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2DIE4Corey

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I really love being with my family.
<br />I just have problems with people who always say: this hurts and that hurts... and in the end you know that those ppl are totally well. Cant handle that ppl. Ppl always tell me, that I am that strong and dont complain about my illness. I mean what do ppl think? I have had to deal with it since 25 years. It doesnt change anything to complain the whole time and let the whole world know, that I am sick.
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<br />I handle my situtation as good as I can, I try dont miss anything in life, doin what I want, seein concerts, festivals and stuff. It sounds that good, but believe me guys, I have my depressive phases as well. Thinkin, nothin has a sense and why I am here. I used to cut my arms with knifes and drinkin much alcohol to control myself...some time ago.
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<br />Regarding being dark...
<br />I am listening to everything I like. From Rock to Metal. (especially for MAMERTH<img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0"> I have had a freaky side my whole life. Tried any style which was possible to be different than others (From goth, to skater, I was everything)... being dark is good in some ways. Life cant be PINK the whole time. I also have my troubles with funny music or Pop.
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<br />I mean, I changed my style to ("normal" whatever that means), but in my heart there will always be a more dark part, than a happy part.
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<br />TO ALL HERE:
<br />Try to enjoy life as much as possible, do what you want,...
<br />and think: IT COULD BE WORSE!!!
<br />(sounds stupid, but think about it)
 
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justdance

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Hi,

This is an interesting topic. I would say I'm a mostly optimistic person. I come across happy and bubbly. But every so often I think I shock people by coming out with a view that seems so different from the norm. Like when I hear people say something mind-numbingly stupid like such-and-such is the worst thing that could happen and I respond with well, no it isn't because you could be diagnosed with cancer, given a month to live and then things would jump into perspective.

Look, having CF sucks. I know everyone has a different story and maybe I don't have to experience everything all of you have to. But then I did have to go through the pain (mentally and physically) of scoliosis. We all have sh*t to deal with. Who am I to look at my non-cf friends and think life is rosy for them? One of my closest friends from college was diagnosed with leukaemia two years ago and has been through more in that short time than I have with 26 years of cf. Sure she has gained perspective on life and I pray she'll come out of this with that persepctive and a bill of health. But we've talked about it and you can't blame people without health issues for not understanding. Cos at the end of the day you don't understand everything they have to live with.

As for happy people- be grateful they exist. Because I'm telling you the world would be a crappy place to live if they didn't.
 
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justdance

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Hi,

This is an interesting topic. I would say I'm a mostly optimistic person. I come across happy and bubbly. But every so often I think I shock people by coming out with a view that seems so different from the norm. Like when I hear people say something mind-numbingly stupid like such-and-such is the worst thing that could happen and I respond with well, no it isn't because you could be diagnosed with cancer, given a month to live and then things would jump into perspective.

Look, having CF sucks. I know everyone has a different story and maybe I don't have to experience everything all of you have to. But then I did have to go through the pain (mentally and physically) of scoliosis. We all have sh*t to deal with. Who am I to look at my non-cf friends and think life is rosy for them? One of my closest friends from college was diagnosed with leukaemia two years ago and has been through more in that short time than I have with 26 years of cf. Sure she has gained perspective on life and I pray she'll come out of this with that persepctive and a bill of health. But we've talked about it and you can't blame people without health issues for not understanding. Cos at the end of the day you don't understand everything they have to live with.

As for happy people- be grateful they exist. Because I'm telling you the world would be a crappy place to live if they didn't.
 
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justdance

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Hi,
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<br />This is an interesting topic. I would say I'm a mostly optimistic person. I come across happy and bubbly. But every so often I think I shock people by coming out with a view that seems so different from the norm. Like when I hear people say something mind-numbingly stupid like such-and-such is the worst thing that could happen and I respond with well, no it isn't because you could be diagnosed with cancer, given a month to live and then things would jump into perspective.
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<br />Look, having CF sucks. I know everyone has a different story and maybe I don't have to experience everything all of you have to. But then I did have to go through the pain (mentally and physically) of scoliosis. We all have sh*t to deal with. Who am I to look at my non-cf friends and think life is rosy for them? One of my closest friends from college was diagnosed with leukaemia two years ago and has been through more in that short time than I have with 26 years of cf. Sure she has gained perspective on life and I pray she'll come out of this with that persepctive and a bill of health. But we've talked about it and you can't blame people without health issues for not understanding. Cos at the end of the day you don't understand everything they have to live with.
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<br />As for happy people- be grateful they exist. Because I'm telling you the world would be a crappy place to live if they didn't.
 
