Confession time

kayleesgrandma

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I didn't know we were supposed to go into our past--oh we don't want to go into my wild, hippey, free-love days...thank God my car knew it's way home, and my kids were born without brain damage...
 

kayleesgrandma

New member
I didn't know we were supposed to go into our past--oh we don't want to go into my wild, hippey, free-love days...thank God my car knew it's way home, and my kids were born without brain damage...
 

kayleesgrandma

New member
I didn't know we were supposed to go into our past--oh we don't want to go into my wild, hippey, free-love days...thank God my car knew it's way home, and my kids were born without brain damage...
 

kayleesgrandma

New member
I didn't know we were supposed to go into our past--oh we don't want to go into my wild, hippey, free-love days...thank God my car knew it's way home, and my kids were born without brain damage...
 

kayleesgrandma

New member
I didn't know we were supposed to go into our past--oh we don't want to go into my wild, hippey, free-love days...thank God my car knew it's way home, and my kids were born without brain damage...
 

Ender

New member
I have to be the worst cfer....I almost wish i could post anon for this. But whatever, life is life.

I am obsessed with supplements...finding things to make me healthy....halt the progression....etc.

However, i think it's mostly to try and balance the bad. I smoke occasionally, upwards of 5+ cigarettes a day, more when i drink. I have been good lately, and have only been indulging myself when i drink...

Drinking....i can easily drink 3-4 times a week...in access to 5-6 beers a night, perhaps more when i am out with friends.

I take stimulants (speed, coke...) about once to twice a week. Mostly at the influence of my friends....

I don't smoke weed as much as i used to. I used to smoke 3-4 times a week, now i haven't smoked in a while....and i am fine with that.

Hallucinogens...once to twice a year. I have to say, you want a religious experience....try some mushrooms.

Honestly, a life drug free doesn't bother me. It's more the idea I can't do it because of cf that pisses me off. Perhaps that is why i push myself so hard with life, drugs, excercise, everything I do.

I might also add, on a good week, i excercise 5 times a week for about an hour a day. When i was working 40-60 hours a week, i didn't work out as much, however i figured work as my cardio.

Most of you have read my blog, and the supplements i take. I still take most of them. I have to say, they make all the difference (plus the cf assigned drugs ie tobra, zithro etc).

I'm just trying to put a bit of perspective to this thread, that besides the hordes of compliant people on this site (which it seems everyone is)...there are those that lead a more...unconventional life.

We live once. I chose to live my life WITH this disease, not by it. Ya i might die younger than some, i might live longer. However, i have realized i am comfortable with my decisions.

We aren't all perfect. If you aren't doing your neb for 2 hours a day, vest, drugs....don't get too hard on yourself. Chances are you will wake up tomorrow.

Just being honest,
Kiel
 

Ender

New member
I have to be the worst cfer....I almost wish i could post anon for this. But whatever, life is life.

I am obsessed with supplements...finding things to make me healthy....halt the progression....etc.

However, i think it's mostly to try and balance the bad. I smoke occasionally, upwards of 5+ cigarettes a day, more when i drink. I have been good lately, and have only been indulging myself when i drink...

Drinking....i can easily drink 3-4 times a week...in access to 5-6 beers a night, perhaps more when i am out with friends.

I take stimulants (speed, coke...) about once to twice a week. Mostly at the influence of my friends....

I don't smoke weed as much as i used to. I used to smoke 3-4 times a week, now i haven't smoked in a while....and i am fine with that.

Hallucinogens...once to twice a year. I have to say, you want a religious experience....try some mushrooms.

Honestly, a life drug free doesn't bother me. It's more the idea I can't do it because of cf that pisses me off. Perhaps that is why i push myself so hard with life, drugs, excercise, everything I do.

I might also add, on a good week, i excercise 5 times a week for about an hour a day. When i was working 40-60 hours a week, i didn't work out as much, however i figured work as my cardio.

Most of you have read my blog, and the supplements i take. I still take most of them. I have to say, they make all the difference (plus the cf assigned drugs ie tobra, zithro etc).

