Confession time

[Wheezie]

Ugh...I have a few things in common with previous posters: MAJOR sweet tooth (is this a CF thing? I'm starting to wonder), hate, hate HATE cleaning (my house is a pig sty), really weak with the exercise, and have a bit of a druggie past, lol

None of those things concern me very much though. My biggest issue with myself these days is overextending. I make too many commitments and feel so many obligations (particularly to friends and family) that I wear myself out way more than is healthy. Since joining this site, I've become 100% compliant with my meds, nebs, etc., but this makes it even HARDER to fulfill all of my commitments outside of CF. Before, if I needed that extra half hour of sleep, I'd just skip a treatment.

The other thing I do that I shouldn't is play down the severity of my CF. Perhaps people wouldn't ask so much of me if they actually knew how difficult it was for me to go, go, go all the time. It's difficult to expect those who love me to understand when I've told them over and over things like, "it sounds a lot worse than it is" or "I can do anything anybody else can." The truth is, I want to believe those things myself - I guess it's a form of denial. But when it comes down to it, I really CAN'T do everything that everybody else can do.

So those are my confessions - for now anyway <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-tongue.gif" border="0">

 

[Wheezie]

Ugh...I have a few things in common with previous posters: MAJOR sweet tooth (is this a CF thing? I'm starting to wonder), hate, hate HATE cleaning (my house is a pig sty), really weak with the exercise, and have a bit of a druggie past, lol

None of those things concern me very much though. My biggest issue with myself these days is overextending. I make too many commitments and feel so many obligations (particularly to friends and family) that I wear myself out way more than is healthy. Since joining this site, I've become 100% compliant with my meds, nebs, etc., but this makes it even HARDER to fulfill all of my commitments outside of CF. Before, if I needed that extra half hour of sleep, I'd just skip a treatment.

The other thing I do that I shouldn't is play down the severity of my CF. Perhaps people wouldn't ask so much of me if they actually knew how difficult it was for me to go, go, go all the time. It's difficult to expect those who love me to understand when I've told them over and over things like, "it sounds a lot worse than it is" or "I can do anything anybody else can." The truth is, I want to believe those things myself - I guess it's a form of denial. But when it comes down to it, I really CAN'T do everything that everybody else can do.

So those are my confessions - for now anyway <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-tongue.gif" border="0">

 

[Wheezie]

Ugh...I have a few things in common with previous posters: MAJOR sweet tooth (is this a CF thing? I'm starting to wonder), hate, hate HATE cleaning (my house is a pig sty), really weak with the exercise, and have a bit of a druggie past, lol

None of those things concern me very much though. My biggest issue with myself these days is overextending. I make too many commitments and feel so many obligations (particularly to friends and family) that I wear myself out way more than is healthy. Since joining this site, I've become 100% compliant with my meds, nebs, etc., but this makes it even HARDER to fulfill all of my commitments outside of CF. Before, if I needed that extra half hour of sleep, I'd just skip a treatment.

The other thing I do that I shouldn't is play down the severity of my CF. Perhaps people wouldn't ask so much of me if they actually knew how difficult it was for me to go, go, go all the time. It's difficult to expect those who love me to understand when I've told them over and over things like, "it sounds a lot worse than it is" or "I can do anything anybody else can." The truth is, I want to believe those things myself - I guess it's a form of denial. But when it comes down to it, I really CAN'T do everything that everybody else can do.

So those are my confessions - for now anyway <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-tongue.gif" border="0">

 

[Wheezie]

Ugh...I have a few things in common with previous posters: MAJOR sweet tooth (is this a CF thing? I'm starting to wonder), hate, hate HATE cleaning (my house is a pig sty), really weak with the exercise, and have a bit of a druggie past, lol

None of those things concern me very much though. My biggest issue with myself these days is overextending. I make too many commitments and feel so many obligations (particularly to friends and family) that I wear myself out way more than is healthy. Since joining this site, I've become 100% compliant with my meds, nebs, etc., but this makes it even HARDER to fulfill all of my commitments outside of CF. Before, if I needed that extra half hour of sleep, I'd just skip a treatment.

