Totally depressed lately.

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sheanna

New member
With my hospital visit coming up, I just can't seem to get out of this totally bummed out mood.

I've always just considered CF as a part of who I am, but anymore it's all i think about. I think it's because I'm graduating and planning for my future, but I don't know what is wise and what isn't for me. I know my doctor totally supports me being a vet, but I still have this feeling of 'how will I do it?' I'm healthy now, but you never know what bugs you'll pick up along the way.

Then there's the fact of my CFRD...I have been taking 6-7 shots a day, and my A1C is worse by two whole points than when I started insulin! I can't gain weight worth crap (at least I haven't lost, but I'd like to put on like 2 pounds) despite eating CONSTANTLY. My only graduation wish was laser eye surgery, and now I don't even know if I can get that. It's like I'm watching my life slowly fall apart.

Not to mention I'm starting to feel that hardly anybody at my job give half a s*** about my health. I know two people do, but the others are too busy being lazy to notice if I'm coughing to death and need to chill for a minute. I don't think anybody knows what CF is either, except for those two people who cared to ask. For instance, when I told my boss about it, she was like "Oh, okay." and that was that. She didn't ask what it was, how she could accommodate, etc. I just don't know what to do...I don't want to quit - it's my dream job. But there's no reason I need to be sweeping floors, etc etc because I get sick every time. I'm at the point of being bitchy with the people who push me around like that.

I guess I just don't know what I should do. I'm tired of going home and crying all the time because I feel like nobody cares. I never used to be like this, but it happens all the time now. What do you guys do when you start feeling like this? I know I could use some hugs.
 
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sheanna

New member
With my hospital visit coming up, I just can't seem to get out of this totally bummed out mood.

I've always just considered CF as a part of who I am, but anymore it's all i think about. I think it's because I'm graduating and planning for my future, but I don't know what is wise and what isn't for me. I know my doctor totally supports me being a vet, but I still have this feeling of 'how will I do it?' I'm healthy now, but you never know what bugs you'll pick up along the way.

Then there's the fact of my CFRD...I have been taking 6-7 shots a day, and my A1C is worse by two whole points than when I started insulin! I can't gain weight worth crap (at least I haven't lost, but I'd like to put on like 2 pounds) despite eating CONSTANTLY. My only graduation wish was laser eye surgery, and now I don't even know if I can get that. It's like I'm watching my life slowly fall apart.

Not to mention I'm starting to feel that hardly anybody at my job give half a s*** about my health. I know two people do, but the others are too busy being lazy to notice if I'm coughing to death and need to chill for a minute. I don't think anybody knows what CF is either, except for those two people who cared to ask. For instance, when I told my boss about it, she was like "Oh, okay." and that was that. She didn't ask what it was, how she could accommodate, etc. I just don't know what to do...I don't want to quit - it's my dream job. But there's no reason I need to be sweeping floors, etc etc because I get sick every time. I'm at the point of being bitchy with the people who push me around like that.

I guess I just don't know what I should do. I'm tired of going home and crying all the time because I feel like nobody cares. I never used to be like this, but it happens all the time now. What do you guys do when you start feeling like this? I know I could use some hugs.
 
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sheanna

New member
With my hospital visit coming up, I just can't seem to get out of this totally bummed out mood.

I've always just considered CF as a part of who I am, but anymore it's all i think about. I think it's because I'm graduating and planning for my future, but I don't know what is wise and what isn't for me. I know my doctor totally supports me being a vet, but I still have this feeling of 'how will I do it?' I'm healthy now, but you never know what bugs you'll pick up along the way.

Then there's the fact of my CFRD...I have been taking 6-7 shots a day, and my A1C is worse by two whole points than when I started insulin! I can't gain weight worth crap (at least I haven't lost, but I'd like to put on like 2 pounds) despite eating CONSTANTLY. My only graduation wish was laser eye surgery, and now I don't even know if I can get that. It's like I'm watching my life slowly fall apart.