I'm just trying to put a bit of perspective to this thread, that besides the hordes of compliant people on this site (which it seems everyone is)...there are those that lead a more...unconventional life.

We live once. I chose to live my life WITH this disease, not by it. Ya i might die younger than some, i might live longer. However, i have realized i am comfortable with my decisions.

We aren't all perfect. If you aren't doing your neb for 2 hours a day, vest, drugs....don't get too hard on yourself. Chances are you will wake up tomorrow.

Just being honest,
Kiel
 

Ender

New member
I have to be the worst cfer....I almost wish i could post anon for this. But whatever, life is life.

I am obsessed with supplements...finding things to make me healthy....halt the progression....etc.

However, i think it's mostly to try and balance the bad. I smoke occasionally, upwards of 5+ cigarettes a day, more when i drink. I have been good lately, and have only been indulging myself when i drink...

Drinking....i can easily drink 3-4 times a week...in access to 5-6 beers a night, perhaps more when i am out with friends.

I take stimulants (speed, coke...) about once to twice a week. Mostly at the influence of my friends....

I don't smoke weed as much as i used to. I used to smoke 3-4 times a week, now i haven't smoked in a while....and i am fine with that.

Hallucinogens...once to twice a year. I have to say, you want a religious experience....try some mushrooms.

Honestly, a life drug free doesn't bother me. It's more the idea I can't do it because of cf that pisses me off. Perhaps that is why i push myself so hard with life, drugs, excercise, everything I do.

I might also add, on a good week, i excercise 5 times a week for about an hour a day. When i was working 40-60 hours a week, i didn't work out as much, however i figured work as my cardio.

Most of you have read my blog, and the supplements i take. I still take most of them. I have to say, they make all the difference (plus the cf assigned drugs ie tobra, zithro etc).

I'm just trying to put a bit of perspective to this thread, that besides the hordes of compliant people on this site (which it seems everyone is)...there are those that lead a more...unconventional life.

We live once. I chose to live my life WITH this disease, not by it. Ya i might die younger than some, i might live longer. However, i have realized i am comfortable with my decisions.

We aren't all perfect. If you aren't doing your neb for 2 hours a day, vest, drugs....don't get too hard on yourself. Chances are you will wake up tomorrow.

Just being honest,
Kiel
 

Ender

New member
I have to be the worst cfer....I almost wish i could post anon for this. But whatever, life is life.

I am obsessed with supplements...finding things to make me healthy....halt the progression....etc.

However, i think it's mostly to try and balance the bad. I smoke occasionally, upwards of 5+ cigarettes a day, more when i drink. I have been good lately, and have only been indulging myself when i drink...

Drinking....i can easily drink 3-4 times a week...in access to 5-6 beers a night, perhaps more when i am out with friends.

I take stimulants (speed, coke...) about once to twice a week. Mostly at the influence of my friends....

I don't smoke weed as much as i used to. I used to smoke 3-4 times a week, now i haven't smoked in a while....and i am fine with that.

Hallucinogens...once to twice a year. I have to say, you want a religious experience....try some mushrooms.

Honestly, a life drug free doesn't bother me. It's more the idea I can't do it because of cf that pisses me off. Perhaps that is why i push myself so hard with life, drugs, excercise, everything I do.

I might also add, on a good week, i excercise 5 times a week for about an hour a day. When i was working 40-60 hours a week, i didn't work out as much, however i figured work as my cardio.

Most of you have read my blog, and the supplements i take. I still take most of them. I have to say, they make all the difference (plus the cf assigned drugs ie tobra, zithro etc).

I'm just trying to put a bit of perspective to this thread, that besides the hordes of compliant people on this site (which it seems everyone is)...there are those that lead a more...unconventional life.

We live once. I chose to live my life WITH this disease, not by it. Ya i might die younger than some, i might live longer. However, i have realized i am comfortable with my decisions.

We aren't all perfect. If you aren't doing your neb for 2 hours a day, vest, drugs....don't get too hard on yourself. Chances are you will wake up tomorrow.

Just being honest,
Kiel
 

Ender

New member
I have to be the worst cfer....I almost wish i could post anon for this. But whatever, life is life.

