Wow, never heard that way...Merry Go Round.. You are right...I did do the whole court thing..The whole nine yards..and he wanted me to change it, I wouldn't do it because of his history and thats where it all started...I don't and never will trust him enough to let my guard down, and he hated that...Thank you...And am sorry about your sister...It scares me, because my son is in the hospital and very ill, and I don't like to hear news like that, especially when you know it's close to home. But you know its the best thing, probably..Right? I've tried not to be selfish, I couldn't see my life without him.Patricio tells me, that am selfish, I won't accept what is happening to him, I think that I am reacting like anyone else would, when they know that they are dying...Right?