Not to mention I'm starting to feel that hardly anybody at my job give half a s*** about my health. I know two people do, but the others are too busy being lazy to notice if I'm coughing to death and need to chill for a minute. I don't think anybody knows what CF is either, except for those two people who cared to ask. For instance, when I told my boss about it, she was like "Oh, okay." and that was that. She didn't ask what it was, how she could accommodate, etc. I just don't know what to do...I don't want to quit - it's my dream job. But there's no reason I need to be sweeping floors, etc etc because I get sick every time. I'm at the point of being bitchy with the people who push me around like that.

I guess I just don't know what I should do. I'm tired of going home and crying all the time because I feel like nobody cares. I never used to be like this, but it happens all the time now. What do you guys do when you start feeling like this? I know I could use some hugs.
 
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sheanna

New member
With my hospital visit coming up, I just can't seem to get out of this totally bummed out mood.

I've always just considered CF as a part of who I am, but anymore it's all i think about. I think it's because I'm graduating and planning for my future, but I don't know what is wise and what isn't for me. I know my doctor totally supports me being a vet, but I still have this feeling of 'how will I do it?' I'm healthy now, but you never know what bugs you'll pick up along the way.

Then there's the fact of my CFRD...I have been taking 6-7 shots a day, and my A1C is worse by two whole points than when I started insulin! I can't gain weight worth crap (at least I haven't lost, but I'd like to put on like 2 pounds) despite eating CONSTANTLY. My only graduation wish was laser eye surgery, and now I don't even know if I can get that. It's like I'm watching my life slowly fall apart.

Not to mention I'm starting to feel that hardly anybody at my job give half a s*** about my health. I know two people do, but the others are too busy being lazy to notice if I'm coughing to death and need to chill for a minute. I don't think anybody knows what CF is either, except for those two people who cared to ask. For instance, when I told my boss about it, she was like "Oh, okay." and that was that. She didn't ask what it was, how she could accommodate, etc. I just don't know what to do...I don't want to quit - it's my dream job. But there's no reason I need to be sweeping floors, etc etc because I get sick every time. I'm at the point of being bitchy with the people who push me around like that.

I guess I just don't know what I should do. I'm tired of going home and crying all the time because I feel like nobody cares. I never used to be like this, but it happens all the time now. What do you guys do when you start feeling like this? I know I could use some hugs.
 
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sheanna

New member
With my hospital visit coming up, I just can't seem to get out of this totally bummed out mood.
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<br />I've always just considered CF as a part of who I am, but anymore it's all i think about. I think it's because I'm graduating and planning for my future, but I don't know what is wise and what isn't for me. I know my doctor totally supports me being a vet, but I still have this feeling of 'how will I do it?' I'm healthy now, but you never know what bugs you'll pick up along the way.
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<br />Then there's the fact of my CFRD...I have been taking 6-7 shots a day, and my A1C is worse by two whole points than when I started insulin! I can't gain weight worth crap (at least I haven't lost, but I'd like to put on like 2 pounds) despite eating CONSTANTLY. My only graduation wish was laser eye surgery, and now I don't even know if I can get that. It's like I'm watching my life slowly fall apart.
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<br />Not to mention I'm starting to feel that hardly anybody at my job give half a s*** about my health. I know two people do, but the others are too busy being lazy to notice if I'm coughing to death and need to chill for a minute. I don't think anybody knows what CF is either, except for those two people who cared to ask. For instance, when I told my boss about it, she was like "Oh, okay." and that was that. She didn't ask what it was, how she could accommodate, etc. I just don't know what to do...I don't want to quit - it's my dream job. But there's no reason I need to be sweeping floors, etc etc because I get sick every time. I'm at the point of being bitchy with the people who push me around like that.
<br />
<br />I guess I just don't know what I should do. I'm tired of going home and crying all the time because I feel like nobody cares. I never used to be like this, but it happens all the time now. What do you guys do when you start feeling like this? I know I could use some hugs.
 
