Everyone keep their heads up... look at my "Bar Tab" under Off Topic, lol. I have been there, done that, got away. Choosing to recover is in the most part... choosing new friends or isolation... new friends, new adventures... yes!
You lived, seen that side of life, and now want to experience something new... Drugs is not the way to go... I have had many friends Die from overdose... they should've out lived me... very sad.
I sought isolation and now I have moved on to the next level of life, where we can find other things to do that amuses us, little things amuse me so I am not hard to please.
Good luck... find new friends... once you are free of addiction you will realize that they were never friends at all, but just people in passing.
-Jason