HELP...I don't know what else to do...

[JORDYSMOM]

Wow Suzie I am so happy to hear this good news. I know you still feel a little out of the loop, but you did good honey! The kids are very lucky to have you. Now maybe you can concentrate on getting you better. Are you still going to counseling? Like I said before, if you just need to vent, PM me. <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"><img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

Stacey

 

[JORDYSMOM]

Wow Suzie I am so happy to hear this good news. I know you still feel a little out of the loop, but you did good honey! The kids are very lucky to have you. Now maybe you can concentrate on getting you better. Are you still going to counseling? Like I said before, if you just need to vent, PM me. <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"><img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

Stacey

 

[JORDYSMOM]

Wow Suzie I am so happy to hear this good news. I know you still feel a little out of the loop, but you did good honey! The kids are very lucky to have you. Now maybe you can concentrate on getting you better. Are you still going to counseling? Like I said before, if you just need to vent, PM me. <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"><img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

Stacey

 

[JORDYSMOM]

Wow Suzie I am so happy to hear this good news. I know you still feel a little out of the loop, but you did good honey! The kids are very lucky to have you. Now maybe you can concentrate on getting you better. Are you still going to counseling? Like I said before, if you just need to vent, PM me. <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"><img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

Stacey

 

[suziecoffeebean]

Thanks. I am drained. And yes I had my first counseling session on tuesday. It's weird to have a totally different view on something. Weird. I had a block in my head preventing me from thinking of my mom in a certain light maybe it was cause I didn't want to. But everything is different now. I can't wait til the kids are old enough to just get the hell out of there and come live with me. I ought to have my crap together by then...

 

[suziecoffeebean]

Thanks. I am drained. And yes I had my first counseling session on tuesday. It's weird to have a totally different view on something. Weird. I had a block in my head preventing me from thinking of my mom in a certain light maybe it was cause I didn't want to. But everything is different now. I can't wait til the kids are old enough to just get the hell out of there and come live with me. I ought to have my crap together by then...

 

[suziecoffeebean]

Thanks. I am drained. And yes I had my first counseling session on tuesday. It's weird to have a totally different view on something. Weird. I had a block in my head preventing me from thinking of my mom in a certain light maybe it was cause I didn't want to. But everything is different now. I can't wait til the kids are old enough to just get the hell out of there and come live with me. I ought to have my crap together by then...

 

[suziecoffeebean]

Thanks. I am drained. And yes I had my first counseling session on tuesday. It's weird to have a totally different view on something. Weird. I had a block in my head preventing me from thinking of my mom in a certain light maybe it was cause I didn't want to. But everything is different now. I can't wait til the kids are old enough to just get the hell out of there and come live with me. I ought to have my crap together by then...

 

[suziecoffeebean]

Thanks. I am drained. And yes I had my first counseling session on tuesday. It's weird to have a totally different view on something. Weird. I had a block in my head preventing me from thinking of my mom in a certain light maybe it was cause I didn't want to. But everything is different now. I can't wait til the kids are old enough to just get the hell out of there and come live with me. I ought to have my crap together by then...

 

[suziecoffeebean]

Thanks. I am drained. And yes I had my first counseling session on tuesday. It's weird to have a totally different view on something. Weird. I had a block in my head preventing me from thinking of my mom in a certain light maybe it was cause I didn't want to. But everything is different now. I can't wait til the kids are old enough to just get the hell out of there and come live with me. I ought to have my crap together by then...

 

[JustDucky]

I have been following this thread...you are an angel for sure!! Those kids are so lucky to have you as a sister. Now they will finally get the treatment that they haven't gotten for so long. Many hugs to you, Jenn <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

 

[JustDucky]

I have been following this thread...you are an angel for sure!! Those kids are so lucky to have you as a sister. Now they will finally get the treatment that they haven't gotten for so long. Many hugs to you, Jenn <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

 

[JustDucky]

I have been following this thread...you are an angel for sure!! Those kids are so lucky to have you as a sister. Now they will finally get the treatment that they haven't gotten for so long. Many hugs to you, Jenn <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

 

[JustDucky]

I have been following this thread...you are an angel for sure!! Those kids are so lucky to have you as a sister. Now they will finally get the treatment that they haven't gotten for so long. Many hugs to you, Jenn <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

