hey stop being so down, yes death is something we have to deal with as cfers and the fact that you can feel it coming is the worst of it, my case is mild but my condition has fallen dramatically recently and i, as well as the other people here know what your going though, just remember, your not dead yet enjoy the time you have here while you have it. plan for the future because when you've lost hope you've lost it all, hang onto hope keep your spirits up. No one comes though this earth and doesn't make an impact on someone else's life, you have really made me think about how i have going about my life recently, you have people that love you and want you to hang around for a while, look at the things you can look forward to, even the little things are worth hanging around for; your favorite tv show, a baby laughing, falling in love, i didn't realize this till not long ago and i was right where you are now, you can do it, think about your parents and friends and family, you have impacted their lives in some way, you might not realize it but its there. Go talk to a counceler or a minister and take heed their advise, its probably good.