Well, they say if something makes some people feel one way and other people the exact opposite, it must be doing something right. A few weeks ago I was telling someone at work that I needed to stop participating in this forum because I couldn't stand how "happy" and "positive" everyone is, talking about CF as a "gift" and acting as if it's no big deal. Personally, if my CF is a gift, I want to return it for a full refund!! So, I took a few weeks break from reading the posts, and now that I've started reading again I find that several readers think people are too negative. I think it just goes to show us that the forum is a perfect place for everyone to express ALL of their feelings, both positive and negative. I've lived a very long life with CF, and I've had my great days and my dark days. This is the hand I've been dealt, and I'm doing the best I can to take care of myself and lead a fabulous life. I want to read and talk about it all - the joys, the fears, being sick, finding new treatments, living and dying. If I don't want to read about a topic, I can just scroll down the page. I just celebrated my 54th birthday, and the best I can figure is that my longevity is due to a mixture of care, caution, determination, and luck.