 

[JustDucky]

I have been following this thread...you are an angel for sure!! Those kids are so lucky to have you as a sister. Now they will finally get the treatment that they haven't gotten for so long. Many hugs to you, Jenn <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

 

[JustDucky]

I have been following this thread...you are an angel for sure!! Those kids are so lucky to have you as a sister. Now they will finally get the treatment that they haven't gotten for so long. Many hugs to you, Jenn <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

 

[suziecoffeebean]

So I am like fuming right now and I kind of feel really bad because I kind of yelled at my sister on the phone and she started crying. But I wasn't yelling because I was mad at her I yelled because I am mad at mom. Maybe I should have kept it to myself but it is so hard when all I hear is her telling them lies and bad things about me. And not letting the kids have their own feelings about it. Lauren was telling mom that she wished none of this would have ever happened so she could talk to me still and so I could still come around and told mom that she feels extremely depressed on a daily basis now. I guess mom yelled at her when she told her this and said that she doesn't feel sorry for her because she feels terrible every day now living with the fact that she has a daughter who hates her(referring to me). I mean how much more self centered could you be. You kid is just coming to grips with the fact that she has this life threatening disease and is opening up to you and letting you know how she feels and you counter with how bad you are feeling about someone bringing it to your attention and the authorities attention that she wasn't taking care of them and whatever. So I told her that she needed to stand up to mom when she does this ***** and tell her I don't feel sorry for you or that I feel just as bad if not worse than you and tell her why. She won't stand up to mom and she said it's cause she is scared of getting yelled at so I told her that mom yells at them no matter what always has she might as well start saying what she thinks. I mean I know this has to be hard for them but it just made me so mad that this was her reaction to Lauren saying she has been depressed. When I said all this to Lauren I could feel my blood pressure rising and my tone of voice getting louder then I heard her start to cry then I asked what was wrong and she told me how depressed she has been and then I started crying and yeah. I am just really depressed and I am just depressed. thats all I can say. I wish I could take this all away for them. *SIGH*

But the good news is they have their first appointment at the clinic tomorrow. Can't wait to hear how that goes. Oh yeah and I had to email my mom and let her know that she isn't going to get an apology from me. She keeps telling the kids that she won't apologize until I do. But I don't have anything to be sorry for. I didn't do anything wrong. PLUS I don't want an apology the kids deserve one though...Grrrr. Just really needed to vent been off and on the verge of tears since I got off the phone with Lauren...

 

[suziecoffeebean]

So I am like fuming right now and I kind of feel really bad because I kind of yelled at my sister on the phone and she started crying. But I wasn't yelling because I was mad at her I yelled because I am mad at mom. Maybe I should have kept it to myself but it is so hard when all I hear is her telling them lies and bad things about me. And not letting the kids have their own feelings about it. Lauren was telling mom that she wished none of this would have ever happened so she could talk to me still and so I could still come around and told mom that she feels extremely depressed on a daily basis now. I guess mom yelled at her when she told her this and said that she doesn't feel sorry for her because she feels terrible every day now living with the fact that she has a daughter who hates her(referring to me). I mean how much more self centered could you be. You kid is just coming to grips with the fact that she has this life threatening disease and is opening up to you and letting you know how she feels and you counter with how bad you are feeling about someone bringing it to your attention and the authorities attention that she wasn't taking care of them and whatever. So I told her that she needed to stand up to mom when she does this ***** and tell her I don't feel sorry for you or that I feel just as bad if not worse than you and tell her why. She won't stand up to mom and she said it's cause she is scared of getting yelled at so I told her that mom yells at them no matter what always has she might as well start saying what she thinks. I mean I know this has to be hard for them but it just made me so mad that this was her reaction to Lauren saying she has been depressed. When I said all this to Lauren I could feel my blood pressure rising and my tone of voice getting louder then I heard her start to cry then I asked what was wrong and she told me how depressed she has been and then I started crying and yeah. I am just really depressed and I am just depressed. thats all I can say. I wish I could take this all away for them. *SIGH*

But the good news is they have their first appointment at the clinic tomorrow. Can't wait to hear how that goes. Oh yeah and I had to email my mom and let her know that she isn't going to get an apology from me. She keeps telling the kids that she won't apologize until I do. But I don't have anything to be sorry for. I didn't do anything wrong. PLUS I don't want an apology the kids deserve one though...Grrrr. Just really needed to vent been off and on the verge of tears since I got off the phone with Lauren...