I am obsessed with supplements...finding things to make me healthy....halt the progression....etc.

However, i think it's mostly to try and balance the bad. I smoke occasionally, upwards of 5+ cigarettes a day, more when i drink. I have been good lately, and have only been indulging myself when i drink...

Drinking....i can easily drink 3-4 times a week...in access to 5-6 beers a night, perhaps more when i am out with friends.

I take stimulants (speed, coke...) about once to twice a week. Mostly at the influence of my friends....

I don't smoke weed as much as i used to. I used to smoke 3-4 times a week, now i haven't smoked in a while....and i am fine with that.

Hallucinogens...once to twice a year. I have to say, you want a religious experience....try some mushrooms.

Honestly, a life drug free doesn't bother me. It's more the idea I can't do it because of cf that pisses me off. Perhaps that is why i push myself so hard with life, drugs, excercise, everything I do.

I might also add, on a good week, i excercise 5 times a week for about an hour a day. When i was working 40-60 hours a week, i didn't work out as much, however i figured work as my cardio.

Most of you have read my blog, and the supplements i take. I still take most of them. I have to say, they make all the difference (plus the cf assigned drugs ie tobra, zithro etc).

I'm just trying to put a bit of perspective to this thread, that besides the hordes of compliant people on this site (which it seems everyone is)...there are those that lead a more...unconventional life.

We live once. I chose to live my life WITH this disease, not by it. Ya i might die younger than some, i might live longer. However, i have realized i am comfortable with my decisions.

We aren't all perfect. If you aren't doing your neb for 2 hours a day, vest, drugs....don't get too hard on yourself. Chances are you will wake up tomorrow.

Just being honest,
Kiel
 

kayleesgrandma

New member
Kiel, your honesty is refreshing, and you better not get jumped on for living your life the way you want! You are responsible with your meds, excercise, and vest, yet you feel like you want to be the one in control. That is what pisses me off about this disease, how much it controls you--if you let it. You can never forget about it, even when you're out with your friends, because that vest and those nebs are sitting there--waiting--for you to get home...I think about it with kaylee every day--I'm sorry, but I'd have to be the same way...

Don't be so hard on yourself, we each have our own way of walking in the world, and what path we choose. Yours works for you, so far...as we have seen, Cf knows no boundaries, and takes people on a whim here and there. I'm glad you can say "I lived my life my way!"
 

kayleesgrandma

New member
Kiel, your honesty is refreshing, and you better not get jumped on for living your life the way you want! You are responsible with your meds, excercise, and vest, yet you feel like you want to be the one in control. That is what pisses me off about this disease, how much it controls you--if you let it. You can never forget about it, even when you're out with your friends, because that vest and those nebs are sitting there--waiting--for you to get home...I think about it with kaylee every day--I'm sorry, but I'd have to be the same way...

Don't be so hard on yourself, we each have our own way of walking in the world, and what path we choose. Yours works for you, so far...as we have seen, Cf knows no boundaries, and takes people on a whim here and there. I'm glad you can say "I lived my life my way!"
 

kayleesgrandma

New member
Kiel, your honesty is refreshing, and you better not get jumped on for living your life the way you want! You are responsible with your meds, excercise, and vest, yet you feel like you want to be the one in control. That is what pisses me off about this disease, how much it controls you--if you let it. You can never forget about it, even when you're out with your friends, because that vest and those nebs are sitting there--waiting--for you to get home...I think about it with kaylee every day--I'm sorry, but I'd have to be the same way...

Don't be so hard on yourself, we each have our own way of walking in the world, and what path we choose. Yours works for you, so far...as we have seen, Cf knows no boundaries, and takes people on a whim here and there. I'm glad you can say "I lived my life my way!"
 

kayleesgrandma

New member
Kiel, your honesty is refreshing, and you better not get jumped on for living your life the way you want! You are responsible with your meds, excercise, and vest, yet you feel like you want to be the one in control. That is what pisses me off about this disease, how much it controls you--if you let it. You can never forget about it, even when you're out with your friends, because that vest and those nebs are sitting there--waiting--for you to get home...I think about it with kaylee every day--I'm sorry, but I'd have to be the same way...

