A Sympathetic Thread

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2perfectboys

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Jim
I looked at the Camp Sunshine website and from what I saw they so not have any cystic fibrosis programs, they are specifically for cancer, and some ot specific conditions.
 
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jimhigginsCF

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Well, as mentioned by another reply, it was indeed Allan Glenns story that really made me fill with so much emotion. I literally cried for days, and I thought how awful it was to lose such a wonderful human being like Allan at such a young age. It brought me to my knees. In doing so I came here to give hope, support and help. I came out of pure raw emotion, the scars to which looking at Allans foto bears the sting of an open wound. It hurts me so emotionally, maybe that was another reason I had to step away and refresh myself.

As I looked back on the past year, as I looked back has it had been basically all about me. Who do I worry about?..Me. Who's in trouble?..Me. It came down to a short list of questions I asked myself and the answer was always Me. All I have done was nothing for anyone but Me.

I sat down and I thought about the very people who really mean something to me. I don't have any friends, and relatives are a natural. Famous politicians, artists, movie stars, poets,.....poets. That intriquing young man who passed from CF. I had to think awhile before I remembered his name.

Then I just sat on the edge of the bed sobbing like he passed only yesterday. I said to myself "Your a damn greedy *****. How dare you forget the things that you take for granted for those who can't! Look at yourself! you haven't made any inroads here. If it means this much to you, you can sit here forever and feel sorry for yourself, or you get up your lazy ass and actually be a contribution to society!"

So while I finished up the box of kleenex, I thought it would be a good time to start from scratch to build a new person.

On December 31st 2006 was my last drink of alcohol. In 2 days I should be off cigarrettes (I'm currently on Bupropion).

But again even in this reply I keep seeing "I", and that's not looking outward enough. Yes, good things to get rid of and change personally, but changing the momentum outward is why I have returned to give outwardly.

Other than that I look forward to listening and learning. As always saying prayers for those in need. Someone said the greatest scholar had big ears..lol.

When I was a kid, their was this pen-pal TV show Big Blue Marble. I had a penpal in Pennsylania. We wrote back and forth for years. Maybe their is such a program like that...oh, yeah I forgot...it's called a chat room now...lol.

~Jim
 
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jimhigginsCF

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Well, as mentioned by another reply, it was indeed Allan Glenns story that really made me fill with so much emotion. I literally cried for days, and I thought how awful it was to lose such a wonderful human being like Allan at such a young age. It brought me to my knees. In doing so I came here to give hope, support and help. I came out of pure raw emotion, the scars to which looking at Allans foto bears the sting of an open wound. It hurts me so emotionally, maybe that was another reason I had to step away and refresh myself.

As I looked back on the past year, as I looked back has it had been basically all about me. Who do I worry about?..Me. Who's in trouble?..Me. It came down to a short list of questions I asked myself and the answer was always Me. All I have done was nothing for anyone but Me.

I sat down and I thought about the very people who really mean something to me. I don't have any friends, and relatives are a natural. Famous politicians, artists, movie stars, poets,.....poets. That intriquing young man who passed from CF. I had to think awhile before I remembered his name.

Then I just sat on the edge of the bed sobbing like he passed only yesterday. I said to myself "Your a damn greedy *****. How dare you forget the things that you take for granted for those who can't! Look at yourself! you haven't made any inroads here. If it means this much to you, you can sit here forever and feel sorry for yourself, or you get up your lazy ass and actually be a contribution to society!"

So while I finished up the box of kleenex, I thought it would be a good time to start from scratch to build a new person.

On December 31st 2006 was my last drink of alcohol. In 2 days I should be off cigarrettes (I'm currently on Bupropion).

But again even in this reply I keep seeing "I", and that's not looking outward enough. Yes, good things to get rid of and change personally, but changing the momentum outward is why I have returned to give outwardly.

Other than that I look forward to listening and learning. As always saying prayers for those in need. Someone said the greatest scholar had big ears..lol.

When I was a kid, their was this pen-pal TV show Big Blue Marble. I had a penpal in Pennsylania. We wrote back and forth for years. Maybe their is such a program like that...oh, yeah I forgot...it's called a chat room now...lol.