The other thing I do that I shouldn't is play down the severity of my CF. Perhaps people wouldn't ask so much of me if they actually knew how difficult it was for me to go, go, go all the time. It's difficult to expect those who love me to understand when I've told them over and over things like, "it sounds a lot worse than it is" or "I can do anything anybody else can." The truth is, I want to believe those things myself - I guess it's a form of denial. But when it comes down to it, I really CAN'T do everything that everybody else can do.

So those are my confessions - for now anyway <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-tongue.gif" border="0">

 

[Wheezie]

Ugh...I have a few things in common with previous posters: MAJOR sweet tooth (is this a CF thing? I'm starting to wonder), hate, hate HATE cleaning (my house is a pig sty), really weak with the exercise, and have a bit of a druggie past, lol

None of those things concern me very much though. My biggest issue with myself these days is overextending. I make too many commitments and feel so many obligations (particularly to friends and family) that I wear myself out way more than is healthy. Since joining this site, I've become 100% compliant with my meds, nebs, etc., but this makes it even HARDER to fulfill all of my commitments outside of CF. Before, if I needed that extra half hour of sleep, I'd just skip a treatment.

The other thing I do that I shouldn't is play down the severity of my CF. Perhaps people wouldn't ask so much of me if they actually knew how difficult it was for me to go, go, go all the time. It's difficult to expect those who love me to understand when I've told them over and over things like, "it sounds a lot worse than it is" or "I can do anything anybody else can." The truth is, I want to believe those things myself - I guess it's a form of denial. But when it comes down to it, I really CAN'T do everything that everybody else can do.

So those are my confessions - for now anyway <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-tongue.gif" border="0">

 

[kswitch]

anyone who's read my blog has an idea what i'm into, but for those that don't, here goes.

i dance with mary jane regularly. not constantly, but regularly.

i enjoy psychedelics and partake every chance i get. which lately isn't very often because i've been focused on school and moving. but my love for hallucinogenics will never fade.

as for stims, i've had had several long and arduous bouts with much of this family. while i may indulge a few times annually, i tend to steer clear of the powdered form of these anymore. coffee and energy drinks are, however, a staple.

not much into downers, but from time to time, a painkiller or three chases the fatigue from a night of dancing.

compliance wise, i don't exercise properly, and i don't have access to inhaled abx, but i take my supplements and enzymes accordingly. and i do hs and cpt twice a day most days.

 

[kswitch]

anyone who's read my blog has an idea what i'm into, but for those that don't, here goes.

i dance with mary jane regularly. not constantly, but regularly.

i enjoy psychedelics and partake every chance i get. which lately isn't very often because i've been focused on school and moving. but my love for hallucinogenics will never fade.

as for stims, i've had had several long and arduous bouts with much of this family. while i may indulge a few times annually, i tend to steer clear of the powdered form of these anymore. coffee and energy drinks are, however, a staple.

not much into downers, but from time to time, a painkiller or three chases the fatigue from a night of dancing.

compliance wise, i don't exercise properly, and i don't have access to inhaled abx, but i take my supplements and enzymes accordingly. and i do hs and cpt twice a day most days.

 

[kswitch]

anyone who's read my blog has an idea what i'm into, but for those that don't, here goes.

i dance with mary jane regularly. not constantly, but regularly.

i enjoy psychedelics and partake every chance i get. which lately isn't very often because i've been focused on school and moving. but my love for hallucinogenics will never fade.

as for stims, i've had had several long and arduous bouts with much of this family. while i may indulge a few times annually, i tend to steer clear of the powdered form of these anymore. coffee and energy drinks are, however, a staple.

not much into downers, but from time to time, a painkiller or three chases the fatigue from a night of dancing.

compliance wise, i don't exercise properly, and i don't have access to inhaled abx, but i take my supplements and enzymes accordingly. and i do hs and cpt twice a day most days.

 

[kswitch]

anyone who's read my blog has an idea what i'm into, but for those that don't, here goes.

i dance with mary jane regularly. not constantly, but regularly.

i enjoy psychedelics and partake every chance i get. which lately isn't very often because i've been focused on school and moving. but my love for hallucinogenics will never fade.

as for stims, i've had had several long and arduous bouts with much of this family. while i may indulge a few times annually, i tend to steer clear of the powdered form of these anymore. coffee and energy drinks are, however, a staple.

not much into downers, but from time to time, a painkiller or three chases the fatigue from a night of dancing.

compliance wise, i don't exercise properly, and i don't have access to inhaled abx, but i take my supplements and enzymes accordingly. and i do hs and cpt twice a day most days.