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2DIE4Corey

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@justdance:

yeah u r definitely right, that ppl without a health-problem cant understand us and the other way round. thats perfeclty right. Didnt want to blame them for it. :)
 
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2DIE4Corey

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@justdance:

yeah u r definitely right, that ppl without a health-problem cant understand us and the other way round. thats perfeclty right. Didnt want to blame them for it. :)
 
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2DIE4Corey

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@justdance:
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<br />yeah u r definitely right, that ppl without a health-problem cant understand us and the other way round. thats perfeclty right. Didnt want to blame them for it. :)
 
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rubyroselee

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This is an interesting topic. I guess you could say that I'm a bubbly, completely optimistic person. I tend to have a lot of empathy for people. However, I do get annoyed by people fairly easily, particularly those that complain a lot. But I would not say I'm "cold" at all.
 
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rubyroselee

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This is an interesting topic. I guess you could say that I'm a bubbly, completely optimistic person. I tend to have a lot of empathy for people. However, I do get annoyed by people fairly easily, particularly those that complain a lot. But I would not say I'm "cold" at all.
 
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rubyroselee

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This is an interesting topic. I guess you could say that I'm a bubbly, completely optimistic person. I tend to have a lot of empathy for people. However, I do get annoyed by people fairly easily, particularly those that complain a lot. But I would not say I'm "cold" at all.
 
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Twistofchaos

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Interesting topic and to see such familiar feelings and experiences.

I'd say I'm a pretty warm caring "nice" person but always found it extremely hard to relate to people unless they face or faced significant trouble (in my view) of whatever nature, or to find people that can relate to me. Like most here I got disappointed and let down a lot and that has made me cold, closed/distant and very angry.

I think I even play the angry card on purpose because it saves me a lot of energy and acts like a social/idiot filter.

I'm well in touch with my dark and angry sides, think I must be like a vent not to lose it completely. Infact dark stuff (music, art, anything) can lift me up, make me more open and yes happy. I think it's because I find a comfort and understanding there and a certain directness/honesty so inside I don't have to be so dark. That in contrast with happy stuff and a lot of seemingly-happy people that tend to suppress a lot of stuff and often can be genuinely evil inside when you wouldn't expect it.

I think we all get a lot of hard life lessons in a short timespan, some that many people never seem to get somehow. There doesn't seem to be much room for setbacks or people that face setbacks in other people's lives at this point, there's some sort of illusion of control and "creatability" of life now with increased wealth and technology, so if you face setbacks that's simply your own problem or fault or something.

Anyway I believe it has made me very strong mentally and I appreciate things in life often missed by others and that's something I would not easily want to trade. I struggle a lot, get depressed but at this point I realise life is weird enough to just keep me wondering about it and keep on going, because yeah...why not. <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

I've always found (romantic) love very difficult as well. Really hard to trust and be open, kinda want some reassurance they won't walk away but how do you know when you don't lay things out in the first place. Infact I had sworn off love now completely for the last 10 years nearly after my last disappointment. ..had because at the moment love has hit me square in the face..but we'll see.
 
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Twistofchaos

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Interesting topic and to see such familiar feelings and experiences.

I'd say I'm a pretty warm caring "nice" person but always found it extremely hard to relate to people unless they face or faced significant trouble (in my view) of whatever nature, or to find people that can relate to me. Like most here I got disappointed and let down a lot and that has made me cold, closed/distant and very angry.

I think I even play the angry card on purpose because it saves me a lot of energy and acts like a social/idiot filter.

I'm well in touch with my dark and angry sides, think I must be like a vent not to lose it completely. Infact dark stuff (music, art, anything) can lift me up, make me more open and yes happy. I think it's because I find a comfort and understanding there and a certain directness/honesty so inside I don't have to be so dark. That in contrast with happy stuff and a lot of seemingly-happy people that tend to suppress a lot of stuff and often can be genuinely evil inside when you wouldn't expect it.

