Okay, where do I start? This site is probably going to me my saving grace for sanity.
First and foremost I just wanted to clarify, I don't think the doctor I see is bad, I don't think that he does not know his stuff, I don't feel he is not doing his job, and I think he may be great for most patients. I like his mannerisms most of the time he doesn't have a terrible bed side manner but he is just not what I need in a physician at this point in my life.
I understand and agree in the pediatric clinic we do what the doctor tells us because that is what we are supposed to do. We are sick, the doctor tells us how to get better (sometimes as children/teenager we are not as compliant as we should be) but for the most part the roles work, the patient either gets better or just doesn't get worse. Life is good, life goes on.
Yes, I want to be more involved in my treatment, I have fixed my non-compliance stupidity (Yes, I admit it, I was Stupid, I know now lets move on). I sometimes expect too much but when I am monitored closely all my life I want to be monitored closely for the rest of my life. If I am paying 125 dollars, plus copays and meds every paycheck just to be able to go see the doctor and ensure coverage for all test, I want more out of my visits than you seem to be doing well keep up the good work and I will see you in 3 months.
The reason I had to practically beg for DNASE was the doctor said your lungs are clear why do you want DNASE (let me see........to keep them that way, my bad) As far as the HTS it has not seem to do much for me, and the price, my insurance does not cover it so it is more expensive to do the saline than the DNASE. Also the only reasen I do the saline is because I wanted to do the DNASE twice a day to try to increase my lung function and the doctor told me no. I said I still wanted to despite his disagreement with me that it may improve my lung function and said if I wanted I could start the saline but that was only because I wanted to do two DNASE treatments.
I also want to thank everyone for their responses. I don't expect, nor do I want everyone who responds to me to totally agree with everything all the time. I am here to find answers to my thoughts, get advice on different ideas to look into, and the occasional maybe you are not 100% thinking rationally and maybe, but not necessarily, you are just reacting and not thinking