 

[kswitch]

anyone who's read my blog has an idea what i'm into, but for those that don't, here goes.

i dance with mary jane regularly. not constantly, but regularly.

i enjoy psychedelics and partake every chance i get. which lately isn't very often because i've been focused on school and moving. but my love for hallucinogenics will never fade.

as for stims, i've had had several long and arduous bouts with much of this family. while i may indulge a few times annually, i tend to steer clear of the powdered form of these anymore. coffee and energy drinks are, however, a staple.

not much into downers, but from time to time, a painkiller or three chases the fatigue from a night of dancing.

compliance wise, i don't exercise properly, and i don't have access to inhaled abx, but i take my supplements and enzymes accordingly. and i do hs and cpt twice a day most days.

 

[Diane]

hmmmmm, let's see. How far back shall we go?
Well i can see Kiels point of view very clearly since i dont have the cleanest past myself. I used to drink a lot as a teenager, i also dabbled in pills. Mind you i was healthy with no lungs problems yet. I sang in a band for a while in a nightclub ( yes it was smoky), i remember my doctor telling me i need to quit that one, but it took a while till i did. I never did any type of airway clearance or anything, i just basically lived as though the disease wasnt there. Things are different now and i started using my vest about 5 years ago daily. If i am feeling sick or congested i sometimes do it twice a day. I do however miss some days if i am in a hurry. I always do my inhaled stuff though. I love sweets, always did and prob always will. I definitely indulge in those way more than i should, but<b> i deny myself so many things because of this disease i wont deny myself the pleasure of a treat.</b> I only eat sweets when my blood sugar is low and i do limit how much of it i will eat. Although i am active, i tend to get lazy sometimes. I also procrastinate <b>a lot</b>.

 

[Diane]

hmmmmm, let's see. How far back shall we go?
Well i can see Kiels point of view very clearly since i dont have the cleanest past myself. I used to drink a lot as a teenager, i also dabbled in pills. Mind you i was healthy with no lungs problems yet. I sang in a band for a while in a nightclub ( yes it was smoky), i remember my doctor telling me i need to quit that one, but it took a while till i did. I never did any type of airway clearance or anything, i just basically lived as though the disease wasnt there. Things are different now and i started using my vest about 5 years ago daily. If i am feeling sick or congested i sometimes do it twice a day. I do however miss some days if i am in a hurry. I always do my inhaled stuff though. I love sweets, always did and prob always will. I definitely indulge in those way more than i should, but<b> i deny myself so many things because of this disease i wont deny myself the pleasure of a treat.</b> I only eat sweets when my blood sugar is low and i do limit how much of it i will eat. Although i am active, i tend to get lazy sometimes. I also procrastinate <b>a lot</b>.

 

[Diane]

hmmmmm, let's see. How far back shall we go?
Well i can see Kiels point of view very clearly since i dont have the cleanest past myself. I used to drink a lot as a teenager, i also dabbled in pills. Mind you i was healthy with no lungs problems yet. I sang in a band for a while in a nightclub ( yes it was smoky), i remember my doctor telling me i need to quit that one, but it took a while till i did. I never did any type of airway clearance or anything, i just basically lived as though the disease wasnt there. Things are different now and i started using my vest about 5 years ago daily. If i am feeling sick or congested i sometimes do it twice a day. I do however miss some days if i am in a hurry. I always do my inhaled stuff though. I love sweets, always did and prob always will. I definitely indulge in those way more than i should, but<b> i deny myself so many things because of this disease i wont deny myself the pleasure of a treat.</b> I only eat sweets when my blood sugar is low and i do limit how much of it i will eat. Although i am active, i tend to get lazy sometimes. I also procrastinate <b>a lot</b>.

