at the end of my rope

shallowwaters · Apr 13, 2008

you sound almost exactly how i was not too long ago. i just recently... and by recently i mean just weeks ago started to get my stuff together. i made it two semesters in nursing college endedup with no gpa got kicked out and then went to community college and maybe passed 3 out of 9 classes. and trust me it had nothign to do with the fact i wasnt smart enough. there were days i slept my day away. along with all the depression i left my lungs start to slip too. i no longer am up in the 90s i am permantly stuck in the 70 and 80s. i know there isnt just one exact thing that will help pick you up.

feel free to PM me. i actuallty am, and was going through the same things as you. you deffinetly arent alone

shallowwaters · Apr 13, 2008

you sound almost exactly how i was not too long ago. i just recently... and by recently i mean just weeks ago started to get my stuff together. i made it two semesters in nursing college endedup with no gpa got kicked out and then went to community college and maybe passed 3 out of 9 classes. and trust me it had nothign to do with the fact i wasnt smart enough. there were days i slept my day away. along with all the depression i left my lungs start to slip too. i no longer am up in the 90s i am permantly stuck in the 70 and 80s. i know there isnt just one exact thing that will help pick you up.

feel free to PM me. i actuallty am, and was going through the same things as you. you deffinetly arent alone

shallowwaters · Apr 13, 2008

you sound almost exactly how i was not too long ago. i just recently... and by recently i mean just weeks ago started to get my stuff together. i made it two semesters in nursing college endedup with no gpa got kicked out and then went to community college and maybe passed 3 out of 9 classes. and trust me it had nothign to do with the fact i wasnt smart enough. there were days i slept my day away. along with all the depression i left my lungs start to slip too. i no longer am up in the 90s i am permantly stuck in the 70 and 80s. i know there isnt just one exact thing that will help pick you up.

feel free to PM me. i actuallty am, and was going through the same things as you. you deffinetly arent alone

shallowwaters · Apr 13, 2008

you sound almost exactly how i was not too long ago. i just recently... and by recently i mean just weeks ago started to get my stuff together. i made it two semesters in nursing college endedup with no gpa got kicked out and then went to community college and maybe passed 3 out of 9 classes. and trust me it had nothign to do with the fact i wasnt smart enough. there were days i slept my day away. along with all the depression i left my lungs start to slip too. i no longer am up in the 90s i am permantly stuck in the 70 and 80s. i know there isnt just one exact thing that will help pick you up.

feel free to PM me. i actuallty am, and was going through the same things as you. you deffinetly arent alone

shallowwaters · Apr 13, 2008

you sound almost exactly how i was not too long ago. i just recently... and by recently i mean just weeks ago started to get my stuff together. i made it two semesters in nursing college endedup with no gpa got kicked out and then went to community college and maybe passed 3 out of 9 classes. and trust me it had nothign to do with the fact i wasnt smart enough. there were days i slept my day away. along with all the depression i left my lungs start to slip too. i no longer am up in the 90s i am permantly stuck in the 70 and 80s. i know there isnt just one exact thing that will help pick you up.
 
 feel free to PM me. i actuallty am, and was going through the same things as you. you deffinetly arent alone

thefrogprincess · Apr 13, 2008

First of all it sounds like prozac is not working for you anymore. I would start trying different antidepressants and see if you can find one that works better. It took me trying 3 or 4 different meds before I finally found one that worked.

Some people also just aren't "into" therapy. I wasn't. I went 3 times when I had a very specific problem that I needed objective help with. Other than that I would never really consider seeing a therapist. You have to want to be there for it to work, if you don't want to be there nothing will happen for you.

Best of luck to you! I lived with severe depression for far too long and finally taking action was the only way I got out of it. Admitting that you are fed up with it is a great first step.

thefrogprincess · Apr 13, 2008

First of all it sounds like prozac is not working for you anymore. I would start trying different antidepressants and see if you can find one that works better. It took me trying 3 or 4 different meds before I finally found one that worked.