 

[suziecoffeebean]

So I am like fuming right now and I kind of feel really bad because I kind of yelled at my sister on the phone and she started crying. But I wasn't yelling because I was mad at her I yelled because I am mad at mom. Maybe I should have kept it to myself but it is so hard when all I hear is her telling them lies and bad things about me. And not letting the kids have their own feelings about it. Lauren was telling mom that she wished none of this would have ever happened so she could talk to me still and so I could still come around and told mom that she feels extremely depressed on a daily basis now. I guess mom yelled at her when she told her this and said that she doesn't feel sorry for her because she feels terrible every day now living with the fact that she has a daughter who hates her(referring to me). I mean how much more self centered could you be. You kid is just coming to grips with the fact that she has this life threatening disease and is opening up to you and letting you know how she feels and you counter with how bad you are feeling about someone bringing it to your attention and the authorities attention that she wasn't taking care of them and whatever. So I told her that she needed to stand up to mom when she does this ***** and tell her I don't feel sorry for you or that I feel just as bad if not worse than you and tell her why. She won't stand up to mom and she said it's cause she is scared of getting yelled at so I told her that mom yells at them no matter what always has she might as well start saying what she thinks. I mean I know this has to be hard for them but it just made me so mad that this was her reaction to Lauren saying she has been depressed. When I said all this to Lauren I could feel my blood pressure rising and my tone of voice getting louder then I heard her start to cry then I asked what was wrong and she told me how depressed she has been and then I started crying and yeah. I am just really depressed and I am just depressed. thats all I can say. I wish I could take this all away for them. *SIGH*

But the good news is they have their first appointment at the clinic tomorrow. Can't wait to hear how that goes. Oh yeah and I had to email my mom and let her know that she isn't going to get an apology from me. She keeps telling the kids that she won't apologize until I do. But I don't have anything to be sorry for. I didn't do anything wrong. PLUS I don't want an apology the kids deserve one though...Grrrr. Just really needed to vent been off and on the verge of tears since I got off the phone with Lauren...

 

[suziecoffeebean]

So I am like fuming right now and I kind of feel really bad because I kind of yelled at my sister on the phone and she started crying. But I wasn't yelling because I was mad at her I yelled because I am mad at mom. Maybe I should have kept it to myself but it is so hard when all I hear is her telling them lies and bad things about me. And not letting the kids have their own feelings about it. Lauren was telling mom that she wished none of this would have ever happened so she could talk to me still and so I could still come around and told mom that she feels extremely depressed on a daily basis now. I guess mom yelled at her when she told her this and said that she doesn't feel sorry for her because she feels terrible every day now living with the fact that she has a daughter who hates her(referring to me). I mean how much more self centered could you be. You kid is just coming to grips with the fact that she has this life threatening disease and is opening up to you and letting you know how she feels and you counter with how bad you are feeling about someone bringing it to your attention and the authorities attention that she wasn't taking care of them and whatever. So I told her that she needed to stand up to mom when she does this ***** and tell her I don't feel sorry for you or that I feel just as bad if not worse than you and tell her why. She won't stand up to mom and she said it's cause she is scared of getting yelled at so I told her that mom yells at them no matter what always has she might as well start saying what she thinks. I mean I know this has to be hard for them but it just made me so mad that this was her reaction to Lauren saying she has been depressed. When I said all this to Lauren I could feel my blood pressure rising and my tone of voice getting louder then I heard her start to cry then I asked what was wrong and she told me how depressed she has been and then I started crying and yeah. I am just really depressed and I am just depressed. thats all I can say. I wish I could take this all away for them. *SIGH*

But the good news is they have their first appointment at the clinic tomorrow. Can't wait to hear how that goes. Oh yeah and I had to email my mom and let her know that she isn't going to get an apology from me. She keeps telling the kids that she won't apologize until I do. But I don't have anything to be sorry for. I didn't do anything wrong. PLUS I don't want an apology the kids deserve one though...Grrrr. Just really needed to vent been off and on the verge of tears since I got off the phone with Lauren...