Hi Everyone,
I read the cf forums all the time and I've been a member for a long time too - But I rarely post.
I have a lot on my mind and I'm down in the dumps. I'm not feeling up to calling my girl friends. Sometimes I feel like I bring them down and they are sick of hearing me complain about the same things. Being New years day I'll pass on calling them for now.
So my ex and I broke up almost a year ago. We were settled. We had a house together and we seemd like the perfect couple (on the outside). A part of the break up was because of the CF. He had trouble dealing with the CF and it caused him a lot of stress.
So fast forward to today. After months of being single and bored (and depressed too) I tried online dating. I always told the guy upfront "I have CF. If this isn't for you keep walking". And a lot of people walked, some ran. It sucked but I respected it. Then I met the most wonderful man. He was upset when I told him about the CF but he decided to take a chance on me because he knew I was a good catch (which I really am, haha).
We have been together now for almost 2 months. We have had a few normal relationship troubles in the last week which brought up the CF issue. He told he don't know if he can do it.... He don't think he can deal seeing me sick. He don't think he can deal with the financial troubles because I have to take time off work. He's worried I won't be able to help him raise his son (he has a 4 yr old son one week on, one week off). He told me every time I cough it reminds him of all of this. And we all know... we cough a lot!!
So what do I do??? I'm so lost. I'm so frustrated. I'll be 29 next month. I want to settle down. I want to be loved. I'm angry that this disease has so much control over my life when I tend to handle it quite well.
Any advice?
I read the cf forums all the time and I've been a member for a long time too - But I rarely post.
I have a lot on my mind and I'm down in the dumps. I'm not feeling up to calling my girl friends. Sometimes I feel like I bring them down and they are sick of hearing me complain about the same things. Being New years day I'll pass on calling them for now.
So my ex and I broke up almost a year ago. We were settled. We had a house together and we seemd like the perfect couple (on the outside). A part of the break up was because of the CF. He had trouble dealing with the CF and it caused him a lot of stress.
So fast forward to today. After months of being single and bored (and depressed too) I tried online dating. I always told the guy upfront "I have CF. If this isn't for you keep walking". And a lot of people walked, some ran. It sucked but I respected it. Then I met the most wonderful man. He was upset when I told him about the CF but he decided to take a chance on me because he knew I was a good catch (which I really am, haha).
We have been together now for almost 2 months. We have had a few normal relationship troubles in the last week which brought up the CF issue. He told he don't know if he can do it.... He don't think he can deal seeing me sick. He don't think he can deal with the financial troubles because I have to take time off work. He's worried I won't be able to help him raise his son (he has a 4 yr old son one week on, one week off). He told me every time I cough it reminds him of all of this. And we all know... we cough a lot!!
So what do I do??? I'm so lost. I'm so frustrated. I'll be 29 next month. I want to settle down. I want to be loved. I'm angry that this disease has so much control over my life when I tend to handle it quite well.
Any advice?