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bittyhorse23

New member
Here are a few tips and ignore them if you do it already <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-happy.gif" border="0">

Wear a mask when sweeping. It totally helps!!!
Tell your boss when you NEED to take a break. She/He can't say no.
People may not care but try to educate them on what CF is and maybe they will be more understanding.
Don't worry about tomorrow, live today!

If I had known my health would fail only 6 years after graduating from college I probably never would have went. If I had known that my health would fail before I even finished getting my undergrad degree I never would have went back. But you don't know what will happen so you have to just live it day by day. Don't worry about how you will do your job. It will all fall into place eventually. I am slowly learning this now. I don't have my dream job but my job allows me to use my degree a little bit so it works for me. I had to give up ever applying for my dream job with my dream company because I can't work OT/full time anymore.

I get depressed alot. I am on anti-depressants but somedays my depression gets the better of me (like when I am inpatient). It's very hard but I try to make the most of my days. I try NOT to dwell on things and just live. Yes it is hard to do it all the time but we are allowed a few bad days here and there. It's when the bad days take over all the time that there is a problem.

Have you talked to a psychologist? Or your CF dr about maybe starting anti-depressants? Or just trying talk therapy to work through it all. It really does help.

I hope you can work through this and see that CF may suck rat turds but we are still alive so lets live <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-happy.gif" border="0">

<img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
 
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bittyhorse23

New member
Here are a few tips and ignore them if you do it already <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-happy.gif" border="0">

Wear a mask when sweeping. It totally helps!!!
Tell your boss when you NEED to take a break. She/He can't say no.
People may not care but try to educate them on what CF is and maybe they will be more understanding.
Don't worry about tomorrow, live today!

If I had known my health would fail only 6 years after graduating from college I probably never would have went. If I had known that my health would fail before I even finished getting my undergrad degree I never would have went back. But you don't know what will happen so you have to just live it day by day. Don't worry about how you will do your job. It will all fall into place eventually. I am slowly learning this now. I don't have my dream job but my job allows me to use my degree a little bit so it works for me. I had to give up ever applying for my dream job with my dream company because I can't work OT/full time anymore.

I get depressed alot. I am on anti-depressants but somedays my depression gets the better of me (like when I am inpatient). It's very hard but I try to make the most of my days. I try NOT to dwell on things and just live. Yes it is hard to do it all the time but we are allowed a few bad days here and there. It's when the bad days take over all the time that there is a problem.

Have you talked to a psychologist? Or your CF dr about maybe starting anti-depressants? Or just trying talk therapy to work through it all. It really does help.

I hope you can work through this and see that CF may suck rat turds but we are still alive so lets live <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-happy.gif" border="0">

<img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
 
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bittyhorse23

New member
Here are a few tips and ignore them if you do it already <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-happy.gif" border="0">

Wear a mask when sweeping. It totally helps!!!
Tell your boss when you NEED to take a break. She/He can't say no.
People may not care but try to educate them on what CF is and maybe they will be more understanding.
Don't worry about tomorrow, live today!

If I had known my health would fail only 6 years after graduating from college I probably never would have went. If I had known that my health would fail before I even finished getting my undergrad degree I never would have went back. But you don't know what will happen so you have to just live it day by day. Don't worry about how you will do your job. It will all fall into place eventually. I am slowly learning this now. I don't have my dream job but my job allows me to use my degree a little bit so it works for me. I had to give up ever applying for my dream job with my dream company because I can't work OT/full time anymore.

I get depressed alot. I am on anti-depressants but somedays my depression gets the better of me (like when I am inpatient). It's very hard but I try to make the most of my days. I try NOT to dwell on things and just live. Yes it is hard to do it all the time but we are allowed a few bad days here and there. It's when the bad days take over all the time that there is a problem.