 

[Diane]

hmmmmm, let's see. How far back shall we go?
Well i can see Kiels point of view very clearly since i dont have the cleanest past myself. I used to drink a lot as a teenager, i also dabbled in pills. Mind you i was healthy with no lungs problems yet. I sang in a band for a while in a nightclub ( yes it was smoky), i remember my doctor telling me i need to quit that one, but it took a while till i did. I never did any type of airway clearance or anything, i just basically lived as though the disease wasnt there. Things are different now and i started using my vest about 5 years ago daily. If i am feeling sick or congested i sometimes do it twice a day. I do however miss some days if i am in a hurry. I always do my inhaled stuff though. I love sweets, always did and prob always will. I definitely indulge in those way more than i should, but<b> i deny myself so many things because of this disease i wont deny myself the pleasure of a treat.</b> I only eat sweets when my blood sugar is low and i do limit how much of it i will eat. Although i am active, i tend to get lazy sometimes. I also procrastinate <b>a lot</b>.

 

[Diane]

hmmmmm, let's see. How far back shall we go?
Well i can see Kiels point of view very clearly since i dont have the cleanest past myself. I used to drink a lot as a teenager, i also dabbled in pills. Mind you i was healthy with no lungs problems yet. I sang in a band for a while in a nightclub ( yes it was smoky), i remember my doctor telling me i need to quit that one, but it took a while till i did. I never did any type of airway clearance or anything, i just basically lived as though the disease wasnt there. Things are different now and i started using my vest about 5 years ago daily. If i am feeling sick or congested i sometimes do it twice a day. I do however miss some days if i am in a hurry. I always do my inhaled stuff though. I love sweets, always did and prob always will. I definitely indulge in those way more than i should, but<b> i deny myself so many things because of this disease i wont deny myself the pleasure of a treat.</b> I only eat sweets when my blood sugar is low and i do limit how much of it i will eat. Although i am active, i tend to get lazy sometimes. I also procrastinate <b>a lot</b>.

 

[wanderlost]

<div class="FTQUOTE"><begin quote><i>Originally posted by: <b>Faust</b></i>

So wanderlost...You are trying to tell us that you can't stop yourself from serial killing countless transient hitch hiking hookers? Do tell...Do tell <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">





/demands to open her cars trunk</end quote></div>

no, no, I haven't done that - lately.

I was more Kiel's style...but I must say, aside from some meager dabbling in 10th grade I have never smoked cigarettes. Good thing, too, seeing as all the trouble I got myself with the other stuff.

 

[wanderlost]

<div class="FTQUOTE"><begin quote><i>Originally posted by: <b>Faust</b></i>

So wanderlost...You are trying to tell us that you can't stop yourself from serial killing countless transient hitch hiking hookers? Do tell...Do tell <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">





/demands to open her cars trunk</end quote></div>

no, no, I haven't done that - lately.

I was more Kiel's style...but I must say, aside from some meager dabbling in 10th grade I have never smoked cigarettes. Good thing, too, seeing as all the trouble I got myself with the other stuff.

 

[wanderlost]

<div class="FTQUOTE"><begin quote><i>Originally posted by: <b>Faust</b></i>

So wanderlost...You are trying to tell us that you can't stop yourself from serial killing countless transient hitch hiking hookers? Do tell...Do tell <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">





/demands to open her cars trunk</end quote></div>

no, no, I haven't done that - lately.

I was more Kiel's style...but I must say, aside from some meager dabbling in 10th grade I have never smoked cigarettes. Good thing, too, seeing as all the trouble I got myself with the other stuff.

 

[wanderlost]

<div class="FTQUOTE"><begin quote><i>Originally posted by: <b>Faust</b></i>

So wanderlost...You are trying to tell us that you can't stop yourself from serial killing countless transient hitch hiking hookers? Do tell...Do tell <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">





/demands to open her cars trunk</end quote>

no, no, I haven't done that - lately.

I was more Kiel's style...but I must say, aside from some meager dabbling in 10th grade I have never smoked cigarettes. Good thing, too, seeing as all the trouble I got myself with the other stuff.

 

[wanderlost]

<div class="FTQUOTE"><begin quote><i>Originally posted by: <b>Faust</b></i>

So wanderlost...You are trying to tell us that you can't stop yourself from serial killing countless transient hitch hiking hookers? Do tell...Do tell <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">





/demands to open her cars trunk</end quote>

no, no, I haven't done that - lately.

I was more Kiel's style...but I must say, aside from some meager dabbling in 10th grade I have never smoked cigarettes. Good thing, too, seeing as all the trouble I got myself with the other stuff.