job and consumed the last 9 months before my son was born planning and reading...can I say screw off What to Expect When your Expecting! Sorry, well my fear is real...and I have made the calls to look into PGD for our family. I thought that was our plan...Well this is really personal please don't get offended...but my husband and I had sex..and well he didn't keep up to his end of the deal...and now I think I could be pregnant...Am a terrible person to be excited. Even though I know I have my hands full. How many of you had other children after finding out your 1st baby had CF, and what method did you go about doing it. This is another thing I never thought I say...I have never been a fan of abortion, but I told my husband if I am pregnant and the amino did say our expected child had CF I wouldn't go threw with carrying it because I wouldn't want to risk it to our son....That I think if we could control it by PGD our son would be better off because of it. I am new to this and I have read its soooo bad for other CF kids to be together. Ahh.....please no one be angry with my words..I'm just scared...and my husband won't talk about it anymore...Eveyone keeps saying...Sarah it's been almost 2 months you have known this "STOP IT...YOU CAN"T FIX IT...WHY ARE YOUR CRYING'. It just hurts so damn much.....sorry