Have you talked to a psychologist? Or your CF dr about maybe starting anti-depressants? Or just trying talk therapy to work through it all. It really does help.

I hope you can work through this and see that CF may suck rat turds but we are still alive so lets live <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-happy.gif" border="0">

<img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
 
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bittyhorse23

New member
Here are a few tips and ignore them if you do it already <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-happy.gif" border="0">

Wear a mask when sweeping. It totally helps!!!
Tell your boss when you NEED to take a break. She/He can't say no.
People may not care but try to educate them on what CF is and maybe they will be more understanding.
Don't worry about tomorrow, live today!

If I had known my health would fail only 6 years after graduating from college I probably never would have went. If I had known that my health would fail before I even finished getting my undergrad degree I never would have went back. But you don't know what will happen so you have to just live it day by day. Don't worry about how you will do your job. It will all fall into place eventually. I am slowly learning this now. I don't have my dream job but my job allows me to use my degree a little bit so it works for me. I had to give up ever applying for my dream job with my dream company because I can't work OT/full time anymore.

I get depressed alot. I am on anti-depressants but somedays my depression gets the better of me (like when I am inpatient). It's very hard but I try to make the most of my days. I try NOT to dwell on things and just live. Yes it is hard to do it all the time but we are allowed a few bad days here and there. It's when the bad days take over all the time that there is a problem.

Have you talked to a psychologist? Or your CF dr about maybe starting anti-depressants? Or just trying talk therapy to work through it all. It really does help.

I hope you can work through this and see that CF may suck rat turds but we are still alive so lets live <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-happy.gif" border="0">

<img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
 
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bittyhorse23

New member
Here are a few tips and ignore them if you do it already <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-happy.gif" border="0">
<br />
<br />Wear a mask when sweeping. It totally helps!!!
<br />Tell your boss when you NEED to take a break. She/He can't say no.
<br />People may not care but try to educate them on what CF is and maybe they will be more understanding.
<br />Don't worry about tomorrow, live today!
<br />
<br />If I had known my health would fail only 6 years after graduating from college I probably never would have went. If I had known that my health would fail before I even finished getting my undergrad degree I never would have went back. But you don't know what will happen so you have to just live it day by day. Don't worry about how you will do your job. It will all fall into place eventually. I am slowly learning this now. I don't have my dream job but my job allows me to use my degree a little bit so it works for me. I had to give up ever applying for my dream job with my dream company because I can't work OT/full time anymore.
<br />
<br />I get depressed alot. I am on anti-depressants but somedays my depression gets the better of me (like when I am inpatient). It's very hard but I try to make the most of my days. I try NOT to dwell on things and just live. Yes it is hard to do it all the time but we are allowed a few bad days here and there. It's when the bad days take over all the time that there is a problem.
<br />
<br />Have you talked to a psychologist? Or your CF dr about maybe starting anti-depressants? Or just trying talk therapy to work through it all. It really does help.
<br />
<br />I hope you can work through this and see that CF may suck rat turds but we are still alive so lets live <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-happy.gif" border="0">
<br />
<br /><img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
 
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Skye

New member
I am sorry you are feeling depressed. That is not a fun place to be and I am sending you lots of cyber hugs. My only advice to you is some medical advice. If you are taking 6-7 shots per day and you still do not like your A1C, that in itself is enough to make you down. That roller coaster ride that you may be on with your insulin shots may play into your emotions. When you take that many shots, you are always dealing with a peak throughout the day. Those peaks can be very difficult. They are rarely perfect and a low will make you grouchy and a high will make you exhausted and grouchy. If it is possible for you to consider an insulin pump, I would run to the nearest medtronic mart and get one<img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0"> I mean that figuratively of course. Especially if you are considering college. Having well regulated sugars is good for your lungs, your immune system, and your all around well-being. With a pump, you eat when you want to and not because you have to. I rarely experience lows or anything very high and my A1C is always around 5. I don't know much about what to do for CF and depression, although I think we all deal with that monster now and then.