I think we all get a lot of hard life lessons in a short timespan, some that many people never seem to get somehow. There doesn't seem to be much room for setbacks or people that face setbacks in other people's lives at this point, there's some sort of illusion of control and "creatability" of life now with increased wealth and technology, so if you face setbacks that's simply your own problem or fault or something.

Anyway I believe it has made me very strong mentally and I appreciate things in life often missed by others and that's something I would not easily want to trade. I struggle a lot, get depressed but at this point I realise life is weird enough to just keep me wondering about it and keep on going, because yeah...why not. <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">

I've always found (romantic) love very difficult as well. Really hard to trust and be open, kinda want some reassurance they won't walk away but how do you know when you don't lay things out in the first place. Infact I had sworn off love now completely for the last 10 years nearly after my last disappointment. ..had because at the moment love has hit me square in the face..but we'll see.
 
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Twistofchaos

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Interesting topic and to see such familiar feelings and experiences.
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<br />I'd say I'm a pretty warm caring "nice" person but always found it extremely hard to relate to people unless they face or faced significant trouble (in my view) of whatever nature, or to find people that can relate to me. Like most here I got disappointed and let down a lot and that has made me cold, closed/distant and very angry.
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<br />I think I even play the angry card on purpose because it saves me a lot of energy and acts like a social/idiot filter.
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<br />I'm well in touch with my dark and angry sides, think I must be like a vent not to lose it completely. Infact dark stuff (music, art, anything) can lift me up, make me more open and yes happy. I think it's because I find a comfort and understanding there and a certain directness/honesty so inside I don't have to be so dark. That in contrast with happy stuff and a lot of seemingly-happy people that tend to suppress a lot of stuff and often can be genuinely evil inside when you wouldn't expect it.
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<br />I think we all get a lot of hard life lessons in a short timespan, some that many people never seem to get somehow. There doesn't seem to be much room for setbacks or people that face setbacks in other people's lives at this point, there's some sort of illusion of control and "creatability" of life now with increased wealth and technology, so if you face setbacks that's simply your own problem or fault or something.
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<br />Anyway I believe it has made me very strong mentally and I appreciate things in life often missed by others and that's something I would not easily want to trade. I struggle a lot, get depressed but at this point I realise life is weird enough to just keep me wondering about it and keep on going, because yeah...why not. <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0">
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<br />I've always found (romantic) love very difficult as well. Really hard to trust and be open, kinda want some reassurance they won't walk away but how do you know when you don't lay things out in the first place. Infact I had sworn off love now completely for the last 10 years nearly after my last disappointment. ..had because at the moment love has hit me square in the face..but we'll see.
 
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2DIE4Corey

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...@TwistOfChaos:
I do soo agree with ya. Your text is like, if I would have said that. <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-wink.gif" border="0">

especially the thing with the love, touched me really deep.
u said, u were disappointed that bad, I understand you that good when u say, u dont want to fall in love again. I just got the luck with my past, that I didnt have to talk about my disease and stuff...but disappointed anyway, cause I thought this person would be the right and could handle my sickness-stuff. BUT NOOO...
 
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2DIE4Corey

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...@TwistOfChaos:
I do soo agree with ya. Your text is like, if I would have said that. <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-wink.gif" border="0">

especially the thing with the love, touched me really deep.
u said, u were disappointed that bad, I understand you that good when u say, u dont want to fall in love again. I just got the luck with my past, that I didnt have to talk about my disease and stuff...but disappointed anyway, cause I thought this person would be the right and could handle my sickness-stuff. BUT NOOO...
 
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2DIE4Corey

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...@TwistOfChaos:
<br />I do soo agree with ya. Your text is like, if I would have said that. <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-wink.gif" border="0">
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<br />especially the thing with the love, touched me really deep.
<br />u said, u were disappointed that bad, I understand you that good when u say, u dont want to fall in love again. I just got the luck with my past, that I didnt have to talk about my disease and stuff...but disappointed anyway, cause I thought this person would be the right and could handle my sickness-stuff. BUT NOOO...
 