Some people also just aren't "into" therapy. I wasn't. I went 3 times when I had a very specific problem that I needed objective help with. Other than that I would never really consider seeing a therapist. You have to want to be there for it to work, if you don't want to be there nothing will happen for you.

Best of luck to you! I lived with severe depression for far too long and finally taking action was the only way I got out of it. Admitting that you are fed up with it is a great first step.

thefrogprincess · Apr 13, 2008

First of all it sounds like prozac is not working for you anymore. I would start trying different antidepressants and see if you can find one that works better. It took me trying 3 or 4 different meds before I finally found one that worked.

Some people also just aren't "into" therapy. I wasn't. I went 3 times when I had a very specific problem that I needed objective help with. Other than that I would never really consider seeing a therapist. You have to want to be there for it to work, if you don't want to be there nothing will happen for you.

Best of luck to you! I lived with severe depression for far too long and finally taking action was the only way I got out of it. Admitting that you are fed up with it is a great first step.

thefrogprincess · Apr 13, 2008

First of all it sounds like prozac is not working for you anymore. I would start trying different antidepressants and see if you can find one that works better. It took me trying 3 or 4 different meds before I finally found one that worked.

Some people also just aren't "into" therapy. I wasn't. I went 3 times when I had a very specific problem that I needed objective help with. Other than that I would never really consider seeing a therapist. You have to want to be there for it to work, if you don't want to be there nothing will happen for you.

Best of luck to you! I lived with severe depression for far too long and finally taking action was the only way I got out of it. Admitting that you are fed up with it is a great first step.

thefrogprincess · Apr 13, 2008

First of all it sounds like prozac is not working for you anymore. I would start trying different antidepressants and see if you can find one that works better. It took me trying 3 or 4 different meds before I finally found one that worked.
 
 Some people also just aren't "into" therapy. I wasn't. I went 3 times when I had a very specific problem that I needed objective help with. Other than that I would never really consider seeing a therapist. You have to want to be there for it to work, if you don't want to be there nothing will happen for you.
 
 Best of luck to you! I lived with severe depression for far too long and finally taking action was the only way I got out of it. Admitting that you are fed up with it is a great first step.

Wheezie · Apr 13, 2008

I don't know much about it, but from your description of your accomplishments and those periods in your life where you experienced 'highs', coupled with those times when it all came crashing down, or you experienced 'lows', it sounds to me like maybe you're dealing with something a little more disrupting than depression; your situation sounds a bit manic or maybe even bipolar? I agree with Jessi that you should maybe try experimenting with other meds (under MD supervision, of course), because it doesn't sound like prozac is doing the trick.

On a separate note, you are definitely not alone in your struggles with this. As you can see from the responses already posted, many of us struggle with depression, feelings of failure, feelings of avoidance (like just wanting to go get drunk), feelings of confusion about what we should do with ourselves and what our future might be like - if we can even imagine HAVING a future. Personally, I'm on not one, but TWO anti-depressants. And it took the proverbial 'hitting the bottom' for me to even take the necessary steps to climb out of that dark hole I'd been in for so long.

One last thing: our depression isn't always about cf. Sometimes regular old life can be a beotch and just throwing cf on top of all the other crap, the stuff that 'normal' people can't even deal with, is enough to push us right over the edge.

Wheezie · Apr 13, 2008

I don't know much about it, but from your description of your accomplishments and those periods in your life where you experienced 'highs', coupled with those times when it all came crashing down, or you experienced 'lows', it sounds to me like maybe you're dealing with something a little more disrupting than depression; your situation sounds a bit manic or maybe even bipolar? I agree with Jessi that you should maybe try experimenting with other meds (under MD supervision, of course), because it doesn't sound like prozac is doing the trick.