~Jim
 
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jimhigginsCF

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Well, as mentioned by another reply, it was indeed Allan Glenns story that really made me fill with so much emotion. I literally cried for days, and I thought how awful it was to lose such a wonderful human being like Allan at such a young age. It brought me to my knees. In doing so I came here to give hope, support and help. I came out of pure raw emotion, the scars to which looking at Allans foto bears the sting of an open wound. It hurts me so emotionally, maybe that was another reason I had to step away and refresh myself.

As I looked back on the past year, as I looked back has it had been basically all about me. Who do I worry about?..Me. Who's in trouble?..Me. It came down to a short list of questions I asked myself and the answer was always Me. All I have done was nothing for anyone but Me.

I sat down and I thought about the very people who really mean something to me. I don't have any friends, and relatives are a natural. Famous politicians, artists, movie stars, poets,.....poets. That intriquing young man who passed from CF. I had to think awhile before I remembered his name.

Then I just sat on the edge of the bed sobbing like he passed only yesterday. I said to myself "Your a damn greedy *****. How dare you forget the things that you take for granted for those who can't! Look at yourself! you haven't made any inroads here. If it means this much to you, you can sit here forever and feel sorry for yourself, or you get up your lazy ass and actually be a contribution to society!"

So while I finished up the box of kleenex, I thought it would be a good time to start from scratch to build a new person.

On December 31st 2006 was my last drink of alcohol. In 2 days I should be off cigarrettes (I'm currently on Bupropion).

But again even in this reply I keep seeing "I", and that's not looking outward enough. Yes, good things to get rid of and change personally, but changing the momentum outward is why I have returned to give outwardly.

Other than that I look forward to listening and learning. As always saying prayers for those in need. Someone said the greatest scholar had big ears..lol.

When I was a kid, their was this pen-pal TV show Big Blue Marble. I had a penpal in Pennsylania. We wrote back and forth for years. Maybe their is such a program like that...oh, yeah I forgot...it's called a chat room now...lol.

~Jim
 
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Diane

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I remember you Jim. I wondered where you went and hoped you'd come back and here you are <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">
 
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Diane

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I remember you Jim. I wondered where you went and hoped you'd come back and here you are <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">
 
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Diane

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I remember you Jim. I wondered where you went and hoped you'd come back and here you are <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">
 
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2perfectboys

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I'm not sure if they are having much luck with this camp, or if they were even able to have it this year, their numbers have been dwindling with the fear or should I say knowledge of the posibility of cross contamination. And the website for volunteers: <a target=_blank class=ftalternatingbarlinklarge href="http://www.volunteermatch.org/orgs/org45676.html">http://www.volunteermatch.org/orgs/org45676.html</a> says "There are currently no opportunities for this organization" for volunteers, have u looked into it yet?
Have u done any thing for CF this year, CFF volunteer, Great strides walk, etc
Lori
 
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2perfectboys

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I'm not sure if they are having much luck with this camp, or if they were even able to have it this year, their numbers have been dwindling with the fear or should I say knowledge of the posibility of cross contamination. And the website for volunteers: <a target=_blank class=ftalternatingbarlinklarge href="http://www.volunteermatch.org/orgs/org45676.html">http://www.volunteermatch.org/orgs/org45676.html</a> says "There are currently no opportunities for this organization" for volunteers, have u looked into it yet?
Have u done any thing for CF this year, CFF volunteer, Great strides walk, etc
Lori
 
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2perfectboys

Guest
I'm not sure if they are having much luck with this camp, or if they were even able to have it this year, their numbers have been dwindling with the fear or should I say knowledge of the posibility of cross contamination. And the website for volunteers: <a target=_blank class=ftalternatingbarlinklarge href="http://www.volunteermatch.org/orgs/org45676.html">http://www.volunteermatch.org/orgs/org45676.html</a> says "There are currently no opportunities for this organization" for volunteers, have u looked into it yet?
Have u done any thing for CF this year, CFF volunteer, Great strides walk, etc
Lori
 
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2perfectboys

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<div class="FTQUOTE"><begin quote><i>Originally posted by: <b>jimhigginsCF</b></i>

See, I was scared of visiting the hospital in case I got shooed out because I didn't meet the clean test. It was like watching a roller coaster and being thrilled to see it zoom and loop. Getting on that ride..well that's a different matter.