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LouLou

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I'm very upbeat and happy person in general. I tend to be very empathetic and as I get older focus more on friends difficulties/challenges than topical topics. Delving in makes me feel closer to people and I feel with my own challenges I have an understanding perhaps most don't have. I don't have any problem with people who say this or that hurts. No doubt about it- pain sucks and I'm so glad I don't hurt. I don't like to associate with people who are mostly negative by nature or who complain all the time. I hear all the time how amazed people are how upbeat I am despite all I go through. I have been told since a very young age how I am very blunt and how I "tell it how it is." I guess this goes with my life's too short to beat around the bush philosophy. I have to watch this at times. Also, since I was young cf drs always wanted me to talk to the patient next door to try to instill whatever it was I had. I think a lot of it is just my soul and innate. But I can tell you when I'm out and about I don't feel like I am superior than the common man - we're all in this life together. Struggle is all relative. Counseling may help as may Lexapro which I started in Jan. 2009 for what I thought was depression but was more likely anxiety. For example, I had a hard time just chilling out and chatting with people because I felt like I had things to do or I was taking away from my healthcare. I'd be happy to PM with people who would like to discuss this further.
 
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LouLou

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I'm very upbeat and happy person in general. I tend to be very empathetic and as I get older focus more on friends difficulties/challenges than topical topics. Delving in makes me feel closer to people and I feel with my own challenges I have an understanding perhaps most don't have. I don't have any problem with people who say this or that hurts. No doubt about it- pain sucks and I'm so glad I don't hurt. I don't like to associate with people who are mostly negative by nature or who complain all the time. I hear all the time how amazed people are how upbeat I am despite all I go through. I have been told since a very young age how I am very blunt and how I "tell it how it is." I guess this goes with my life's too short to beat around the bush philosophy. I have to watch this at times. Also, since I was young cf drs always wanted me to talk to the patient next door to try to instill whatever it was I had. I think a lot of it is just my soul and innate. But I can tell you when I'm out and about I don't feel like I am superior than the common man - we're all in this life together. Struggle is all relative. Counseling may help as may Lexapro which I started in Jan. 2009 for what I thought was depression but was more likely anxiety. For example, I had a hard time just chilling out and chatting with people because I felt like I had things to do or I was taking away from my healthcare. I'd be happy to PM with people who would like to discuss this further.
 
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LouLou

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I'm very upbeat and happy person in general. I tend to be very empathetic and as I get older focus more on friends difficulties/challenges than topical topics. Delving in makes me feel closer to people and I feel with my own challenges I have an understanding perhaps most don't have. I don't have any problem with people who say this or that hurts. No doubt about it- pain sucks and I'm so glad I don't hurt. I don't like to associate with people who are mostly negative by nature or who complain all the time. I hear all the time how amazed people are how upbeat I am despite all I go through. I have been told since a very young age how I am very blunt and how I "tell it how it is." I guess this goes with my life's too short to beat around the bush philosophy. I have to watch this at times. Also, since I was young cf drs always wanted me to talk to the patient next door to try to instill whatever it was I had. I think a lot of it is just my soul and innate. But I can tell you when I'm out and about I don't feel like I am superior than the common man - we're all in this life together. Struggle is all relative. Counseling may help as may Lexapro which I started in Jan. 2009 for what I thought was depression but was more likely anxiety. For example, I had a hard time just chilling out and chatting with people because I felt like I had things to do or I was taking away from my healthcare. I'd be happy to PM with people who would like to discuss this further.
 
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Kristen

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I think I definitely come across as a bit on the cold side, but I don't think that has anything to do with CF. I am also blunt and tell-it like it is. I am lucky in that CF really didn't affect me much until I was in my 20s, even thought I knew I had it since I was a baby. (I had to take pills and go to twice-yearly clinic visits, but I was never sick). So, most of my perspective about life is from that of a "normal" person and I try not to get hung up on whose pain is worse than whose.

I mean, I could get annoyed with my mom for complaining about having a headache because I feel like crap right now, and someone on here could get annoyed with me for complaining about having the flu because at least I have good lung function, YNWIM? Everyone has some crap to deal with and deserves some compassion, even if the rest of their life seems great. BUT, I will agree that I think it's rude for someone w/out CF who, say, has allergies, to go up to someone with CF who is waiting for a lung transplant and complain about having trouble breathing. So there is a line that shouldn't be crossed out of sensitivity, if that makes sense.
 
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