Emily65Roses
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I wasn't originally going to answer this thread, but I'm bored, so I figure I'll give it a shot. Hang on, try to be patient, because I may ramble a bit.
Okay, let's start with depression. Yes, I have it. I have since I was about... 14 years old. I've been on meds since I was 16 or so, though they've changed a few times. It wasn't really CF-related, though. I was made fun of, sure. But I was made fun of for plenty, CF was just part of it. My big CF-related depression thing was that around the age of 17, I went nutty. I decided it was about time I got married and moved out and all that... and I was frickin 17. The guy I was with was like "whoa, chill the hell out, not happening." I had a bit of a meltdown. I was destructive those years. I started cutting myself when I was 15 and that continued for 5 years. I also ODed when I was 17, spent a week in a mental ward. That was fun. Ahahahaa.
I got drunk a lot in high school. It was basically what we did on the weekends. Before I got to sleeping meds, I used to take a few shots before bed to help me sleep. I had a lot of issues, really. I also smoked weed in high school (couple times a month, max). I wanted to have fun, I was sick of working around the CF, so I said effff it. (I still get high sometimes, but now I eat it. <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-wink.gif" border="0"> )
I also seem to have anxiety issues, but I haven't gotten any help for that. Every once and a while, something will get on my mind, and I won't be able to shake it (work I need to do and haven't gotten to, even stupid sh*t like if I wake up from a nap and start to get worried that I won't fall back asleep - which does wake me up and prevent me from sleeping further). My pulse goes up, I shake. Sometimes if it's bad enough, I'll lose feeling in my fingers and toes. Sometimes even my whole hands. My eyes tend to twitch. A lot of fun.
I haven't added a med for the anxiety. I've asked my doc about it, but never followed through. I'm already on enough, and I don't want to add anymore. Additionally, I've been dealing with this anxiety crap without meds. Even though I <b>hate</b> it, I've been sucking it up minus meds like I said, and I figure I've done it so far, so I can keep going. I'm really just not up to adding another med if I don't need to. I'm currently on Wellbutrin for the depression and Melatonin (OTC) for sleep. That's it for mental meds.
Okay, let's start with depression. Yes, I have it. I have since I was about... 14 years old. I've been on meds since I was 16 or so, though they've changed a few times. It wasn't really CF-related, though. I was made fun of, sure. But I was made fun of for plenty, CF was just part of it. My big CF-related depression thing was that around the age of 17, I went nutty. I decided it was about time I got married and moved out and all that... and I was frickin 17. The guy I was with was like "whoa, chill the hell out, not happening." I had a bit of a meltdown. I was destructive those years. I started cutting myself when I was 15 and that continued for 5 years. I also ODed when I was 17, spent a week in a mental ward. That was fun. Ahahahaa.
I got drunk a lot in high school. It was basically what we did on the weekends. Before I got to sleeping meds, I used to take a few shots before bed to help me sleep. I had a lot of issues, really. I also smoked weed in high school (couple times a month, max). I wanted to have fun, I was sick of working around the CF, so I said effff it. (I still get high sometimes, but now I eat it. <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-wink.gif" border="0"> )
I also seem to have anxiety issues, but I haven't gotten any help for that. Every once and a while, something will get on my mind, and I won't be able to shake it (work I need to do and haven't gotten to, even stupid sh*t like if I wake up from a nap and start to get worried that I won't fall back asleep - which does wake me up and prevent me from sleeping further). My pulse goes up, I shake. Sometimes if it's bad enough, I'll lose feeling in my fingers and toes. Sometimes even my whole hands. My eyes tend to twitch. A lot of fun.
I haven't added a med for the anxiety. I've asked my doc about it, but never followed through. I'm already on enough, and I don't want to add anymore. Additionally, I've been dealing with this anxiety crap without meds. Even though I <b>hate</b> it, I've been sucking it up minus meds like I said, and I figure I've done it so far, so I can keep going. I'm really just not up to adding another med if I don't need to. I'm currently on Wellbutrin for the depression and Melatonin (OTC) for sleep. That's it for mental meds.