Yeah, I always tried to escape my cf side of life too. I think it was very hard on my mom while I was growing up, and she always tried to kinda distance me from cf fundraisers, cf friends, support stuff. She kinda had this, you-don't-need-all-that attitude. I resented it, but now I see she was just scared.
I think it's great to have this support now. Especially as an adult. I wish I had more growing up, some fellow cfers to yell at me to take my pancrease.
I can see too though, how it may be a good idea to take a little break form the forum for you. Talk it over with your doc.
Maybe you're just getting overwhelmed. I know how you feel. It's so weird to change so much so fast. But you have all of us, and hopefully a good cf team to help you.
christian