On a separate note, you are definitely not alone in your struggles with this. As you can see from the responses already posted, many of us struggle with depression, feelings of failure, feelings of avoidance (like just wanting to go get drunk), feelings of confusion about what we should do with ourselves and what our future might be like - if we can even imagine HAVING a future. Personally, I'm on not one, but TWO anti-depressants. And it took the proverbial 'hitting the bottom' for me to even take the necessary steps to climb out of that dark hole I'd been in for so long.

One last thing: our depression isn't always about cf. Sometimes regular old life can be a beotch and just throwing cf on top of all the other crap, the stuff that 'normal' people can't even deal with, is enough to push us right over the edge.

Wheezie · Apr 13, 2008

I don't know much about it, but from your description of your accomplishments and those periods in your life where you experienced 'highs', coupled with those times when it all came crashing down, or you experienced 'lows', it sounds to me like maybe you're dealing with something a little more disrupting than depression; your situation sounds a bit manic or maybe even bipolar? I agree with Jessi that you should maybe try experimenting with other meds (under MD supervision, of course), because it doesn't sound like prozac is doing the trick.

On a separate note, you are definitely not alone in your struggles with this. As you can see from the responses already posted, many of us struggle with depression, feelings of failure, feelings of avoidance (like just wanting to go get drunk), feelings of confusion about what we should do with ourselves and what our future might be like - if we can even imagine HAVING a future. Personally, I'm on not one, but TWO anti-depressants. And it took the proverbial 'hitting the bottom' for me to even take the necessary steps to climb out of that dark hole I'd been in for so long.

One last thing: our depression isn't always about cf. Sometimes regular old life can be a beotch and just throwing cf on top of all the other crap, the stuff that 'normal' people can't even deal with, is enough to push us right over the edge.

Wheezie · Apr 13, 2008

I don't know much about it, but from your description of your accomplishments and those periods in your life where you experienced 'highs', coupled with those times when it all came crashing down, or you experienced 'lows', it sounds to me like maybe you're dealing with something a little more disrupting than depression; your situation sounds a bit manic or maybe even bipolar? I agree with Jessi that you should maybe try experimenting with other meds (under MD supervision, of course), because it doesn't sound like prozac is doing the trick.

On a separate note, you are definitely not alone in your struggles with this. As you can see from the responses already posted, many of us struggle with depression, feelings of failure, feelings of avoidance (like just wanting to go get drunk), feelings of confusion about what we should do with ourselves and what our future might be like - if we can even imagine HAVING a future. Personally, I'm on not one, but TWO anti-depressants. And it took the proverbial 'hitting the bottom' for me to even take the necessary steps to climb out of that dark hole I'd been in for so long.

One last thing: our depression isn't always about cf. Sometimes regular old life can be a beotch and just throwing cf on top of all the other crap, the stuff that 'normal' people can't even deal with, is enough to push us right over the edge.

Wheezie · Apr 13, 2008

I don't know much about it, but from your description of your accomplishments and those periods in your life where you experienced 'highs', coupled with those times when it all came crashing down, or you experienced 'lows', it sounds to me like maybe you're dealing with something a little more disrupting than depression; your situation sounds a bit manic or maybe even bipolar? I agree with Jessi that you should maybe try experimenting with other meds (under MD supervision, of course), because it doesn't sound like prozac is doing the trick.
 
 On a separate note, you are definitely not alone in your struggles with this. As you can see from the responses already posted, many of us struggle with depression, feelings of failure, feelings of avoidance (like just wanting to go get drunk), feelings of confusion about what we should do with ourselves and what our future might be like - if we can even imagine HAVING a future. Personally, I'm on not one, but TWO anti-depressants. And it took the proverbial 'hitting the bottom' for me to even take the necessary steps to climb out of that dark hole I'd been in for so long.
 
 One last thing: our depression isn't always about cf. Sometimes regular old life can be a beotch and just throwing cf on top of all the other crap, the stuff that 'normal' people can't even deal with, is enough to push us right over the edge.