Don't be so hard on yourself, we each have our own way of walking in the world, and what path we choose. Yours works for you, so far...as we have seen, Cf knows no boundaries, and takes people on a whim here and there. I'm glad you can say "I lived my life my way!"
 

kayleesgrandma

New member
Kiel, your honesty is refreshing, and you better not get jumped on for living your life the way you want! You are responsible with your meds, excercise, and vest, yet you feel like you want to be the one in control. That is what pisses me off about this disease, how much it controls you--if you let it. You can never forget about it, even when you're out with your friends, because that vest and those nebs are sitting there--waiting--for you to get home...I think about it with kaylee every day--I'm sorry, but I'd have to be the same way...

Don't be so hard on yourself, we each have our own way of walking in the world, and what path we choose. Yours works for you, so far...as we have seen, Cf knows no boundaries, and takes people on a whim here and there. I'm glad you can say "I lived my life my way!"
 

JazzysMom

New member
Since I dont drink & smoke anymore life is a bit dull. SO lets see......I am pretty compliant with my actual treatments, but quite honestly that is so I can breath & not cough all night (day doesnt bother me as much) since I hate missing my sleep.

I will say that my eating patterns such. I have never been one for 3 meals & dont ever really remember eating breakfast except in the hospital. I rely heavily on my shakes for my caloric intake.

I have gotten better about doing some actual snacking throughout the day since I had the sugar scare a few weeks back, but I wouldnt call it proper.

This is just as big FOR ME as not doing my treatments since my weight highly influences my overall health!
 

JazzysMom

New member
Since I dont drink & smoke anymore life is a bit dull. SO lets see......I am pretty compliant with my actual treatments, but quite honestly that is so I can breath & not cough all night (day doesnt bother me as much) since I hate missing my sleep.

I will say that my eating patterns such. I have never been one for 3 meals & dont ever really remember eating breakfast except in the hospital. I rely heavily on my shakes for my caloric intake.

I have gotten better about doing some actual snacking throughout the day since I had the sugar scare a few weeks back, but I wouldnt call it proper.

This is just as big FOR ME as not doing my treatments since my weight highly influences my overall health!
 

JazzysMom

New member
Since I dont drink & smoke anymore life is a bit dull. SO lets see......I am pretty compliant with my actual treatments, but quite honestly that is so I can breath & not cough all night (day doesnt bother me as much) since I hate missing my sleep.

I will say that my eating patterns such. I have never been one for 3 meals & dont ever really remember eating breakfast except in the hospital. I rely heavily on my shakes for my caloric intake.

I have gotten better about doing some actual snacking throughout the day since I had the sugar scare a few weeks back, but I wouldnt call it proper.

This is just as big FOR ME as not doing my treatments since my weight highly influences my overall health!
 

JazzysMom

New member
Since I dont drink & smoke anymore life is a bit dull. SO lets see......I am pretty compliant with my actual treatments, but quite honestly that is so I can breath & not cough all night (day doesnt bother me as much) since I hate missing my sleep.

I will say that my eating patterns such. I have never been one for 3 meals & dont ever really remember eating breakfast except in the hospital. I rely heavily on my shakes for my caloric intake.

I have gotten better about doing some actual snacking throughout the day since I had the sugar scare a few weeks back, but I wouldnt call it proper.

This is just as big FOR ME as not doing my treatments since my weight highly influences my overall health!
 

JazzysMom

New member
Since I dont drink & smoke anymore life is a bit dull. SO lets see......I am pretty compliant with my actual treatments, but quite honestly that is so I can breath & not cough all night (day doesnt bother me as much) since I hate missing my sleep.

I will say that my eating patterns such. I have never been one for 3 meals & dont ever really remember eating breakfast except in the hospital. I rely heavily on my shakes for my caloric intake.

I have gotten better about doing some actual snacking throughout the day since I had the sugar scare a few weeks back, but I wouldnt call it proper.

This is just as big FOR ME as not doing my treatments since my weight highly influences my overall health!
 
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