I feel like that to sometimes from having CF...I take medication for being depressed. I'm sure there is alot of people in your life that love and care about you and would be greatful to know that you came to them for help just so they know what you were thinking, even if its just thoughts. It's important to try your best to do your therapies and keep up with them, but I know its hard. Medication is there for extra help...everyone needs medication for something, its never a bad thing that's why its there - utilize it if needed. Maybe even just talking to a therapist would help - or just your family. You'll make the right decision!!!