Hugs to you!
Karen
 
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Skye

New member
I am sorry you are feeling depressed. That is not a fun place to be and I am sending you lots of cyber hugs. My only advice to you is some medical advice. If you are taking 6-7 shots per day and you still do not like your A1C, that in itself is enough to make you down. That roller coaster ride that you may be on with your insulin shots may play into your emotions. When you take that many shots, you are always dealing with a peak throughout the day. Those peaks can be very difficult. They are rarely perfect and a low will make you grouchy and a high will make you exhausted and grouchy. If it is possible for you to consider an insulin pump, I would run to the nearest medtronic mart and get one<img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0"> I mean that figuratively of course. Especially if you are considering college. Having well regulated sugars is good for your lungs, your immune system, and your all around well-being. With a pump, you eat when you want to and not because you have to. I rarely experience lows or anything very high and my A1C is always around 5. I don't know much about what to do for CF and depression, although I think we all deal with that monster now and then.

Hugs to you!
Karen
 
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Skye

New member
I am sorry you are feeling depressed. That is not a fun place to be and I am sending you lots of cyber hugs. My only advice to you is some medical advice. If you are taking 6-7 shots per day and you still do not like your A1C, that in itself is enough to make you down. That roller coaster ride that you may be on with your insulin shots may play into your emotions. When you take that many shots, you are always dealing with a peak throughout the day. Those peaks can be very difficult. They are rarely perfect and a low will make you grouchy and a high will make you exhausted and grouchy. If it is possible for you to consider an insulin pump, I would run to the nearest medtronic mart and get one<img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0"> I mean that figuratively of course. Especially if you are considering college. Having well regulated sugars is good for your lungs, your immune system, and your all around well-being. With a pump, you eat when you want to and not because you have to. I rarely experience lows or anything very high and my A1C is always around 5. I don't know much about what to do for CF and depression, although I think we all deal with that monster now and then.

Hugs to you!
Karen
 
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Skye

New member
I am sorry you are feeling depressed. That is not a fun place to be and I am sending you lots of cyber hugs. My only advice to you is some medical advice. If you are taking 6-7 shots per day and you still do not like your A1C, that in itself is enough to make you down. That roller coaster ride that you may be on with your insulin shots may play into your emotions. When you take that many shots, you are always dealing with a peak throughout the day. Those peaks can be very difficult. They are rarely perfect and a low will make you grouchy and a high will make you exhausted and grouchy. If it is possible for you to consider an insulin pump, I would run to the nearest medtronic mart and get one<img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0"> I mean that figuratively of course. Especially if you are considering college. Having well regulated sugars is good for your lungs, your immune system, and your all around well-being. With a pump, you eat when you want to and not because you have to. I rarely experience lows or anything very high and my A1C is always around 5. I don't know much about what to do for CF and depression, although I think we all deal with that monster now and then.

Hugs to you!
Karen
 
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Skye

New member
I am sorry you are feeling depressed. That is not a fun place to be and I am sending you lots of cyber hugs. My only advice to you is some medical advice. If you are taking 6-7 shots per day and you still do not like your A1C, that in itself is enough to make you down. That roller coaster ride that you may be on with your insulin shots may play into your emotions. When you take that many shots, you are always dealing with a peak throughout the day. Those peaks can be very difficult. They are rarely perfect and a low will make you grouchy and a high will make you exhausted and grouchy. If it is possible for you to consider an insulin pump, I would run to the nearest medtronic mart and get one<img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-smile.gif" border="0"> I mean that figuratively of course. Especially if you are considering college. Having well regulated sugars is good for your lungs, your immune system, and your all around well-being. With a pump, you eat when you want to and not because you have to. I rarely experience lows or anything very high and my A1C is always around 5. I don't know much about what to do for CF and depression, although I think we all deal with that monster now and then.
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<br />Hugs to you!
<br />Karen
 
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