Hi Risa
Wow, you've had a great learning curve in this - i would love to learn through someone really talented in this area. I actually taught myself to meditate and it wasn't easy. I read books basically and then experiemented with what works best for me.
I find music doesn't work, because I'm such a fan i find myself staying focused on the music and humming along to the melody instead of clearing my head! I also don't chant because something in me finds it mildly amusing and i end up in fits of giggles!
The only method that works for me is by starting with long deep breaths in an extremely quiet and dark room (i keep myself warm though because i notice the deeper I go, the lower my body temperature gets) - I imagine the breath is coming in and out of my bellybutton. This means breathing in as much as I possibly can and then emptying my lungs right out - once i have relaxed my body sufficiently and am perfectly comfortable, i need to breathe less, so my breathing tends to go very quiet and my respirations are a lot less frequent than normal. Then I focus myself on picturing total darkness in my head - I try to think and feel nothing, just be. If thoughts come into my head I simply push them out again and concentrate on thinking, imagining and feeling absolutely nothing. It's very hard to explain, but when I get deep enough - can sometimes take me up to ten minutes depending on how stressed or mentally busy I am to start - it is the most peaceful sensation and incredibly relaxing and i don't want to come out of it again.
Sometimes I picture a beam of bright white light encompassing me and I envisage it going up and down my body releasing healing properties as it goes..........sounds a little 'out there' but with practice over the years, I have become quite good at it and even if I'm dog tired sometimes, if I meditate for 20 minutes I'll feel as relaxed as if I'd had a 4 hour sleep. The power of the mind really is amazing. Can you explain to me how you meditate and what is the difference between trancandental meditation and normal meditation?
Cheers
Kat (37 with CF, NZ)