snowcone200
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So I was feeling really down today, so I decided to go get dressed up and goto the mall. Hoping I meet some new people and get my confidence up. But soon as I step out the door I find my car is totally dead. Why bad things keep happening to me.
My second family forgot all about me.
My depression won't go away after two years of fighting it.
My health is crummy I can't work or goto school/college without problems.
I lost 9 pounds in the past 3 weeks.
I don't get it, I already have CF and diabetes to worry about so why does God let me suffer. two weeks ago I wanted to stop treatment and just die. Today I thought everything would go well I was feeling good and confident. Then my car won't start so now I am wreck. I know I haven't been going to church and keeping my faith high. But why, just last month two of my friends one from high school picked a fight with me now I don't see neither of them anymore. My ex who I care about a lot I lost her 2 years ago and nothing but hurt came from me meeting her in the hospital. I wanna be a nurse so bad but I can't stay in school because I am sick and depressed all the time.
I know we all have these days but c'mon why won't I get a break it's been years since I've been truely happy. And I am just 19 years old I am always helping people and they take my niceness for granted and hurt me. I don't know what to do, things are so bad that I want to just turn to drugs to deal with my life.
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My second family forgot all about me.
My depression won't go away after two years of fighting it.
My health is crummy I can't work or goto school/college without problems.
I lost 9 pounds in the past 3 weeks.
I don't get it, I already have CF and diabetes to worry about so why does God let me suffer. two weeks ago I wanted to stop treatment and just die. Today I thought everything would go well I was feeling good and confident. Then my car won't start so now I am wreck. I know I haven't been going to church and keeping my faith high. But why, just last month two of my friends one from high school picked a fight with me now I don't see neither of them anymore. My ex who I care about a lot I lost her 2 years ago and nothing but hurt came from me meeting her in the hospital. I wanna be a nurse so bad but I can't stay in school because I am sick and depressed all the time.
I know we all have these days but c'mon why won't I get a break it's been years since I've been truely happy. And I am just 19 years old I am always helping people and they take my niceness for granted and hurt me. I don't know what to do, things are so bad that I want to just turn to drugs to deal with my life.
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