Dying...

[Allie]

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<hr>I miss my husband an enormous amount and I admit I can be freaky about it. (Kept a worn shirt of his that still has his smell to snuggle with.) <hr></blockquote>

I'm so glad to know I'm not the only nut around here. I have clothes of Ry's that I keep sealed away so they keep his scent as long as possible, so when I miss him, I can smell him. I listen to this tape of the fisrt Harry Potter book he made for our daughter too, just to hear his voice.


*is wierd*
edited to add:
Liz, you may just be his last. Ry is mine. I can say that with 99.5% accuracy.

Jenn, I know that we were there to take care of Ry and make sure that he was clean, hydrated, etc. But I'm sure, even if your parents aren't there, there will be someone to take care of you. *hug*

 

[Allie]

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<hr>I miss my husband an enormous amount and I admit I can be freaky about it. (Kept a worn shirt of his that still has his smell to snuggle with.) <hr></blockquote>

I'm so glad to know I'm not the only nut around here. I have clothes of Ry's that I keep sealed away so they keep his scent as long as possible, so when I miss him, I can smell him. I listen to this tape of the fisrt Harry Potter book he made for our daughter too, just to hear his voice.


*is wierd*
edited to add:
Liz, you may just be his last. Ry is mine. I can say that with 99.5% accuracy.

Jenn, I know that we were there to take care of Ry and make sure that he was clean, hydrated, etc. But I'm sure, even if your parents aren't there, there will be someone to take care of you. *hug*

 

[anonymous]

Allie,
browse around widownet.com . There are a whole lot of us freaky weird folks there.
-lisav

 

[anonymous]

Allie,
browse around widownet.com . There are a whole lot of us freaky weird folks there.
-lisav

 

[anonymous]

I've just recently met my soulmate less than a year ago(he has CF, I do not). Since I've met him, his numbers have dropped to the low 20s and he has been put on a transplant list. I am optimistic and cheerful 95% of the time, knowing that everything will be allright, he will get his transplant and feel so much better. But then the other 5% of me is scared that what we have is too good to be true and he will be taken away from me. Stupid 5%!!

 

[anonymous]

I've just recently met my soulmate less than a year ago(he has CF, I do not). Since I've met him, his numbers have dropped to the low 20s and he has been put on a transplant list. I am optimistic and cheerful 95% of the time, knowing that everything will be allright, he will get his transplant and feel so much better. But then the other 5% of me is scared that what we have is too good to be true and he will be taken away from me. Stupid 5%!!

 

[coltsfan715]

<blockquote>Quote<br><hr>This is what bothers me as well about my boyfriend. That I will not be his last, but he will be mine. I know that when I am gone, he will move on, and someone will take my place in the household. That bothers me. I want him to be happy after I'm gone, but a part of me is selfish and doesn't want anyone to come after me, if that makes sense.

Liz <hr></blockquote>

Oh my goodness gracious girl I completely know what you are saying with that. I have told Kurt I want him to be happy, but I don't want to ever be forgotten and deep down its like you don't want someone else to get the love that you aren't there to get. I know *selfish* because then how is he going to get the love he deserves, but it is true you think that way (well I do anyhow). It is my love it should be going to me and if I can't have it no one else can *stomps feet like a toddler* lol. Also you (once again general you --- mainly meaning at the least I feel this way) just always want to believe that you are special enough that no one could ever take your place or that no one would want to replace you. Anyhow point of me replying is to say I totally and completely understand what you mean <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-wink.gif" border="0">.

Lindsey

 

[coltsfan715]

<blockquote>Quote<br><hr>This is what bothers me as well about my boyfriend. That I will not be his last, but he will be mine. I know that when I am gone, he will move on, and someone will take my place in the household. That bothers me. I want him to be happy after I'm gone, but a part of me is selfish and doesn't want anyone to come after me, if that makes sense.

Liz <hr></blockquote>

Oh my goodness gracious girl I completely know what you are saying with that. I have told Kurt I want him to be happy, but I don't want to ever be forgotten and deep down its like you don't want someone else to get the love that you aren't there to get. I know *selfish* because then how is he going to get the love he deserves, but it is true you think that way (well I do anyhow). It is my love it should be going to me and if I can't have it no one else can *stomps feet like a toddler* lol. Also you (once again general you --- mainly meaning at the least I feel this way) just always want to believe that you are special enough that no one could ever take your place or that no one would want to replace you. Anyhow point of me replying is to say I totally and completely understand what you mean <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-wink.gif" border="0">.

Lindsey

 

[thelizardqueen]

Hey Lindsey, my boyfriend and I sometimes joke that I've decided for him, that he will take a vow of celebacy, and that I'll come back as a ghost. Its hard to imagine him moving on eventually and finding someone that may be a bit more perfect then I. The fact that he will grow old with someone else. I want to grow old with him, I want him to experience all the things in life with me, not some other woman. I'll admit it - I'm very selfish on this issue, but I know deep down that I'll be happy for him, if he finds that perfect someone for him when I'm gone. He and I want to start trying for kids soon. Those children just may need a mother figure when I'm gone. Its a hard pill to follow.

 

[thelizardqueen]

Hey Lindsey, my boyfriend and I sometimes joke that I've decided for him, that he will take a vow of celebacy, and that I'll come back as a ghost. Its hard to imagine him moving on eventually and finding someone that may be a bit more perfect then I. The fact that he will grow old with someone else. I want to grow old with him, I want him to experience all the things in life with me, not some other woman. I'll admit it - I'm very selfish on this issue, but I know deep down that I'll be happy for him, if he finds that perfect someone for him when I'm gone. He and I want to start trying for kids soon. Those children just may need a mother figure when I'm gone. Its a hard pill to follow.

 

[JazzysMom]

OH The children. I guess I wouldnt expect my husband to grow old by himself tho I would want him to in some morbid way since I cant be the one to be with him. I, however, dont want a woman taking over as Mom. Stepmother, friend, confidant (that irritates me also tho) etc, but my daughter only has one mother. I guess its more the fact of being forgotten then anything.

 

[JazzysMom]

OH The children. I guess I wouldnt expect my husband to grow old by himself tho I would want him to in some morbid way since I cant be the one to be with him. I, however, dont want a woman taking over as Mom. Stepmother, friend, confidant (that irritates me also tho) etc, but my daughter only has one mother. I guess its more the fact of being forgotten then anything.