Spartan936 · Apr 13, 2008

Hi maggie. You and I are very similar. I'm 21, male, and I also have very high lung function. Our problems are alike as well. I too was vegan for a time. I got infections that made me very very tired... but didn't drastically lower my FEV1. I've done tons of research into my particular situation (depression, extremely low energy, etc...) and I think some of it might help you. I'm thinking that much of your problem is health related, and very little of it is just 'in your head'.

 

First of all, I think you should eat meat. Or at least more dairy products and eggs. This makes it much more likely that you are getting the protein and nutrients you need. Man was a solid meat eater for millions of years. I understand that it is a moral dilemma for some, but the facts are the facts.

 

Secondly, are you diabetic? Has your blood sugar ever been checked? The crashing you described sounds somewhat like high and low blood sugar. Having lots of carbohydrates in your diet will do this. I'm diabetic and I could barely leave my apartment before I started eating fewer carbohydrates.

 

Thirdly, have you had your thyroid checked? What about your iron levels? Your hormones? The thyroid especially can cause horrendous fatigue. And the fact that you gain weight easily leads me to believe that you may have a problem there. There are many things doctors will not catch, regardless of how much they mean to help you. I'm not against doctors or anything, nor am I for alternative medicine, it's just that doctors are very busy people, and they tend to ignore problems that don't stare them in the face.

 

Fourth... find that therapist. If you're taking prozac and it's very clearly not working, then find a professional who will listen. It is VERY difficult to find a good doctor, but you have to.

 

This is just my advice. I'm no doctor, but I've been able to help myself tremendously by doing my own research.

 

-Derek

Spartan936 · Apr 13, 2008

Hi maggie. You and I are very similar. I'm 21, male, and I also have very high lung function. Our problems are alike as well. I too was vegan for a time. I got infections that made me very very tired... but didn't drastically lower my FEV1. I've done tons of research into my particular situation (depression, extremely low energy, etc...) and I think some of it might help you. I'm thinking that much of your problem is health related, and very little of it is just 'in your head'.

 

First of all, I think you should eat meat. Or at least more dairy products and eggs. This makes it much more likely that you are getting the protein and nutrients you need. Man was a solid meat eater for millions of years. I understand that it is a moral dilemma for some, but the facts are the facts.

 

Secondly, are you diabetic? Has your blood sugar ever been checked? The crashing you described sounds somewhat like high and low blood sugar. Having lots of carbohydrates in your diet will do this. I'm diabetic and I could barely leave my apartment before I started eating fewer carbohydrates.

 

Thirdly, have you had your thyroid checked? What about your iron levels? Your hormones? The thyroid especially can cause horrendous fatigue. And the fact that you gain weight easily leads me to believe that you may have a problem there. There are many things doctors will not catch, regardless of how much they mean to help you. I'm not against doctors or anything, nor am I for alternative medicine, it's just that doctors are very busy people, and they tend to ignore problems that don't stare them in the face.

 

Fourth... find that therapist. If you're taking prozac and it's very clearly not working, then find a professional who will listen. It is VERY difficult to find a good doctor, but you have to.

 

This is just my advice. I'm no doctor, but I've been able to help myself tremendously by doing my own research.

 

-Derek

Spartan936 · Apr 13, 2008

Hi maggie. You and I are very similar. I'm 21, male, and I also have very high lung function. Our problems are alike as well. I too was vegan for a time. I got infections that made me very very tired... but didn't drastically lower my FEV1. I've done tons of research into my particular situation (depression, extremely low energy, etc...) and I think some of it might help you. I'm thinking that much of your problem is health related, and very little of it is just 'in your head'.

 

First of all, I think you should eat meat. Or at least more dairy products and eggs. This makes it much more likely that you are getting the protein and nutrients you need. Man was a solid meat eater for millions of years. I understand that it is a moral dilemma for some, but the facts are the facts.

 

Secondly, are you diabetic? Has your blood sugar ever been checked? The crashing you described sounds somewhat like high and low blood sugar. Having lots of carbohydrates in your diet will do this. I'm diabetic and I could barely leave my apartment before I started eating fewer carbohydrates.