</end quote></div>

What do u mean by this?
 
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2perfectboys

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<div class="FTQUOTE"><begin quote><i>Originally posted by: <b>jimhigginsCF</b></i>

See, I was scared of visiting the hospital in case I got shooed out because I didn't meet the clean test. It was like watching a roller coaster and being thrilled to see it zoom and loop. Getting on that ride..well that's a different matter.

</end quote></div>

What do u mean by this?
 
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2perfectboys

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<div class="FTQUOTE"><begin quote><i>Originally posted by: <b>jimhigginsCF</b></i>

See, I was scared of visiting the hospital in case I got shooed out because I didn't meet the clean test. It was like watching a roller coaster and being thrilled to see it zoom and loop. Getting on that ride..well that's a different matter.

</end quote></div>

What do u mean by this?
 
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jimhigginsCF

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What I was trying to say is that as much as I'm excited to try and help kids and adults with CF, I don't know how a hospital visit would go. I've read a lot of where theirs very strict conditions for CF patients in the hospital. I also was reading on one of the camp websites that you have to go through a certain test to make sure your not a contamination.

"Getting on that ride..well that's a different matter". That would refer to my own insecurity because I really don't know what to expect in terms of helping others here. I'm walking blindfolded basically. But at the same time Im excited because I just took another step forward. I hope I didn't confuse you with the roller coaster analogy. Some people have a passion and love for whales, trees, the environment, for technology, biology...lots of people have a passion of one kind or another. Our passion is here. Our hopes, our fears and our triumphs.
 
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jimhigginsCF

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What I was trying to say is that as much as I'm excited to try and help kids and adults with CF, I don't know how a hospital visit would go. I've read a lot of where theirs very strict conditions for CF patients in the hospital. I also was reading on one of the camp websites that you have to go through a certain test to make sure your not a contamination.

"Getting on that ride..well that's a different matter". That would refer to my own insecurity because I really don't know what to expect in terms of helping others here. I'm walking blindfolded basically. But at the same time Im excited because I just took another step forward. I hope I didn't confuse you with the roller coaster analogy. Some people have a passion and love for whales, trees, the environment, for technology, biology...lots of people have a passion of one kind or another. Our passion is here. Our hopes, our fears and our triumphs.
 
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jimhigginsCF

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What I was trying to say is that as much as I'm excited to try and help kids and adults with CF, I don't know how a hospital visit would go. I've read a lot of where theirs very strict conditions for CF patients in the hospital. I also was reading on one of the camp websites that you have to go through a certain test to make sure your not a contamination.

"Getting on that ride..well that's a different matter". That would refer to my own insecurity because I really don't know what to expect in terms of helping others here. I'm walking blindfolded basically. But at the same time Im excited because I just took another step forward. I hope I didn't confuse you with the roller coaster analogy. Some people have a passion and love for whales, trees, the environment, for technology, biology...lots of people have a passion of one kind or another. Our passion is here. Our hopes, our fears and our triumphs.
 
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2perfectboys

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ok, Jim, I''ll just come right out and say it, i'm a little skeptical of u dear. U keep saying OURs. But what is ours, the fact that some 41 year old man wept like a baby over a person he never met or never met anyone who knew him or even met anyone with CF just doesn't seem stable.

Hey I will take all the publicity from anywhere or anybody for CF if it helps to find a cure. So in the year since u first heard about CF, you've read all about the horrible things the disease does and that it takes so many good people away to soon in life, but u have to help me understand your conection here as for what u want here.

Yeah Bill Gates probably didn't know anyone with CF when he donated money. Do u have money to throw away?

I'm glad you want to do something good in life, I'm with u there, I hope I do some day, so I can get into heaven, but the world is full of sick and crazy people. I would not want some man I've never met or know nothing about visiting my child in the hospital. Can't u get involved in fundraising or volunteering? Again I will ask u, have u ever contacted your local CF chapter and asked "how can I help?"
 
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