 

Thirdly, have you had your thyroid checked? What about your iron levels? Your hormones? The thyroid especially can cause horrendous fatigue. And the fact that you gain weight easily leads me to believe that you may have a problem there. There are many things doctors will not catch, regardless of how much they mean to help you. I'm not against doctors or anything, nor am I for alternative medicine, it's just that doctors are very busy people, and they tend to ignore problems that don't stare them in the face.

 

Fourth... find that therapist. If you're taking prozac and it's very clearly not working, then find a professional who will listen. It is VERY difficult to find a good doctor, but you have to.

 

This is just my advice. I'm no doctor, but I've been able to help myself tremendously by doing my own research.

 

-Derek

Spartan936 · Apr 13, 2008

Hi maggie. You and I are very similar. I'm 21, male, and I also have very high lung function. Our problems are alike as well. I too was vegan for a time. I got infections that made me very very tired... but didn't drastically lower my FEV1. I've done tons of research into my particular situation (depression, extremely low energy, etc...) and I think some of it might help you. I'm thinking that much of your problem is health related, and very little of it is just 'in your head'.

 

First of all, I think you should eat meat. Or at least more dairy products and eggs. This makes it much more likely that you are getting the protein and nutrients you need. Man was a solid meat eater for millions of years. I understand that it is a moral dilemma for some, but the facts are the facts.

 

Secondly, are you diabetic? Has your blood sugar ever been checked? The crashing you described sounds somewhat like high and low blood sugar. Having lots of carbohydrates in your diet will do this. I'm diabetic and I could barely leave my apartment before I started eating fewer carbohydrates.

 

Thirdly, have you had your thyroid checked? What about your iron levels? Your hormones? The thyroid especially can cause horrendous fatigue. And the fact that you gain weight easily leads me to believe that you may have a problem there. There are many things doctors will not catch, regardless of how much they mean to help you. I'm not against doctors or anything, nor am I for alternative medicine, it's just that doctors are very busy people, and they tend to ignore problems that don't stare them in the face.

 

Fourth... find that therapist. If you're taking prozac and it's very clearly not working, then find a professional who will listen. It is VERY difficult to find a good doctor, but you have to.

 

This is just my advice. I'm no doctor, but I've been able to help myself tremendously by doing my own research.

 

-Derek

Spartan936 · Apr 13, 2008

Hi maggie. You and I are very similar. I'm 21, male, and I also have very high lung function. Our problems are alike as well. I too was vegan for a time. I got infections that made me very very tired... but didn't drastically lower my FEV1. I've done tons of research into my particular situation (depression, extremely low energy, etc...) and I think some of it might help you. I'm thinking that much of your problem is health related, and very little of it is just 'in your head'.

 

First of all, I think you should eat meat. Or at least more dairy products and eggs. This makes it much more likely that you are getting the protein and nutrients you need. Man was a solid meat eater for millions of years. I understand that it is a moral dilemma for some, but the facts are the facts.

 

Secondly, are you diabetic? Has your blood sugar ever been checked? The crashing you described sounds somewhat like high and low blood sugar. Having lots of carbohydrates in your diet will do this. I'm diabetic and I could barely leave my apartment before I started eating fewer carbohydrates.

 

Thirdly, have you had your thyroid checked? What about your iron levels? Your hormones? The thyroid especially can cause horrendous fatigue. And the fact that you gain weight easily leads me to believe that you may have a problem there. There are many things doctors will not catch, regardless of how much they mean to help you. I'm not against doctors or anything, nor am I for alternative medicine, it's just that doctors are very busy people, and they tend to ignore problems that don't stare them in the face.

 

Fourth... find that therapist. If you're taking prozac and it's very clearly not working, then find a professional who will listen. It is VERY difficult to find a good doctor, but you have to.

 

This is just my advice. I'm no doctor, but I've been able to help myself tremendously by doing my own research.

 

-Derek

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